Crammed in one

- Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Well, us girls (sara bren suping and myself) are OBSESSED OVER EDWARD from twilight & new moon (sequel). Brenda was saying how she thought ryan phillipe would be suitable to play the role of edward and GOSH, after i thought about it, I COULDNT AGREE MORE.

RYAN PHILLIPE IS SO HAWT
undeniable *sizzling* Tss~

he has that whole CHARMING, SEDUCTIVE thing going on. ALL Y'ALL WHO DONT KNOW WHO HE IS SHOULD GO WATCH CRUEL INTENTIONS. you'll fall head over heels for him, TRUST ME. He is like a GREEK GOD or something (okay so maybe im exaggerating)

Look at his face! he has that whole Vampire look DOWN already!

XD gosh, look at those EYES! but seriously, you girls have to see him in ACTION to really get the FULL EFFECT.

*drools* I WAAAAAAANNTT!!!

again.... RYAN PHILLIPE!!! *swoons*

Brenda agreed to take Jacob so i can have Edward.


EDWARD IS MINE.
girlfriends, get your hands off him. XD

See the main character Bella is supposed to look plain beside Edward and so i thought, WHO BETTER TO PLAY THE ROLE THAN ME!?? i mean, SUUURE.. im chinese and shes not - OH BIG DEAL. make up can do WONDERS! and the age factor... well AGAIN, make up make up MAKE UP! see? problem solved. (muahahahaaa)

Oh and today was pretty funny. Yen hsian went for choir practice so yonghui came over and played the drawing game with me again. i was DEVASTATED to find that he can draw objects. *sigh* I CANT DRAW ANYTHING AT ALL, im like LOUSY at drawing! GOSH! haha, he can draw stuff like STAPLERS, HELICOPTERS, ROCKETS etc. But not animals. *shakes head* BOOOYS. figures. But i still didnt expect him to be so good. *darnit*

After that wooshen came over and asked us to draw some stuff... and one of them happened to be BIO TEXTBOOK. cannot use any words in the drawing. It was HILARIOUS because yonghui and i drew THE EXACT SAME THING. like EXACTLY THE SAME.


Yeah thats what we drew. XD Other than that, school was pretty much uneventful and the same as always.

Oh and thanks to yesterday's seminar + a little (LOTS ACTUALLY) pressure from my parents, i actually considered what i may want to be in the future. and i dont know, psychology seems to appeal to me. haha, i want to be a marriage + family therapist. XD that'd be really cool! i feel like i can relate to people, y'know? Then i was thinking how i would deal with a person who wants to commit suicide :-

'..and how do you feel today?'
'you want to SHOOT YOURSELF!?!'
'well... if you think its going to make you feel better..'
'I WAS JUST KIDDING'
*bang*
'oh shit. not ANOTHER one.'

Business appeals to me too! Joyee said i should take both. haha, i really dont know. One thing im sure of is, im not going to be doing actuarial science like my siblings. XD *sshh dont tell anyone* but i've always had this secret wanting of being a radio dj. XD seems really cool! to be just TALKING ON THE RADIO ALL DAY AND GET PAID FOR IT. GOSH. and maybe, just MAYBE i'd be able to grow from there and become the next OPRAH WINFREY. THE MOST POWERFUL WOMAN! WOOOOOOOT! too bad its not possible. Ah well.

What are you guys going to be?

One of the saddest days

- Tuesday, April 10, 2007

The hints were there.

The hints were obvious.
I just closed my eyes,
I didnt want to see.
But i see now and
i have finally decided to let go.
What are teen crushes anyway?
Pfft.Im happier this way.
Hope and dreams suck when they are not meant to be.
It happens to everyone. Its okay.

im bloody pms-ing now. its so damned obvious. so im sorry this post is going to sound unreasonably emotional, but really this is how i feel now and i cant exactly stop it. so yeah. dont read if you dont feel like it. =)

after talking to sara on the phone yesterday night (from like 11pm till 2am), i lied in bed and thought about everything. and everything started to look clearer... than it was before. I couldnt sleep for the next 40 minutes, just lied there and thought... and felt sad and sorry for myself. This morning was the same. I sat in class all sad and down as i thought about it. The more i thought the more emotional i became. I just sat there feeling all HEAVY. I couldnt breathe properly, it just all felt so cooped up.

you know the feeling you get when you're watching this super friggin sad movie and the moment before you cry, the tight feeling you feel in your heart? the feeling of not being able to breathe because your feelings are being suppressed and you just want to let it out?

that was how i felt. exactly like that. I wanted to let it out, i did, but i didnt want to cry. That would have just been pathetic. Worse, LOWER than that. But in the end i teared. Yen hsian asked, 'why are you crying?' and i just lied (for i was in denial) 'im not CRYING, im just tired.' and i was... tired i mean. Tired of feeling that way. Tired, just TIRED. went to sara and ranted to her and felt a wee bit better. but gosh, the seminar really made me all the happy again. i was almost back to my normal cheerful self.

Until recess, thoughts started straying back again. During class yonghui and bryan and woo shen was playing this drawing game. took my mind off things and i felt so happy again. i was so glad the distraction was there. Thank God for them three idiots who cant draw. ESPECIALLY YONGHUI. XD i laughed like crap at his attempt to draw a SQUID (which turned out to look like an octopus =__="), a PANDA, a CROC, a DRAGON etc. IT WAS HILARIOUS! =) thanks for the break guys!

During history lesson i pondered about it again but pushed the thoughts away. I didnt want to feel sad, i didnt. and then i went out.. and i saw it. and everything came back to me and i started to get all emotional again. I tried acting happy. i tried acting like nothing happened, and honestly i think no one noticed the difference until sara came along and i pulled her aside and i half screamed/shouted (which made a very ugly noise but i didnt care cause i was too upset to be bothered at the time) while we kinda linked by the waist ran down the road.

...and then PONTENG KING looked back and saw me. =__=" i felt like. 'omigod'. but yeah, was WAAAY too upset to spend too much thought on that. I think people around were kind of looking too, but it didnt matter. went outside and i talked to brenda about it, because she didnt know what happened and i sort of teared a bit again (dont think she noticed though =D) i made up my mind.

I. CAN. DO. THIS. IF. I. SET. MY. MIND. TO. IT.

besides, how hard can it be right? *bangs head on table* this TOTALLY SUCKS. I HATE PMS-ING, i become so damn irrational and emotional and GAAAAAAAAHH!! after that we went to brendas house for practice (singing). Felt a little bit passive at first, but after that i was okay... well by okay i actually mean, felt better. Now that im back home again, and ALONE without ANYONE to distract me, im all DOWN again. i wish this phase would end. yes, thats what im calling it, a PHASE.

there has got to be more to life

Photos that make me SMILE. x) feel better just looking at them. Click to enlarge ya? =) all the funny funny happy smiley laughy faces that i LOVE LOVE LOVE.

- sigh -

We are family~

- Sunday, April 08, 2007

Today was grandma's birthday, and so everyone went for a birthday dinner! x) ze following are ze photos taken: -

It all starts out in the car. *ahem* hahahahaha
wine, anyone? (i do SOOO hate my eyebags.. NOT A WORD)
The very lively talkative kids ('cept for hanhien who seems to be dreaming?)
Plotting something eviiiilll!!
Cousin Karliang wanna kiss shane and shane's looking all
'haihya, happens so often im used to it already la' XD
after that my sis kissed shane's cheek, my 5th aunt was like 'eeyer!'
and shane was all
'she kiss so many times already lo'.
hilarious. Shane is LOVABLE, you see him and you just start falling in love with him HAHAHA.
Hey liying! remember you went shane crazy?!?! XD
Shaun is still pretty stunned after hearing what shane said and seeing what karliang and sis did. or maybe he's more of thinking
'why not meh?' xp
The little ones. =) they are SO ADORABLE LAR! belle and john.
John HAD to go ruin that CUTE image with, (and i quote him)
'Look!! im a FISH'
Sheldon bumz! he just cut his hair. ITS SO FUNNY. like rock lee from naruto, bowl cut. wth maaaan XD
Jianjian looking like a perv. well, that was the look he was TRYING to get at, dont know if he got it right. you be the judge of that. lol
Karliang and shaun DRUNK WITH F&N
Sing song time! it was really fun cuz well there was another family celebrating birthday at the other side of the room and they sang before we did. so we purposely sang louder than them. XD i swear we were all almost shouting. hahaa but yeah, was SO FUN.
We took turns taking picture, family by family. hehe =)
gong gong and po po!
Not more PICTURES PLLEAAASEEE!!
(sheryl hates taking pictures. all the pictures i have of her are taken without her knowing. *sigh* SHES SO PRETTY OKAAAY, she is SO going to regret it when she grows older and finds that there arent many pics of herself to look through)
Kids nowadays *tsk tsk tsk*

and that concludes another episode of
OUT WITH LIMAY AND FAMILY.
tune in for more episodes of
OUT WITH LIMAY AND FAMILY.
till then, goodbye and have a nice day.

- im going to be just fine, just you wait and see x) -

girl talk

- Saturday, April 07, 2007

quotes brenda the great, 'how girls chat' :-

·brrrrenda-chan· (BC)²
lol

·brrrrenda-chan· (BC)²
i was thinking one day

·brrrrenda-chan· (BC)²
that one day, in the future

·brrrrenda-chan· (BC)²
i wouldnt like to work all my life only and think career career career right

·brrrrenda-chan· (BC)²
so i know i would like to have kids

|| Mäy || 媚
uhhuh

|| Mäy || 媚
i want kids

·brrrrenda-chan· (BC)²
because it seems nice

|| Mäy || 媚
=D

|| Mäy || 媚
i want KIDS

|| Mäy || 媚
KIDS KIDS KIDS

|| Mäy || 媚
1 or 2

|| Mäy || 媚
will be enough

|| Mäy || 媚
dont want 3

|| Mäy || 媚
=D

·brrrrenda-chan· (BC)²
to know to have someone that you'll love for sure

|| Mäy || 媚
thats mah goal 1 or 2

|| Mäy || 媚
someone to love ME ME ME

·brrrrenda-chan· (BC)²
so when you love someone, life actually seems more meaningful

|| Mäy || 媚
and mah sexy self

|| Mäy || 媚
yeah

·brrrrenda-chan· (BC)²
not like in the case of a guy

|| Mäy || 媚
and i'd do things for HIM HIM HIM

·brrrrenda-chan· (BC)²
love comes and go

|| Mäy || 媚
cuz hez so damn sexy

|| Mäy || 媚
=D

·brrrrenda-chan· (BC)²
but kids are like. love FOREVER

|| Mäy || 媚
yeaaaah

|| Mäy || 媚
i want a lil girl

|| Mäy || 媚
and a lil boy

|| Mäy || 媚
=')

·brrrrenda-chan· (BC)²
i have a feeling we're talking on different wavelengths here.

super cacat!! XD i didnt even realise until she pointed it out. we were like talking about our own thing, not really reading what each other were saying. XD FUNNY LA WEY!

how to waste your time?

- Thursday, April 05, 2007

take lotsa FUN FUN quizzes that tell you things you more or less already knew about yourself but really, this clears it all up. XD

You Are Lilac

You are a very innocent and pure person. Ethics matter to you.
Your friends consider you a great listener, and you often play therapist to your friends.
You are good at drawing out truths in conversation, however painful they may be.
Non judgmental and patient - people feel like they can tell you anything!


What You Really Think Of Your Friends
Karen is your soulmate.
You truly love Weikhai/Sara [?].
You consider Bryan your true friend.
You know that Cassie is always thinking of you.
You'll remember Brenda/Liying for the rest of your life.
You secretly think Suping is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.
You secretly think that Brenda is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.
You secretly think that Guoyaw? is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Guoyaw? changes lovers faster than underwear.
You secretly think Kwanseng is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Kwanseng has a hidden internet romance.

*laughs like shit* HAHAHAAHAHHAHAAHAHA the guoyaw one is so funny. how can they DETERMINE THROUGH COLOUR LA. cacatnya. so cassie is always thinking of me. GASP. NOW I KNOW. XD

You Sometimes Hold a Grudge

You aren't exactly vengeful, but you're not going to forget when someone wrongs you.
And while you'll forgive the small things, you don't hand out too many second chances to people who really screw up.
eeek.. this is kind of true? XD *secrets out!!*

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

(grins damn wide now, too bad its just a QUIZ) HAH! ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO CALL ME CHILDISH AR.. LOOKIT! childlike but not CHILDISH! in your FACE! BWAHHAHAHA *grins wider* i LOVE that line now. mah new favourite. hahahaa

You Are 26 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

i swear the last time i did this test i was 23. and now im 26!?!? wow. and the last time i did this was last year. so fast change?!? (wth im OLD) i thought i was CHILDLIKE. apa ni!?!? XD

You Belong in Spring

Optimistic, lively, and almost always happy with the world...
You can truly appreciate the blooming nature of spring.
Whether you're planting flowers or dyeing Easter eggs, spring is definitely your season!

Brenda is fall. x) we're TWO SEASONS AWAY!!!


Your Seduction Style: The Natural



You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.

Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.

You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!

People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.


HAHAHHAHAA.. i wish. lol

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're a very well adjusted and happy person.

Overall, you are very content in your life.

You tend to be a very productive thinker.

You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind.

happy happy person. thats me! (lol)

Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing.
You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes.
And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad.
You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.

super lazy do quizzes liao. do so long. besides gonna play sudoku with CASSIE! =D

- can i win this time? .. please? -

Another one of THOSE days

- Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Been feeling slightly OFF lately, like somethings out of place in my life. Just want to fix it but really dont know where to start. or maybe i do.. but im just in denial and i dont want to see the problem. If i ignore it, it will solve itself and all will be well again? (wishful thinking) Pfft. I hate myself for being this way, always running away from a problem and letting it accumulate into one huge ball of $#$%#%$#%$# (lack of better words to describe, but gosh, that really DOES give you an idea, right? i know! tell me about it) and then look at it passively going '...what now?' before breaking down. Im so pathetic this way. I really am.

And things arent what they used to be with YOU anymore. Its different, and i dont like the change. I wonder if YOU notice it. Perhaps im just thinking to much, perhaps it means nothing to YOU at all. Sigh. I JUST WANT TO STOP. STOP. STOP. AND $#$#$%#%$#%$#$%#$#$ (again, WHAT AN EFFECT! O.O i feel it so strongly, dont you?) Why cant things revert back to normal? i say im trying, but really, lately i feel as if i am not anymore. Am i giving up? is that what i really want to do? its not. its not. its not. but isnt that what i am already doing? *sigh* see? running away from the problem yet AGAIN, go ahead, give me a round of applause.

Anyway, dont waste your time pondering on who YOU is.
it prolly isnt you. x)

Think happy thoughts, think SUSHI! (going to mah happy place)

Ps felt really happy that joyee really liked what i gave him. =) i finished it yesterday with the thought of 'oh God its HORRIBLE i dont want to give it to them (gling and joyee) neemorreee. GAAAH!!' but thanks to the erm, assurance from sis and cas, i felt better la. Not gonna let my hard work go to waste!! XD

Joyee liked it and i got lotsa praises from lotsa people (grins like a fool) im still really not used to receiving praises. feel so... haha. (grins more) XD i dont think i can smile any wider than that. if i could, i would. x) my work is APPRECIATED! *sniffles* x)

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