hateful

Today was the first practice we ever had for singing the graduation song. and it was fine at first when we practiced outside without the piano and all. but when it was our turn and we went on stage. all hell broke loose and it was a horrible mess.

Some couldnt hear the piano
Some couldnt find the beat
Some didnt know when to come in
Some couldnt hear each other

..But we did the best we could
we tried to just GO ALONG WITH IT and you know - hope for the best. after we finished there was this group of girls who started boo-ing us. One especially loud. and seriously at that moment, i just felt all the hate in the world gather up in me and my blood was boiling i wanted to just CHARGE right over to her and give her a tight slap on her pudgy face. yeah so it wasnt pudgy (this is me being mean), whatever. It looked pretty fat to me. But since im all about world peace and also because im not allowed AND CANNOT DO THAT, i guess my imagination will suffice. I hope y'all would start picturing it with me, you never know.. maybe she'll start dreaming about getting slapped. that'd be WONDERFUL. she definitely deserves THAT.

Its so insensitive. Rude. Mean. what a HATEFUL thing to do. What more, its not like THEIR group did supremely well. I mean seriously HOW WOULD SHE HAVE LIKED IT IF WE BLOODY BOO-ED HER. thank God the rest of us are more THOUGHTFUL. friggin IDIOT girl. we already KNEW we were doing BAD. SHE JUST HAD TO EMPHASIZE IT. VERY FUNNY MEH?!?! *slap her slap her slap her* i hope one day she gets a tomato thrown at her ( RIGHT SMACK IN HER FACE PLEASE!). humphhh!! horrible mean witch *only i didnt say witch*.

DO ON TO OTHERS WHAT YOU WOULD WANT DONE ONTO YOU
Bet she never heard that before. then agian, perhaps she didnt understand. *rolls eyes* im sorry im being so horrible. i take that back. im not sorry at all. Besides, she doesnt read my blog. she never changed since primary.
WHY WONT SHE JUST GROW UP
seriously.
some people are just so.. UGH.
I cannot stand the attitude. I have never boo-ed anyone in my life (unless as a joke. as in when im asked to. Like you know in the simple plan concert pierre said 'everyone shout together! CHUCK YOU SUCK!' and we all shouted that. so that doesnt count) chuck is the drummer by the way. good times good times. I MISS SIMPLE PLAN!
anyway back to topic. the teachers couldnt hear us so we had to sing AGAIN. this time LOUDER. so most of us were singing at the top of our lungs.. well supposedly singing but really like shouting maybe? and the teachers said that we were BORING and that it was DRAGGY and that we sounded like we were chanting. *ouch really*
So gling was asking the singing crowd what we would want to do.
  • change song
  • make the song more cheerful (meaning sing faster)

many opted to change song. I think maybe some of them didnt like the song to begin with. I found it rather depressing cause well the song was specially created by gling (english) and yee mun (chinese) and i really thought it was ALL THAT. it was THAT good, y'know? and michelle composed the piano piece to be fitted with it. I felt like OMG ALL THEIR EFFORTS GONE TO WASTE!

I was annoyed at the fact that everyone wasnt coorperating. At that very moment when being helpful and supportive was needed the most everyone was so ugh. Some guys wanted to leave and werent listening to gling talk, some were just talking away in their own little world. All the annoyance really built up in me. Gling was trying so hard to control the crowd and trying to make herself heard. She was so stressed and everything and everyone was NOT HELPING. and then there were ones that were pratically ATTACKING her.

one girl even dared say

'i already said so earlier. we have to practice before the holidays blabla'

at this time i snapped. HELLO?!? WHY POINT FINGERS AT SOMEBODY ELSE LAH WOMAN. YOU SO FRIGGIN SMART WHY DIDNT YOU ORGANISE. i tried to contain myself (not very well indeed cuz yenhsian said she could tell i was annoyed and was trying to control myself but yeah. she could tell) i said 'theres no use blaming anyone now. the week as PASSED. what you want to DO?'

focus on the present and what WE CAN DO now.

WHAT THE POINT OF SAYING ALL THAT SHIT LA.

ITS NOT HELPING YOU.

ITS NOT HELPING ME.

ITS NOT HELPING ANYONE.

does it make you FEEL better to put the blame on others? is THAT it? did you WANT to show everyone else that you are OMG SO MUCH SMARTER YOU ACTUALLY THOUGHT OF THAT?! well NEWS FLASH just in case you DONT KNOW im sure everyone had the same THOUGHT. but due to all of OUR non coorperative selves. and the fact that all we do is SIT BACK and wait for someone to STEP UP and take control, it DIDNT happen.

IT DIDNT HAPPEN AND WE CANT GO BACK IN TIME TO CHANGE THAT.

SO WHATS THE USE OF BLOODY COMPLAINING AND POINTING OUT THE OBVIOUS?!?

In the end, after a voting session. 15 ppl wanted to change the song another half of us wanted to keep the song. so ah well, we changed the song. to 'time after time'. its a nice song, but no offence, its kind of slow too. wasnt that the problem? the teacher said the previous song was too slow. i dont know. but right now im thinking WHATEVER. i really just felt like LEAVING then. seeing how everyone was acting, feeling how I WAS FEELING (horrible and hateful really about everyone and also myself) its just. well whatever.

..this was supposed to be fun

ps. i only say 'whatever' when im angry. I think saying 'whatever' is rude. but i blogged about that already. So if anyone sees this post and decides that saying 'whatever' to me is jolly well and good, think again. Please and thank you.

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