its inevitable

- Friday, March 30, 2007

People come into our lives... and at one point, they leave.

They ALWAYS do.

there is nothing in your power you can do to stop that from happening. You'd think that one day you would get used to it, for people are always GOING sometime or another, but you never do. It is NEVER easy to accept that... loss. It is never easy to go on with such a change.

Today was pn loo's last day in our school, shes leaving to saudi arabia. Truth is, i wasnt really affected by the news at all (before that when she just announced, i mean). I never pay attention in her class, and i hate to admit this, but she wasnt my favourite teacher either (mr kean mr kean mr kean ROCKS! XD). I never taken the time to actually talk to her or anything, and so there wasnt actually much BOND between us. However, i was genuinely surprised at how i felt, all the feelings that welled up today...

...As we had our very LAST class with her.

She came into the class and took pictures with all the students. Students divided into groups to take pictures. After that Joyee made us all settle down, and he recited a poem he had written for teacher. Oh God, you should have heard it. It was beautiful, so touching. Tears were welling up in his and teacher's eyes. and some of the students had already started with the waterworks. I, myself felt really moved by it, but not enough to have made me really cry. After that, chia lit sang in front of the class. I've never heard him sing before, we ALL thought he was going to simply sing as a joke. But he DIDNT. gosh, he sounded great. =) i was pleasantly surprised at how well he could sing. it was like, WHOA, sudden realisation. Li Ying and Jung Hao went in front of the class, representing the 'LAZY PEOPLE', apologising for all the times 'we' didnt pay attention and all. A few other students did the same. It was all so sweet.

After that, michelle gave teacher an album that she had put together in the past few days. The album consisted of notes from each and everyone of the students in my class and also photographs of the students. Some of the students in the class also share money to buy presents for teacher. really pretty earrings and expensive watch. XD whoa!! could see teacher was really touched by all the sweet gestures la. hehe...

we then all got up and sang auld lang syne for more than 4 times. Over and over and over with joyee as a lead as teacher went around class hugging each one of us. Lots of people just got caught up in the moment, and they couldnt help themselves but cry. Teacher started crying too. Everyone mumbled their 'take care's and 'i love you's. The whole scene was so.. sad and happy at the same time... i found myself smiling, yet feeling rather heavy inside. encouraged by joyee's 'SING LOUDER', i sang and sang and... singing was pretty fun. =p Oh yeah, before that teacher also gave a speech. It was so sad, cuz at one point she went like, okay i cant say anymore because she was about to burst into tears. But we went like 'TEACHER DONT STOP, GO ON' and so she went on, saying things, and gossshhh... SO SAD LAR!! To think that was the last time we are ever going to hear her say anything to us again. Her wise advices. Its so awful that THAT was the last time we were ever going to see her EVER AGAIN.

Pn Loo is so motherly. she went to all the crying to students and took them into her arms, holding them. gosh. I CANT BELIEVE THAT WAS REALLY THE LAST TIME SEEING HER. like TRULY. gosh.

Sigh, we (i) sure will miss her.

Goodbye

maybe?

- Thursday, March 29, 2007

Your score on this personality test was 63%

Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

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got it from xiao von's blog. haha, sounds like me, no? *Grins*

ON THE FLOOR ANYMORE CAUSE

- Saturday, March 24, 2007

im beginning to feel really super sucky again. Its like i want to give up TRYING already, cuz well, i already HAVE been (trying that is), for WAAAAAY too long. but i CANT because i know that if i DONT try NOONE WILL. and that just SUCKS. i really dont know what to say anymore. i just feel so stuck. its like day by day, everything gets lesser and lesser and i just dont knoooow. everythings all jumbled up now. i just want to GIVE UP, once and for all. you know? GIVE UP. GAAAAAAAHH! its depressing, sad.. pathetic even. But no one shall know of this. and so, i shall not seem pathetic at all. sigh. i am a SAD SAD NO LIFE NO HOPE PERSON!!!

but enough about that

havent been blogging the past few days, because well.. SIMPLE - theres nothing to blog about. But i guess i really should just post a lousy crappy post, so that the blog doesnt look so abandoned, cold and lonely. =) SO HERE I AM WITH a NONSENSE POST! WHHEEE!! SO FUN HOR!??!

*inhales, DEEEEP BREAATHHH*

went for concert rehearsal yesterday, doesn't feel like yesterday though. Today was SO LONG and BORING it felt like ages. so really, the rehearsal felt like it happened months ago. when really, it was just YESTERDAY. As all y'all know, im really self conscious, and seriously, have REALLY LOW SELF CONFIDENCE when it comes to singing...... in public. So thanks to all those who gave me LOTSA LOTSA support (sara, brenda and suping + bryan) and SPECIAL THANKS TO KAREN DARLING who went there for meeeehhh. *grins, i love you lots!* told her of my dilemma and pleaded she be there for me, cuz i seriously feel better. i kept LOOKING at her when it was our turn to perform. x) *hugs and kisses*

I went off key at 'ON THE FLOOR ANYMORE CAUSE' *dammit* lol, the fellow performers were really sweet though, i heard them cheer. haha! sara went off timing too, but oh well, OUR FIRST TIME WITH MIKE. its EXCUSABLE!! (bleh) annoyed that i went off key though, cuz i kept PRACTICING THAT STUPID LINE OVER AND OVER before i went up. *GRR* DISAPPOINTING. i guess i wasnt so scared and conscious then cuz well there werent many people i knew there. *phew thank goodness* i wonder how i'll fare on the real day. *dies* i'd probably DIE on stage or something.

the rehearsal took place in bukit bintang boys school. I wanted to use the loo, but started doubting the existence of a girls bathroom in a boys school. =__=" bryan asked these boys and they said there was, but it was locked up. have ta get the key and stuff. i thought my chances of going was like.. close to zero and started considering the possibility of getting nervous on stage and peeing in my pants. WHICH IS REALLY STUPID AND DISGUSTING, I KNOW. but..

anything can happen....right?

karen was laughing at me when i told her that possibility. Thank God we bumped into a female teacher and there was an OPEN girls bathroom just WAITING TO BE USED! *hallelujah* it was SOOO CLEAAAAN!! like OMIGOSH. our school is pathetic cuz of its stinking toilets. xp thats the only downside of our school. they didnt have a lot of food in the canteen, but it was okay.. i guess. I was like practicing in the canteen (like i said, din know those people, so din really give a shit what they would think. hence, not self conscious, can sing) i like being around unknown people at times like this *WHEE*.

Lotsa people from nirmala tuition was there. it was odd. XD can see they were like paying attention when we were performing. one girl even came up and said 'hey, good performance', so super sweet of her. =) oh anyway, enough about me. there were lotsa other performances too. Really like this fashion show one, with kihraan, dwayne as well as other school students performing inside. REALLY CUTE. you guys SHOULD WATCH IT! x) you will be laughing like CRAAAAP! seriously! and there was this melay/indian (im not sure) guy who performed with this other guy. they were both playing guitar, and he was singing too la. LOVED HIS VOICE.

he didnt pronouce his words properly though, but GOSH, his voice was like *aaaahh!!* GOOOOODDD. (so suping thought it was only OKAY) karen totally agreed with me, though she wasnt as crazy about it as i was. if he were to produce a record, i would buy it. i loved his voice THAT much. XD and of course, elizabeth and joyce's performance. THEY WERE AMAZING. their HARMONIZATION were SPOT ON. it was TERRIFIC! *envious like god-knows-what* haha!! XD the dancing performances were all not bad too. there was this one dance, where a girl dressed up as a guy, with a cap and all. GOSH, she DID kinda look like a guy. her movements were SO GUY-ISH. that was cool though, they all did moonwalk and all. LIKE WHOOOAAA. SHOCK AND AWE. SHOCK AND AWE.

sara even started calling her a GUY. because after awhile you just..er.. cant really tell anymore. XD suping even went like 'thats a GIRL right? those are boobs right?!' lol, we were like ALL SO UNSURE. *omigosh im so sorry* it was the baggy shirt and pants which gave the effect, and like stated earlier, the movements and the expression and.. YOU HAVE TO JUST SEE FOR YOURSELF. there was this one part she STUCK OUT HER TONGUE. SUPER GUY-ISH. O.O

so anyway, everyone should go watch the performance la! its next month, the 21st i think. not sure. its only RM25! GO GO GO!! x) you know you DONT WANT TO MISS IT.

one thing to another

- Monday, March 19, 2007

Today mr kean gave out our add math paper. He likes to arrange the papers from lowest score to highest score. Which is REALLY sad for the people who score really low, but maybe thats his way of pushing people to do better? for with humiliation, one would strive to do better? i have no idea.

....Or maybe its just his idea of fun. that could JUST BE IT.

So anyway, i was really panicky, cuz honestly i dont really remember how i did for my paper, all i remember was that it wasnt good. And what was worse was that during recess sara brenda and suping all told me their add math scores and they all got 80+. lol. i was like.. OMIGOSH! which made me really panic cuz i just dont want to score low. you know what i mean? sat there clutching my hands together praying *NOT NOW NOT NOW NOT NOW NOT YET* was so relieved after the scores raised till 60+. but i knew i was going to be a 70+ la. haha, womens intuition? nah, i just knew i couldnt get an 80. i got 75.

I wasnt HAPPY HAPPY JUMPY HAPPY, but i was relieved. XD hey 75's not THAT far from an 80. i dont care. I knew i didnt do that well anyway, at least i didnt get lower. A bit disappointing i guess, cuz mr kean said this term is the TERM TO SCORE. he purposely set the paper easier. It was more testing on our last term basics and all. looks like my basics isnt that good. *siiiigh*

I dont know why, but that whole scene really reminded me of the time when i was lining up to get my PMR results. for some odd reason i was really relaxed. and somehow i kinda expected the 7A's i got. and the somehow during that duration of walking and waiting for the people in front, i kinda thought,

'maybe i can get 8A's leeeh?'

then i started hoping. and started convincing myself IT COULD BE! I MIGHT JUST GET IT! and i was SO PUMPED UP and enthusiastic thinking IT WAS POSSIBLE! when really thats just really stupid thinking, cuz i KNOW HOW I DID IN THE PAPER and it SERIOUSLY wasnt that GREAT. lol. but you know, im a hopeless dreamer.

so i was standing there thinking WHAT IF I GET 8A's?!?! and i was grinning like a stupid idiot to myself. It was going to my turn soon and i was picturing how i would react to it. WHICH WAS REALLY VERY STUPID, but honestly, im THAT hopeless okay. THAT hopeless. and when it was my turn, and i stared at the paper and saw that stupid 7A's staring right back at me, my face fell...and my dreams shattered...

so crushed. you have NO IDEA.

and then i saw it, THE STUPID B. stucking out like a sore thumb in the line of A's. how painful it was for my eyes! so honestly, i actually really wasnt all that happy about my results, but i guess i was OKAY with it. PLUS, i kind of knew my parents would be happy, because i got a B for my chinese, and not a C. *ahem, sorry ee* apparently dad expected me to get like er.. 4A's? and mom expected 5A's. so im glad to say i exceeded their expectations? At first i was really happy about that, then i realized there was nothing to be happy about. =__="

my own parents were like..
UNDERESTIMATING ME!

i started crying upon that realization. Odd, i know. But its just not nice to be underestimated. As you all know, i left for aussie for hols right after i collected my results. Yeaaap, i was sobbing in the stupid van taxi thing. =__=" *sigh what a sad moment indeed* But of course my holidays werent RUINED by that. in fact, i pretty much forgot about PMR altogether the second i reached there. x) aussie was really nice, cuz there were hotties everywhere. IM SERIOUS!!

i was spotting them like CRAZY. i even remember THE HOTTIE WHO WAS READING NEWSPAPER in the park. we lost our way and i PURPOSELY DRAGGED my mom to where he was to ask him for directions. im a FRIGGIN GENIUS.

'Mummy! lets go ask for directions la! look!
theres a guy sitting there! lets ask him la!'

WHEEEEE~~ best few seconds of that day. HAHAHA! x) im like a HOTTIE stalker. IM A FREAK I TELL YOU. AAAAAAAAAAAAHH!! i remember the time i went to china for hols, and we were on this tour bus you see? at this destination with lotsa pretty waterfalls and lakes. I SAW THE HOTTEST CHINESE GUY EVER IN EXISTENCE. I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT DAY. *sniffles* it was so beautiful.

my eldest sis was taking a solo pic, so i just looked around...

that was when i spotted HIM

the most GORGEOUS GUY EVER! i swear i was STARING. he was going to have his picture taken too, so he was smiling SO CHARMINGLY and i was all *melt*. Went all jelly all over. and then he LOOKED AT ME. HE LOOKED AT ME RIGHT IN THE EYES. and i... looked away. that was the best moment of my life. i thought we had CONNECTION OR SOMETHING, until my sis told me that HE LOOKED AT HER TOO. *dammit. i bet hers was just a figment of her imagination. MINE WAS REAL. IT WAS REAL I TELL YOU*

I looked away and just walked to the side without saying anything, just thinking.. WHAT JUST HAPPENED!??! i was in a daaaazzeeee. he was TOO GORGEOUS FOR WORDS. then i looked at sis, and she looked at me. and i went 'DID YOU SEE THE GUY JUST NOW?' and she was so shocked 'OMG. HE WAS SO CUTE' and we both started screaming. well okay, so i screamed and jumped more than she did and i went obsessive and crazy and kinda stalked him. (and made her come with me of course)

because he was sitting the bus before my bus, so his tour was faster than mine, i sort of PULLED my family and MADE them walk faster and go to each destination FASTER so i could catch up and SEE HIM. *anyone in the right mind woulda done the same thing* WHO CARES ABOUT THE STUPID WATERFALLS LA?!? EVEN IF THEY ARE SUPER PRETTY AND NICE?!? there is like this SUPER HAWT GUY in dire need of my STARING at that moment!!! TELL ME YOU UNDERSTAND! *drools*

I was SO SO SO crazy that at one point i tried taking his picture from my bus. cuz he was just sitting opposite, in the other bus. but then the stupid bus started MOVING before i could get a shot. SO PISSY!!! GRRR!! we went to this mall for a stop, and i searched HIGH AND LOW FOR HIM. x) GOOOSSHHH!!! i think you might have a SLIGHT idea just how gorgeous he is now. Well, just times that image you have in your head by 100 times. Yeah, THAT was how friggin gorgeous he was. THAT IS IT.

Then we stopped at this shop too.. and i purposely went and STOOD BESIDE HIM and i HEARD HIM TALK. *sniffles* greatest moment of the trip. I WILL NEVER FORGET HIS VOICE! well actually i already did. but i swear it sounded good. bleh. =) SNIFF. I WAS SOOOO CLOOOOSEEEE!!!!! you have no idea how LONG and HARD i stalked him. in the end, there was still some spare time left, and i saw him and his friends went to this lake to take pictures... i deliberately told my mom how we HAVENT SEEN THAT LAKE YET AND LETS GO LETS GO LETS GO!! and mom was all,

'why so excited?!'

so i had to PURPOSELY walk SLOWER to HIDE MY ENTHUSIASM and go all,

'nothing la... havent seen marr...'

x) AND THEN I SAW HIM THERE.. and my mom wanted to take a picture. so she asked his GIRLFRIEND (SNIFFLES. I WAS SO CRUSHED) to take a picture for us. and his girlfriend passed the camera to HIM. she passed it to HIM.

SHE PASSED THE CAMERA. TO. HIIIIM.

i can still remember him going all 'one, two, three' then snapping. OMIGOSH OMIGOSH OMIGOSH!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!! *screaaaaaaaaaaaammmsss*

i never saw him agian EVER after that. my life is SAD. =( oh well. he was SO HAWT anyway.

- i finished CHEM! YESSSH! -

twenteeeeeen

- Sunday, March 18, 2007

Went to ikea and the curve with mom and dad today. as we were walking, mom wanted to hold my hand, but i 'dooowaaaan to hold haaand laaa miiiii'. i guess mom was kinda upset, cuz us daughters stopped holding hands with her since like =__=" FOREVER ACTUALLY. now we prefer to LINK hands and put our arms around her shoulder. haha.

brought back memories, cuz my mom started sulking going all, 'yealayeala, now always also dont want to hold hand already. When you were younger you would BEG to hold hands. always MUMMY MUMMY HOLD MY HAND!!' i couldnt help but laugh. x) when my sisters and i were younger, we would like FIGHT to hold my mum's hand. haha, and when she doesnt hold our hands tight, we'd be all unhappy and bratty, 'HOLD TIGHTER! HOLD TIGHTER!'. you just feel more secure that way! secure, safe and er.. happy? HAHHAHAHAHA

in the end, my mom settled with holding my dad's hand instead. xp

oh, and because i went grocery shopping with them, i bought lotsa junk for myself! *whee~* so now my kitchen is stocked with lotsa food and drinks. im so happy! and i finally got to buy xiaovon and liyings present today! lol... it has been so frustrating for me, been wanting to go buy for the whooooleee week, and my parents were all ITS SO FAR. IM SO LAZY. thank goodness my parents are such LOVING, KIND, UNDERSTANDING PEOPLE! *sniffles* im so thankful and happy right now! hehe!!

anyway, today is my sister's bday! x) HAPPY BIRTHDAY HSIENIPOO!!! MuaXxes!! first bday away from home. sigh!! ITS SO ODD NOT TO BE HAVING CAKE AND SINGING BIRTHDAY SONG ON THIS DAY!! *its so wrong! it feels so OFF!* missing you loads and loads! and damn the stupid connection there cuz its not working. *Grr* sis is not a TEEN ANYMOOOREE!! shes like.. TWENTY!! *NOOOOOOOOOO*

twenteen twenteen i dont care!

oh and lookie. its bryan balancing mister dragonfly on the tip of a really sharp scissors! =D that was during the sleepover. only posting now cuz sis just loaded it. lol.
- happy birthday tooo yooooouuuuuu -

Float on

- Saturday, March 17, 2007

I dont know but i really liked it. XD haha, its a nice vid! really short one but nice anyway. it was cute. =) you guys should watch it. its just the front 44 secs of the thing so dont have to wait for it to load finish.

I like PHIL STACEY lots! he rocks! no idea why he ended up in the bottom three!! hez the bald guuuyy~~ the one wearing a hat in the vid. blake looks super cute in the vid too xp, hez the other one with the cap. hehe. Super cute! XD and daaamn~~ chris with the AFRO! HAHAHA!! as for the girls i LOVE LOVE LOVE jordin and melinda. Lakeisha is good too. hehe! anyway, have fun watching the vid! oh, for a clearer vid, you can also go to THIS (click it) site. i think it loads faster too. hehe =)

went for accounts tuition this morning and kinda suffered through the whole class due to cramps. that certainly sucked. think i hid it pretty well though XD (i rock~ OH YEAH~ I ROCK~), oh watched the ending of little mermaid just now too. My sis recorded it. I have certainly forgotten how much i love those cartoons. I LOVE LITTLE MERMAAAID. i totally fell in love with it again. someday i just wanna sit down and watch all the cartoons all over again. Anastacia, peterpan, little mermaid. sigh. =) cinderella was OKAY only though. not as good. hahaa XD oh oh and treasure planet rocks too! though thats like RECENT compared to the others. its amazing! xp im a cartoon freak now. *whee*

cramps still here. think its here to stay for hours. really hope not. going to watch this contemporary dance performance later this afternoon with sis. Xiao Von says her friend will be performing. That is just SO COOL! haha!! cant wait cant wait!

- how a moment so beautiful could turn into something so ugly in an instant. it scares me -

Just for kicks

- Thursday, March 15, 2007

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Morbidly Me

- Wednesday, March 14, 2007

I don't know whether there are others like me. Sometimes, which is very occasionally, I think about how people would feel if I died, sometimes I think about how I would feel if someone passed away. I think about the things I would want to say to the person, I think about the memories we have together. And more than once, I've found myself crying over these thoughts. Call me odd, but that's just me.

I picture scenes in my head and its just so real, and for the next few days, I go out of my way to be extra nice to the said person as I realize how it would be to lose said person and how painful it would all be. How hard life would be and the things I would miss. Often I feel this immense bubble building up inside of me, just waiting to burst, and I just feel like going out there and telling everyone just how much I love them and appreciate them. And I think I have actually done that once or twice. I just want them to know, before its too late, I get that feeling, I do. Are you guys the same too?

Its like im sitting there doing something like cutting newspaper, making something for a friend and the washing machine is going on noisily beside me, shaking violently, and I stop cutting the newspaper and think, 'how would they react if I just died now due to the stupid washing machine crushing me into pulp after it losses control? What would the papers say? How would my family and friends react?' and then I would chuckle at the thought of the newspaper headlines, 'washing machine gone berserk'. Which isn’t really that hilarious now that im actually typing it out. Sounds… gruesome and horrible, doesn't it? Im just like that, thoughts like that just constantly fill my head.

Im just lying on my bed and the fan makes a rattling sound. I think of how it would be if I died being crushed and minced by a fan. Which is really totally gruesome I know, gah, really sucks to have such an active imagination at these kinda times. Honestly. But I don't know, thoughts like this really drive me to be a better person and treat another person better, knowing that one day they wont be there anymore, that I wont be here anymore. You just want to treat everyone a little bit nicer, while we're still here, still existing. Sigh, you all must be thinking how really wu liao (and psychotic *seriously NOT intended and IM SO NOT psychotic*) I am. Might as well do something for productive with my time then sitting there thinking about this kinda crap, right? Yeah. I do think so too, but its not like I can help myself. Maybe that's why my stories are always so morbid. Im always killing off the main character.

You know when you were younger and angry at a particular someone, you would go 'I wish he/she were dead' or something? Well, okay, maybe not all y'all were like that. But I know I once was. And whenever I found myself thinking or saying something like that, I would cry harder. Because I know it isn’t true and I'd feel so sorry to have said/thought that. I'd feel so horrible about myself I'd just hug my pillow, cry and rock myself to sleep. Then it'd all come flooding to me, the memories (like stated earlier) that I have with the said person and I would feel so horrible and I would just shout and sob uncontrollably into my pillow 'I didn't mean it, I didn't mean it'. Its odd, I know, but that was what I did.

I never said anything like that ever again. Seriously, I have no idea where this post is going, but somehow I just wanted to type it all down. For future references I guess… haha

- I've been waiting, I miss you so bad -

Just one night

- Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Had a sleepover at my place two days ago, which was a Sunday (just in case you lost track of time due to the hols *it happens*) Had close friends over for a MOVIE MARATHOOONN~~ they all arrived at around like 8 - 9pm, and us girls went up to practise the song we were going to perform during the interact concert thing (eek, dunno whatsitcalled). practiced till 11 then we went down and started movie marathon-ing, cuz we felt bad for the guys who didnt have anything to do. okay, maybe not, bryan seemed rather happy attacking mah piano. XD

we watched in total 4 movies (plus a few episodes of ugly betty which was before we went up to practice singing) which took more than 8 hours, resulting in US SLEEPING at 7.30 in the morn. XD HAHAHHA and by that time we were all still 'oh im not tired, but ah shit, have to sleep, going out tomorrow' we watched accepted, the prestige, the holiday and happy feet. GOSH, WE ALL FELL IN LOVE WITH RAMON!! (from happy feet)

'i can do this i can do this. i just have to trick myself! boy look, whats that! what? *falls*' XD OMMMMGGG!! and the whole 'the people are all wanting something.... ME!!!!' (okay im not sure if i quoted it correctly but its something along those lines. hehe. SO HILARIOUS!)

and the baby penggy's were ADORABLE! just felt like picking them up and squishing them!!! accepted was DAMNED funny : 'i want to learn how to blow shit up with my head' and the ending he blowed this car up with his mind 'see?' HAHAHHAHAHAA OMIGOOOOSSHHH!! you all HAVE to watch it!! and the prestige was at first a little confusing but it just made you THINK. its a really GREAT movie. like WOW. 'are you watching closely?'

The holiday was pretty good too! i did doze off like a few mins at one point but then awoke when bryan said 'eh? li may sleep already?' or smething like that. haha. Jude Law is so CHARMING LA! *dies dies dies* so anyway, we slept after that and woke up at 11am. Which is SOOO STUPID cuz i was saying how i set my alarm at 1 something for us to wake up so we would have ample time to sleep. MANA TAU THOSE BOYS WAKE UP SO EARLY and MADE US ALL WAKE UP.

*kills the guys here* so we all got ready, ate and went to KLCC to watch bridge to terabithia. Bren and sara bought some books at MPH. oh and i had croissant for dinner which was UBER DELICIOUS! with the lamb meat and stuff. whee~~

Bridge to Terabithia is a LOUSY movie anyway. you WOULDNT want to watch it. im SERIOUS. it was a total waste of money and time. the only UPSIDE of the movie was the cute girl LESLIE. i thought it'd be kinda good cuz the directer/producer (im not sure which one) was the same one for the show narnia. And i thought narnia was okay. WHO KNEW it'd turn out like THAT. narnia is like TEN, TWENTY TIMES BETTER THAN THIS MOVIE. SERIOUSLY! and thats saying a LOT.

Owh and we took our FIRST LALA PICTURE! JUST before sp and sara left! =D (okay im not sure how ks looks lala, and bryan looks FUNNY XD but yeah. close enough)

- lotsa lotsa jolly good fun -

rather random

- Sunday, March 11, 2007

LIBRA
SEPTEMBER 22 –OCTOBER 22

Did someone say that you are the charmers of the zodiac?
Well, it’s true. Few have ever seen you ruffled or angry.
You are very conscious of your image,
and you believe that anger distorts your face and personality.
You also think you are above things like anger.
But wait before you get into self-congratulatory mood.
Your family or those very close to you know you better.
You have an unmatched temper amongst all the zodiac signs,
and what makes it worse is your capacity to justify it.

Okkaaaay, so i dont know if the whole THINK YOU'RE ABOVE THINGS LIKE ANGER thing is true. lol, but its true that i always have an excuse to justify why im angry. XD damn. hahahaha, and yeaaaah, people who arent close to me generally think i NEVER GET ANGRY (like whaa..?!?!) which is WAAAY weird when i receive comments like that =__=" because i DO! family and close friends DO know better. XD hehe

Anyway, bryan asked me to watch this vid yesterday and it was so stupidly hilarious! XD so im posting it here for ALL to see! : ) do you remember, when you were young, the cartoon GUMMI BEARS would always be on TV!?!? the one with the bears who can BOUNCE AROUND SUPER HIGH after they drink the GUMMIBEARY JUICE?!? yes? YES?!? well, check this!



HILARIOUS SHIT! HE SCARED AWAY HIS CAT!! look at the cat's expression! its all like 'what the hell?!?' haha! XD brian (as in not BRYAN but BRIAN) was saying how, given the time, he woulda came up with something BETTER like actually making the gummibears move and jump around then drown them in juice. with strings attached. how amusing. XD

'im sure he wanted to try my method except that he didnt have enough skill. so i suppose its probably a good thing for the rest of the world that i dont have too much time on my hands'

what an idiot! XD lookit the adorable DORAMU anyway! =D going to paint in his pupil before SPM (its supposed to be good luck or something). i nammmeeeedd hiimmm UNCLE DORAMU! (yeah not very creative, but i was lazy to think so sue me) its really adorable though, no? its a bu dao weng! *grins*

- aaww, shes just jealous. girls get like that around me -

hallelujah!

- Friday, March 09, 2007

Im finally BACK!!!

:) know y'all missed me lots! (okay, even if thats not true, just nod and PRETEND it is) there's been SO MUCH going on these days and ive been SO SO SO TEMPTED to come and blog it all down, but resisted doing so as i REALLLY needed to study (not like that helped much anyway, but it did.. a little... not a LOT but a little) So anyway, bryan once sent me this comic he got from SOMEWHERE and said it was REALLY like me, and I really DO AGREE!! check it. you can click to enlarge.

that is SO TRUE I TELL YOU, SO LIKE ME. its like everything i do, i think of BLOGGING. so seriously, you have NO IDEA the torture i have been through during the whole entire week of exam, keeping myself away from my blog. So anyway, got LOTSA LOTSA STUFF TO TELL, especially what happened today. I have GOT to say, today was the MOST EMBARRASSING exam day EVER!!!

It was our LAST paper (BM) and there was 15 minutes left. i had nothing else to do cuz i finished my paper, so out of habit, i swung my legs to and fro.. and the guy whoz table is next to mine followed me. so i changed the movement and he kept mimicking me, and i just found it retarded, so i laughed a bit and TEACHER LOOKED OVER FROM THE FRONT. So we stopped that... and i remained still for a few seconds. Then yen hsian and li ying were like giving me hand signals like ITS GOING TO END! liying went 5 more mins and i was SO SUPER EXCITED!! xp so then bryan looked to the back and i started shaking side to side on my seat cuz well.. I WAS EXCITED! and he was smiling back at me (OR SO I THOUGHT HE WAS) so i was like YAY! ITS GOING TO END SOON! YAY! mana tau.. he was actually.. looking.. and smiling.. at.. teacher.. who was... behind. me. (stupid bryan you TRAITOR you COULDA WARNED ME!! *kicks bryan off a 10 storey building and provides him with no prachute* HAH!)

I didnt know until teacher walked from behind me to in front of my desk and STARED AT ME with his arms crossed. you can IMAGINE MY SURPRISE. there i was in the middle of my SHAKING IN SEAT act and PANG he was right in front of me. i was thinking AWW SHIT. and i felt the blood rush to my face and i just looked doooowwwnnn and to the siiide and upppp then looked at teacher.. AND HE WAS STILL STARING! OMG. EVERYONE WAS LAUGHING. and i was chuckling too at my stupidity and it was SO RETARDED! i TRIED to stiffle my laugh but COULDNT. and it was HORRIBLE and EMBARRASSING!! after a REALLY LONG WHILE, he finally left. *phew* and then woo shen and everyone started to tease meeeh. *GOSH GOSH GOSH* this kinda thing ALWAYYYSS happens to me. woo shen said my face was SUPER RED. *oh no!* teacher must think im some sorta retard now. hehe

owh and anyway, during some of the exams, some teachers were really annoying

for instance, there was one teacher (i am NOT going to name him/her) who put the exam papers on the front students desk. They were NOT supposed to pass the paper, but somehow ONE exam paper ended up on the fourth persons desk. HE GOT MAD. He stood there and asked someone to CONFESS. 'WHO DID THIS, THE PAPER COULDNT HAVE FLEW THERE. JUST OWN UP. BLABLABLABLBALBALBLALBALLA' that went on for around FIVE minutes. Everyone on the side lines were irritated, like WHO THE HELL CARES!??! the guy behind me said he felt like putting up his hand and going 'I DID IT'. and honestly, that was how i felt too. GRR!!! after that he questioned this boy and found out *GASP* IT WAS THE BOY WHO DID IT! =__=" only the boy take the paper intentionally and tried to explain himself but teacher went 'ITS YOUR FAULT'. period. i thought that was REALLY STUPID. like GOODNESS, was that EVEN NECESSARY!?!? wasting time. =____="

then during another exam, this OTHER teacher received a phone call. You know how usually teachers leave the classroom when they receive a call? well, surprise surprise, HE SAT THERE AND YAK-ED AWAY. it was SO HARD to CONCENTRATE. thank GOODNESS he didnt talk for THAT long. so INCONSIDERATE!! stupid, right??

Annnyyhooooo, THE EXAMS ARE OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (for now) so I DONT CARE ANYMOOOOOREEE~~ hehe!! THE HOLS HOLS HOLS HOLS HOLS HOLS are HEEEEEEEERRRRREEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! *screams*

this is totally unrelated to anything, but im going to blog about it anyway simply because i feel like it AND YOU CAN DO NOTHING TO STOP ME. you know when i was younger i LOOOVEEEDD soft drinks, but somehow when i got older (meaning out of primary school) i suddenly decided i didnt really like it. I thought that was REALLY odd cuz i mean, one just dont CHANGE like that. then one fine day (a looooong time ago la OKAY) i found out that the canteen people added water to the soft drinks (yeah i was rather naive, stupid + dumbdumbdumb) so they werent so gassy. =___=" and suddenly it was all 'OOOOHHH.. NOWONDER LAR' i dont like soft drinks cuz they are too gassy. water + soft drinks = much better. so honestly, even though they ARE sort of cheating our money, i dont mind. GO AHEAD PEOPLE! ADD THE WATER IN!! =D *bloop bloop bloop*

going to go take a nap now, im so AWFULLY TIRED! slept really late yesterday and woke up really early. been deprived of sleep for MUCH TO LONG!! gonna sleep the hols away! YAAAY!! owh and im beginning to love the american idol contestants. : ) Jared has this AMAZING smile, LOVING the smile! melinda and lakeisha are SO GREAT!!! both chris's and blake lewis are still as good as ever. kinda sad though, cuz seriously, the guys arent providing much of a competition compared to the girls. BUCK UP LA BOYS!!! XD

-you little tiger, i thought we had a pussycat-

alone

- Friday, March 02, 2007

sat for chinese essay exam today. There was one question about bribery and i didnt know it was about BRIBERY i thought it was GREED. SO i wrote about GREED. and GREED was what i WROTE when supposedly i was supposed to write about BRIBERY. so PANG! i got the WHOLE THING WRONG FROM THE FIRST FRIGGIN SENTENCE. IM GOING TO FRIGGIN GET A ZERO.

I didnt know i was WRONG. At first i thought i was just out of topic, because then i still hadnt found out it wasnt suppsoed to be about GREED. See the level im at? even if it WAS about greed, it wouldve been out of topic. now that its NOT, its WORSE than BAD. im so friggin screwed. I felt SO HORRIBLE when this guy told me what it meant. I was SO SHOCKED all that went through my head was OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD and i exclaimed 'are you SERIOUS?' and they were laughing because i was going to 'supposedly' fail along with them. and i felt like crying.

after that i felt like just crying it all out, i did, i really did. But no one seemed to give a shit about how i felt. maybe they just were caught up in their own thing, which probably was the case. but anyway that just felt WORSE because i FELT like crying it out but COULDNT. and how pathetic am i? to be seeking comfort from blogging? GREAT HUH!? in the end, i cried myself silly ALONE at HOME with my PILLOW. pillows are great comfort. I've never felt so alone. honestly.

I wanted someone to just console me and tell me its OKAY. even though it is OBVIOUSLY not. I wanted someone to lie to me and tell me it IS anyway. Because me lying to myself was seriously NOT working. I wanted someone to tell me how i didnt know any better, how it isnt my fault. how i TRIED. i really DID and gave it my all, and really its not my fault i didnt know what it meant. it was an honest mistake, really, it was. Telling myself those things helped, of course it did, but it woulda been nicer if someone else did it, at least i would be able to rant and just get rid of how horrible i was feeling. and GOD, no one bothered. Which is why im here, blogging. So that all the horrible things im feeling, would be poured in here and i'd feel better.

It was really a wonder to me how they could completely ignore how i felt and just go on having normal conversations, laughing and sorts like i didnt even exist. It hurt, but i guess i can sort of relate. So no, im not mad. just slightly disappointed. i guess i just expected someone to be there for me.

i feel so much better now anyway, just called sara and cried to her. =') feel so much better!! didnt think i would cry so much though. just seriously BROKE DOWN. *sniff* THANKS SARA!

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