Child's Play: September 2007

PRETTY again!

- Sunday, September 30, 2007

yeah so er.. i blew my hair today and well..

the haircut? WELL IT REALLY ISNT THAT BAD.

in fact, im not sure if its bad AT ALL. okay go ahead, throw the rotten eggs at me for the false alarm. because im PRETTY AGAIN!! XD and i DONT CARREE~~~ hahahahahahaa *grins from ear to ear*

i think i was just having a REALLY bad hair day yesterday and so it looked FUGLY. which it DID, i tell no lie. My mom thought it looked FUGLY just like i did. So seriously! but today she was all 'OMG YOUR HAIR LOOKS NICE!!!' just like i thought it did. SO YEAH!

FALSE ALARM BUT REALLY IT WAS FUGLY YESTERDAY! DONT BEAT ME UP AND THROW STICKS AT ME! I SWEAR I DID NOT CRY FOR NO REASON. xp bleh, BUT IM REALLY SO HAPPY TODAY IM RADIATING JOY! JUST TAKE A LOOK AT ME! xp i'll blind you with all my SUNSHINE you wont be able to stand me.

no seriously

then agian, THROW ROCKS AT ME, I DONT CARE! xp MY HAIRS ALL PRETTY AGAIN!!!! *screams screams screams* whee!! but I STILL DO APPRECIATE ALL THE KIND WORDS everyone said to comfort me. xp

IM SUCH A GIRL

LOVE YOU ALL

today is going to be a great day. i can sense it. and mom was super cute today~ and im getting a boyfriend in uni~~ xp i already know which lot im picking from~ and i wont tell yooouU~~

knowing

The calm after the storm

needless to say, im feeling better today =) and my hair is OKAY now i guess, if i REALLY REALLY PURPOSELY SPEND TIME to adjust it (which i dont) but okay, thats life. deal with it. haha

and for those of you who have been JUDGING me for the little things i cry about when people are out there starving on the streets, when people are dying of cancer and sorts and really.. HAIR?!?! i pray you try to understand.

..because i know you can

so anyway, i've been thinking about this for a LOOONG time now, and i've talked about it with several people before and i guess

ITS TIME FOR IT TO BE BLOGGED ABOUT!!

you know all the romance novels us girls read.. well now i understand why in olden times people said reading was BAD. lol, its true. reading all these books clouds our minds, puts ideas into our heads. Makes us hope and pray for all the possibilities that we have read about. All that CAN happen, and though you know it all seems so UNREAL and so IMPOSSIBLE you just Hope.

'hey! maybe i'll get lucky and find this sweet guy'

and then there comes expectations which are HARD to live up to. i know, guys, i know. *pats pats* And it gets frustrating on BOTH sides. Because the guy doesnt KNOW where he went wrong and doesnt KNOW what the girl wants as..well

most.

guys.

dont.

read.

this.

kind.

of.

books.

and the girl just ISNT SATISFIED. so dont you agree it just SAD AND PATHETIC? Great, if you really found a guy thats THAT sweet to you. but it hardly ever happens, though i wont disagree that IT DOES happen.. like once in a blue moon.

where have all the good men gone?

point is...

BOOKS ARE ZE EVIL

BURN THEM BURN THEM BURN THEM

But we dont, and we continue reading, because holding on to that HOPE and knowing (well at least thinking) that it EXISTS really makes us feel so whole again. warm and fuzzy feelings, thats what we all really need.

Reality?.. well, reality can wait.

i quote grey's anatomy *yay!*

'we lie to ourselves because the truth...

...the truth friggin hurts'

and by the way, this is GEORGE SAMPSON again (the boy in the dancing vid in one of the previous posts). i feel like a pedophile. tsk then agian, he aint all that YOUNG. 13 not THAT young weeertt. xp You know somethings wrong when you start looking up a 13 year old. but WHATEVER.

GEEOOORGEEE SAAAMPSOOON~~

enjoy!

ps. i LOVE the song he is dancing to. anyone care to look it up for me? xp

its a girl thing

- Saturday, September 29, 2007

I really liked my hair. like REALLY. as i would tell sara all the time

'MY HAIR IS AT ITS PRIME!'

and then today i went to get a haircut because well my back hair was getting out of shape and i really felt like fixing it. i told the lady to NOT CUT ANY SHORTER AND THAT I WANTED TO RELAYER ONLY. she asked me what i wanted to do with my fringe. and really I LIKED MY FRINGE. but i said 'er dont want to cut shorter... relayer laaaaaaa'

AND THEN SHE WENT AND FRIGGIN CUT IT SOO MUCH SHORTER. AND ITS SO BLOODY UGLY. AND I JUST FELT SO UGLY. I CRIED. I WAS JUST SITTING THERE WATCHING AS THE NIGHTMARE UNFOLDED. I LOOKED UGLY AND I FELT UGLY MAYBE I WAS JUST UGLY.

and i dont expect any of you GUYS to understand.

ITS A GIRL THING

SO SHUTTUP AND DONT EFFING MOCK ME BECAUSE I WILL BLOODY SLAP YOUR FACE OFF.

i am a hypocrite. whenever someone cries about their bad haircut, i tell them its okay. its only hair. And this time I AM CRYING. i never cried over my bad haircuts. i guess maybe because they were never really THIS bad. this time i feel so ugly. like really. HOW CAN ONE HAIRCUT MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE THAT. strange but true.

now i just want to HIDE AT HOME AND NEVER COME OUT. hide all the cameras and not take any pictures until my fringe grows longer and i dont feel like shit anymore. What more all the plan i had for my birthday was ruined.

THE HAIRCUT REALLY JUST ADDED ICING TO MY CAKE

i cancelled the birthday dinner i was planning to have next sunday. im not up to taking photos. plus my sisters aint here anymore, i feel so lonely. I JUST WANT TO STAY AT HOME AND HIDE. sorry to brenda who had already agreed to come.

BIRTHDAYS REALLY ARENT ANYTHING AT ALL. BIRTHDAYS NEVER MATTERED. so whatever. WHY SHOULD IT MATTER NOW? i guess maybe i thought, eventhough my sisters arent here, i could make this one okay. i could make this one happy and special. even without them. plans ruined? fine. i was sad. fine. but now my haircut and then FOR OTHER REASONS TOO now im just like BLAH.

SCREW BIRTHDAYS.

NO ONE CARES ANYWAY, RIGHT?

im overreacting. i know. but this is how i feel. it all probably doesnt matter in the end. i know. but this is HOW I FEEL right NOW. and i would like you people to TRY TO RELATE. and if you dont, just BUZZ OFF. AND DONT TALK ABOUT MY HAIR. BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO HEAR IT.

and PEOPLE SHOULD MEAN WHAT THEY SAY AND NOT JUST SAY THINGS FOR THE SAKE OF SAYING THEM. because when you GO BACK ON YOUR WORDS it really just ANNOYS ME.

thank you to darling sara who was there for me and to suping brenda xiao von for sms-ing back too. and to yonghui who listened and made me feel so much better. thanks for bothering to care when the rest of the world really wouldnt give two shits about this at all. I appreciate it.

temporary

- Wednesday, September 26, 2007

ITS OVER!

gone are the dark clouds, out comes the sun! LIGHT! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN THESE TWO AND A HALF WEEKS!?! *grins* Now i can breathe a little easier and sleep better! NO MORE WAKING UP AT 4 or 5 IN THE MORN JUST TO CRAM LAST MINUTE INFORMATION! NO MORE STAYING UP! NO MORE MISSING AFTERNOON NAPS! NO MORE MISSING MEALS! NO MORE STRESS STRESS STRESS!! NO MORE NO MORE NO MORE!!!!

..that is until SPM comes.

But for now, at least for a few days lemme enjoy my temporary FREEDOM. BLISS. SHEER BLISS. x) anyway watch the following vids, from

'BRITAINS GOT TALENT'

damn cute, damn interesting, just ZOMG LA xp

and i would like to apologise for i only posted vids of the kids who performed.. haha xp you guys can go search up the adults yourself. Paul Potts won, he aint a kid. ahhaa guy who sings oprah great. no vids of him below though, go search him up if you're interested!

Connie Talbot. ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG. 6 year old. ZOMG!!!
SHE SINGS SO WELL!! AMAZING!! ASTOUNDING!!
IM LIKE STUNNED.

This little boy is SO TALENTED! didnt make it to the finals but ZOMG SO CUTE AND SO COOL I WISH I WAS YOUNGER. *swoooonss* LOL XD

'and then simon cowell was like complimenting me' xp

this one made me laugh SO HARD. CUTIE PIE!

gonna be a hottie dancer when she grows up! XD

this girl got into the finals! shes good!

hope you guys had fun watching it like i did! x)

hold on

- Tuesday, September 25, 2007

really just want to..

... Im so tired, can i stop now?

I know thats what you've all been thinking, for its what i think too! 'FRAID NOT YOUNG ONES! we have ONE MORE DAY TO GO! HOLD ON TIGHT! BE STRONG! only one more day, we can make it through together! *semangat!!!*

And for those of you who have been dwelling on paper in which you didnt do too well in (or badly), its okay, its OVER DEARIES! be thankful its not SPM! =)

like my mom said,

'this is only a small irritant, not the BIG PICTURE. its okay, dont stress yourself out so much. relaaaax~~'

yeah mah mum rocks! and shes teh cool! and shes teh lovely and nice and wonderful and i love love love mah mumsie! x)

I wonder whats installed for me after trials x)

fun and games and

fun and games

and then more

study study study

You know, i just thought of it the other day, it woulda been cool to say

'wake me up when septermber ends'

xp september has been a tiring month this year. I need my rest. On the bright side, october is coming. and you all know what THAT means! *HUGE TOOTHY BRACEY GRIN*

- curtain falls -

Gosh been a long time since i ended my post with this.

I will fix me

- Monday, September 24, 2007

Funny how i brought it all onto myself..

but am i to blame?

when i didnt know it would result to this?

I worried before that, but i guess i just didnt bother, and now im REALLY worried, and i looked it up and my worries are increased ten fold. But its not serious, so i guess its okay. i guess I can still fix myself. I guess i can still be fine.

But what if i cant?

I dont want to share this with anyone, so this shall be my sole secret that only my family knows of. I do not want pity, nor do i want comforting. I need this worry to help me fix me. Its not about not caring, for it'd only get worse that way. not caring is stupid after all.

Ignorance? Ignorance is no bliss.

The only person that can help me is myself.

..and i am ready to do just that.

I hope one day, i'll look back onto this post with self satisfaction. That i was able to do what i set out for myself to do and not sigh and feel crushed for everything i had done had not helped one ounce but everything worsened.

I believe i can do this.

I dont need a miracle. All i need is preserverance and determination. And all will be fine. All will be fine. All will be fine.

..at least i hope it will

dont bother asking. I love you all and i would tell you anything and everything else, but not this. Never this. So please, dont bother. This is for me and me only.

The war has begun.

And i am determined to win this fight.

see you around

- Sunday, September 23, 2007

first there were 3.. and then two...

...and now theres only one

Hold me like you'll never let me go
cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again

I tried not to cry, because i dont like people to see me cry. But it was inevitable, the waterworks came anyway. Now im just trying to stop. ee and i hugged SOOOO uber long and she kept whacking my bum haha

'for all the times i wont be able to'

*sniff* I'll miss you. and worst still, will only be able to see hsien at this time next year. thank MAN for skype. The house feels so empty now. I guess im kind of grateful that trials is still ongoing and that SPM is coming, at least i'd be so distracted with studies i wont have time to feel lonely. :')

sis and her stupid catch phrase

'...see you around'

VERY COOL MEH?!?! haha x) freak!

Love. Hugs. Kisses.

dont you hesitate~

- Saturday, September 22, 2007

our lives are made in these small hours ...

...these little wonders

...these twists & turns of fate

You guys still remember sierra darling?

well.. shes BIGGER now! x)

Shane Bum and Sierra in NEWYORK last monthher sulking because she didnt get her lollipop
Lovable CUTIE LOVELY LOVELY MUAX MUAX

you know whats amazing? usually mix babies (chinese and english) they usually look more asian. Black hair and brown eyes, but SIERRA DOES NOT! which is like WEIRD! the doctor was saying like how in one years time her hair would be black already and her eyes would be brown but LOOKIT!!!

well you cant see from the pictures above but apparently her eyes are green and LOOKIT HER LIGHT BROWN HAIR! unique baby i tell you! x) really strong genes on the fathers side. amazing, no? LOVE LOVE LOVE what a beautiful girl =) i can only imagine how she'll look like in the next few years. God, i feel so old hehe! watching her grow up and you guys can all witness her growing process by reading my blog

NON STOP FOR THE NEXT 50 YEARS HAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

Anyway ONLY THREE MORE DAYS OF EXAM LEFT! so everyone! TABAHLAH! soon soon sweet sweet freedom for a few days before hard coring for SPM again! x) relax~ take it eeeaassyyy~

Today, before recess everyone was cramming for Malay exam, memorising this and that biodata, teknik plot, gaya bahasa, unsur plot, nilai and reading the sastera stuff. no one bothered to read latar masyarakat as it came out last term. So as the exam was about to begin and everyone all settled down in their seats... chia lit suddenly went

'LATAR MASYARAKAT ARH'

and everyone started shitting in their seats (eeww) XD. everyone was mentally cursing

'WHAT THE HELL CANNOT BE LA I THOUGHT...

I THOUGHT...$#$%#$%#$%#$%#$%#$%#'

so everyone tried to gather as much information from the surrounding people as they could. the ones who knew anything at all were scarce and i could barely hear hua chern as he was eating some sweet so his words came out a bit 'lathe..blou..car...tinga' well bottom line is i couldnt really get much information but somehow my mind was all PEACEFUL and

'AIYA WHATEVER LAR'

so i didnt feel too bad. besides, i read latar masyarakat the night before for konserto terakhir, not bukit kepong but i was sure i could make some crap up. like i always do. crapper crapping crap crappy me.

NO PROBLEM NO SWEAT ANYTIME ANYWHERE.

*thumbs up*

so the question paper came and i was all prepared to open the question paper to the novel section and go 'DUMB TEACHER WHY SET SAME THING FOR TWO TERMS LIKE SO SMART LIDDAT WTH YOU THINK UNSUR KEJUTAN AR - perubahan yang selalunya tidak sama dengan apa yang diduga oleh pembaca berlaku - !?!?!?'

but to my astonishment, i opened the paper and...

my brain was going

LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH *pause* LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH *pause again* LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH

False alarm. smile, take a breath -

- and start writing

all in all im really not sure how i did, but i think i did okay. i felt okay, so that cant be too bad right? x) Much love! ONLY THREE MORE DAYS!!!

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILTED ROSE JOANNE!

time falls away..
but these small hours..

...these small hours still remain

poofing info

- Thursday, September 20, 2007

you know whats annoying?

(rhetorical. dont bother answering)

doing accounts 2 nights before the exam, doing accounts the night before the exam itself, looking through the format before sleep, waking up at 5 to look through it AGAIN, and then look through it AGAIN at 6.30 and during recess and when the paper comes...

my mind friggin draws a blank.

its FRUSTRATING.

its not like i DONT KNOW, i just DONT REMEMBER THE FORMAT. and its like WHY DONT I REMEMBER?!?! whats wrong with me?!?

*GROOAAANNSSS*

But thankfully i only got a bit wrong, not a lot, so hopefully i dont get too many marks cut off. i really REAAALLLY dont want to get a B again. Felt horrible, still FEELS horrible. that B haunts me DAY AND NIGHT, NIGHT AND DAY, EVEN IN THE AFTERNOONS (ohoho)!!!!

SEE WHAT TORTURE POOR LIMAY GOES THROUGH?!

you can only IMAGINE. tsk!! and whaddya know, lines share the exact same relationship with me as accounts does. You know add math? coordinate geometry and sorts? all to do with lines, somehow when i come across those questions my mind goes

*~~~~wind blows, hay rolls across the brain*

and thats just HORRID. and i ALWAYS practice that stupid chapter. Its like my brain just doesnt want to take in the information, that to do with accounts and lines, i throw away. It just POOF! disappears!!!

You know how the brain is divided into sections?

I think my brain has this section ....

..it explains EVERYTHING

Did you know?

- Wednesday, September 19, 2007

My sister's friend florence came over this afternoon and talked about sleep for a bit, so i went and looked it up. Looked what i stumbled upon!

Although it’s a common belief that 8 hours of sleep is required for optimal health, a six-year study of more than one million adults ages 30 to 102 has shown that people who get only 6 to 7 hours a night have a lower death rate.

Individuals who sleep 8 hours or more, or less than 4 hours a night, were shown to have a significantly increased death rate compared to those who averaged 6 to 7 hours

First author Daniel F. Kripke, M.D., a UCSD professor of psychiatry who specializes in sleep research, said

“we don’t know if long sleep periods lead to death. Additional studies are needed to determine if setting your alarm clock earlier will actually improve your health.”

But, he added

“individuals who now average 6.5 hours of sleep a night, can be reassured that this is a safe amount of sleep. From a health standpoint, there is no reason to sleep longer.”

The best survival rates were found among those who slept 7 hours per night. The study showed that a group sleeping 8 hours were 12 percent more likely to die within the six-year period than those sleeping 7 hours, other factors being equal. Even those with as little as 5 hours sleep lived longer than participants with 8 hours or more per night.

so now you know.

BRENDA DONT SLEEP SO MUCH.

WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP.

interesting, no? and yesterday bryan was asking me to look at all these HUMONGOUS marine creatures and i went and looked up WHALE and found out that

MOBY DICK is a SPERM WHALE

and i thought it was kind of ironic.. was it meant to be some kind of joke?

moby DICK ; SPERM whale?

hahaaaa.. hilarious stuff.

history kills

- Tuesday, September 18, 2007

its not FINE when i say its not.

i dont understand how you think you know better than i do.

..and it sucks to be put off like that.

assumptions. how would YOU know?

then again, i can relate. and its not like you cannot, you just didnt want to at the time. so fine, i shant stay annoyed anymore. and dont scoff at my worries. how would YOU feel if someone did THAT to you?

anyway, the night before the history paper

:: big bren ::
that which does not kill us...will still screw us up pretty badly.

:: big bren ::
WHY MSIA SO BLOODY MANY THINGS TO SAY ONE

11:05:40 PM (C)l»ToFuKinG«l is doped on KAI JING.
time to Start

Funky Furball
if im gonna do anything useful it's sleep.xD

Funky Furball
we . are . so . gonna .die

yong hui
never touch sej

§ h Ė n
i only look through some babs and most of the time reading manga and staring the wall....

10:11:52 PM WeiKhai™
ive only read like 4 chaps?

result : FAIL ARH FAIL ARH FAIL ARH. well do very badly, not sure if fail but yeah.

lesson learnt. dont start history last minute

now im going to EAT and SLEEP and read mingju (possibly) later.

us

- Friday, September 14, 2007

just so

GRATEFUL

i feel so lucky to have been put into 5s1. haha, to have met ALL OF YOU WONDERFUL people. Classmates i have grown rather attached to, people i really dont want to leave behind. People who i know im not like SUPER close to, but they dont shut me out, the ones that care and keep on caring. you guys rock my world =) last year and this year (up till now at least) has been great fun - ESPECIALLY this year. haha!

...yeah im supposed to be studying but GAH LAZY ARH later la

anyway, i wanted to write a post about liying a long time ago (since starting of this week), like i said A LONG TIME AGO, but never got the chance to. So here i go! i actually kind of admire liying. haha =) shes super thoughtful (which comes with being sensitive at well, but its not all bad). always doing nice things for people. and like during exam periods when theres something she doesnt understand, she calls and go

'limay are you free now?'

i mean HOW MANY PEOPLE ACTUALLY BOTHER ASKING 'are you free now?', people usually dont give a shit. *cowers away and hides in my hole* shes really understanding. I remember last term i cried like twice because i was panicking and shes was there to console me. i didnt even want to tell people i cried because i felt so stupid for crying. the helplessness i felt, she helped me through all of that. =) and made me feel better.

She makes me feel better after every paper XD. im always all 'OMG I DID THIS WRONG OMG I DID THAT WRONG' and shes all 'AIYA NEVERMIND LA OVER ALREADY LA' and after awhile i start thinking that too. And i feel better cuz i dont dwell in my mistakes and i move on.

oh and i remember a long time ago, people were passing this plastic bag from the back wanting to pass it to some guy in front. Liying saw and she kept it with her and passed it to the guy later. The rest of us just didnt care. we didnt want to hold on to it. seeing what she did made me feel bad about myself, made me think 'now why the hell couldnt i just have done that?' and she was like,

'cuz later people simply pass dunno pass where, then get lost. give him only la'

in that simple small gesture, you see her personality as a whole. how she shines through compared to everyone else. =) and its just so like *HALLELUJAH* LIGHT SHINING DOWN ON HER XD. the rest of us just cannot be bothered. the rest of us just dont care enough. the rest of us just are well. US.

shes hardworking and studies hard. hopefully shes does well this term x) she deserves it. for all that she gives to others, i hope she receives the full amount back.

Love

SZERONG

- Thursday, September 13, 2007

im updating because i feel sorry for sze rong who has APPARENTLY visited the '5s1 love' post a million times already. i shant update much as tomorrow there's

PHYSICS EXAM

AND I HAVENT FINISHED STUDYING YET AND MY PHYSICS SUCK AND IM HELLA SCARED AND PANICKING (well im not panicking now, but i WAS yesterday). so yeah. Anyway, exams been okay so far 'cept for chem which was a tad bit horrid for me though others thought it was bloody easy. So yeah, DAMMIT! haha...

i really hope i do well in physics paper SIIIIGGGHHH. always the panic attack before the exam, always feel like crying. its HORRIBLE. PHYSICS SHALL BE MY DOWNFALL. wait, ACCOUNTS TOO. and tomorrow there's physics paper 2 and accounts paper1 - which im not studying for. accounts paper 1 that is. no time la. PHYSICS ARH.

BLEH DONT WANT TO BLOG ALREADY TIME TO STUDY STUPID SZERONG I SLAP YOU SO DISTRACTING MAKE ME BLOG AND WASTE VALUABLE TIME I SLAP SLAP SLAP SLAP FLYING KICK YOU

ps. this is what happens when im too stressed.

i friggin mess up my hair and clip it up and name it something stupid. XD LOOK ITS A FLOWER. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA *lame* sorry la. tsk. OKAY BYEBYE. *slaps szerong somemore. oh and really exams are doing wonders for my pimples and eyebags. =) YAY.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!

its apparent how BAD my acne is. the fact that people actually go

'what happened to your FACE?'

YEAH PEOPLE ACTUALLY ASK THINGS LIKE THAT. and seriously, WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY TO THAT!??!

'oh you know.. evolution.'

tsk. stupid question deserves stupid answer. bleh. but i dont say that la, instead i go 'DONT TALK ABOUT MY FAAAACEE~~ T__T' what evil evil evil people wey! *sniff sniff* hurt my FEEELLLIIIINNNNGGGSS~~ well not really haha, i just dont know how to reply them is all.

and the 'eh, not enough sleep' really shows how BAD my eyebags are. AAAAAAAHH!! so SAD.