Child's Play: September 2005

PMR

- Friday, September 30, 2005

Its coming. I can sense it. Impending doom... Im afraid, are you?

what am i talking about? You're not having the exam, why should YOU be scared? why would YOU wet your pants over someone elses problem- MY problem? why would you even give a shit on what im saying right this instant?

it all comes down to me pondering on this question...

Why are you reading my blog in the first place?

If you dont care, and WONT care, why are you wasting your time reading this? time is GOLD...oh no wait, that was silence. Silence is golden. that was it, wasnt it? Okay fine then,

Time is precious.

Maybe you SHOULDN'T be wasting your time reading this meaningless post. Maybe you should be doing something else. Then again, since you're already here, why not just leave me a comment and wish me the best of luck in the process? yes, i'll appreaciate it. Thank you for your coorperation.

Doomsday 3rd of October.

For those of you who have taken the exam the previous years...saying its really easy doesn't help. You're supposed to put pressure on me now, so i'll really REALLY study. Saying its easy will just make me slack off. Im already enough of a procrastinator, thank you very much.

the GAME

- Thursday, September 29, 2005

PMR is next monday. In case you're wondering, its thursday today. But guess what? my class, yes, me included, are acting like that BIG exam has just ended!!

before recess, we were talking chit-chattering, yakiting away about stupid crap, blabla..and after recess, almost the whole class (those that were actually present) joined in to play TRUTH OR DARE.

It was hilarious. Jeff was dared to dance a hawaiian dance, shake butt and all, 360 degrees turn blabla..kinda funny. After that he was dared to take off his shoe, sniff it and say 'wakes me up every morning' LOL! OMG! that was FUUUNNYYY!!!! Yen Hsian was dared to dance the makarena (if thats how you spell it, if its not, please someone correct me, cuz i think tis wrong anyway.) Jensen's first dare was to hold yen hsians hand and say I LOVE YOU. He was also dared to waltz with guan ming. Only guan ming wasnt being a good sport and din waltz with him. Sad, really.

MY FIRST DARE was to go up to this group of people and say...'im stupid and im lessbian' thats nothing actually, but they gave responses like,'yea i know.' O.O hahahhaaa MEAN BUTTS!!! second dare was kinda stupid. Was dared to go over to this guy, touch his face and go like 'hen hua ah..' (very smooth) the guy din let me touch his face. so yeaa...kinda awkward..when he finally did, i got kinda..paranoid. Didnt dare. LoL..but in the end i did. so yea. OH YEA OH YEA OH YEA!!! yen hsian was dared to go up to this guy, big size indian in my class and squish his face and go like 'SOOO CUUUUUUUTEEEEE'. she went up to the guy, and when she was just about to touch his face..."AAAAAAH!!"

'wait wait, lemme wipe my face first..'

that was funny. hahaaa, yen hsian was so cute!! cas was dared to link her hands around chun muns hands and lie on his shoulder, and also sing 'lonely' to him. Aaaawww..NO SHE DOES NOT LIKE HIM. oh yea!! Xe lin was dared to let down her hair, put it in front of her face, look like a zombie and walk around class. when someone looks at her, shes supposed to go like 'WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT!!?!?!' that was freaking cool!!! freaking COOL i tell you!! Eu chern was so cute!! he went up to vanny and sang 'shake it off as well as myheart will go on', he was like shaking his head and everything..looking like a lil boy. that was adorable!!

after that, i was dared to hug my pet bro. and say ' im gonna steal you from jeffrey.' That was pretty weird if you ask me. (jeffrey is GAY and he likes my pet bro..so yeaaa). Why would i wanna steal my pet bro fron him!?! O.O not making sense. oh yea, kihraan was dared to mess up his hair!! his perfectly nice gelled up hair!! poor guy! hahahaa..woei lin had to go around class letting people play with her hair, cuz she hates it.

Overall, it was a pretty fun day laaa. LoL

Procrastinator

- Saturday, September 24, 2005

PMR is in another weeks time. and guess what!?! Im still online!!

DAD HIDING THE CABLE

Never was put into action. You know why?!?! of course you dont, so let me tell you. MY SISTER (the culprit) had just finished her exam last week and have been going online everyday ever since. now tell me, HOW AM I SUPPSOED TO CONCENTRATE when the music is on ont he other room and i can hear continuous banging on the computer keyboard. Okay fine, so it isnt BANGING exactly...but to me it sure seemed like it.

Thank you SIS. you're HELPING a LOT.

besides that, IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOO not in the mood. I know this isnt a time to talk about MOOD. PMR is OCMING whether or not i have the MOOD. i still have to study. God cant save me now. only I can save MYSELF. and if i dont start studying now....then....yeaa.. Im a procrastinator. im sure lots of you other poeple are procrastinators too. Procrastinators..the worst kind.

Gonna study history form 1 today!! YEA I CAN DO IT!! and at night i might ask dad to bring me to go buy some reference books to do. If i cant read, at least i'll do the exercises. That'll help. then i'll know what kinda questions they're gonna come out for PMR and get no surprises. YEAAA!!!!

there's this seminar tomorrow, and im going. Only two guys i know there, and i barely say two words to them in school. The seminar is from EIGHT in the MORNING to SEVEN at night. One of the guys said he'd hang with me and everything, but still...kinda weird...cuz i dont raelly know him that well..and considering the fact we practically ignore each other in school...*sigh*

and thats why i'm asking my couz, MR SHAUN, to come along. Thing is, i dont think he'll be able to come. Dont know if his parents will let. its RM 150 for petes sake. Oh maaaan..if he doesnt go, im gonna rot there....Bah. i have a feeling, even thought that guy claims he WILL talk to me and everything, he will end up ignoring me and talk to THE OTHER guy.

I mean, WE DONT EVEN TALK IN SCHOOL!!!! Bah.wtv. just hope i'll survive through the seminar and through OMR. i need luck people. LOADS AND LOADS OF LUCK.

Dissapointment

- Wednesday, September 21, 2005

When your friends fail you.

Im raelly dissapointed and pissed at this two friends of mine. No. they aren't just friends, they are really good friends, really close friends, almost best friends. see, they went to this seminar, the forecasts there are really accurate, or so i heard...so anyway, i asked for some tips or wtv they got, and did they wanna tell me anything? NOOOOO...

'you ownself dont wanna go. sulit.'

Shit man. what kinda attitude is that? selfishness. kia su-ness. Dont they realise that this isnt about beating each other? this is a major exam. FRIENDS HELP FRIENDS. FRIENDS ENCOURAGE FRIENDS. STUFF THAT INTO YOUR MINDS MAN! GET IT IN DAMMIT!!! it really makes me wonder what they take me for.

If you have information, share it. You're supposed to want the best for your friends and not only yourself. And guess what, i got all the notes and stuff from my pet bro. THANK GOD FOR HIM. I LOVE YOU MAAAN!!!! and got sej booklet from sara's class PKT. and by god, i dont even remember his name. Im so sorry. That is what dissapoints me the most.

For people i dont really know well to help me out; for them to be selfless and for my friends to act that way. It makes me dissapointed. SO dissapointed. I couldn't talk to them after that. No...i just didn't want to. it just angered me to even see them.

they're probably thinking, WE HAVE THE RIGHTS. yea, thats true you do! you're not wrong in that sense. BUT WE'RE FRIENDS DAMMIT. and im gonna state once more. friends share. friends encourage and by god, friends are suppsoed to be there for you and care for you. I guess i shouldn't have expected anything from you guys right? Oh well, maybe i thought you guys were different. I guess i thought wrong.

selfishness. How do you bloody expect people to care for you if you treat people that way? Geez. im bloody pissed with you guys. bloody dissapointed. forget it. Its not like you guys are going to change anyway.

and once again. thank god for pet brothers...and thank god for selfless random people. You guys rock!!!

PMR

- Sunday, September 18, 2005

yeaaap. its drawing nearer and nearer as we speak...well, more like, as i type. Two more weeks till the BIG day. Afraid? truth? well, not really, a bit maybe. But when i really think about it, i havent studied..so yea, im afraid. Two more weeks to catch up on everything.

Im not coming online after today. So blogspots will have to wait till after PMR. im sorry. time to buck up and stop being so pig-ish and slug-ish. IM a procrastinator. Time to set goals. Time to do something. Time to move it. Time to mambo?? riiight. thats a bit off. I know.

Aaanyway, point is- Online no more.

I've gotta focus. No matter how hard it is for me, i just got to. Like sara says, i dont wanna be dissapointed in myself after the results come back..i DONT wanna DISSAPOINT myself. NO. its time to WORK hard. YES. play can come later. AFTER PMR. loads of time to play then. LOADS AND LOADS OF TIME. PLENTY!! waste your time then. not NOW. NOW is the time to be serious.

Truth is, im just trying to convince myself. Am i convinced now? not really. Dang. I need to have the damn mood. I need to feel the pressure. I need competition. I need motivation. This is not enough. I am not going to fail myself.

Gonna get dad to hide the cable..so i wont get to come online. Not going to be able to resist the urge. that much i know. HIDE IT DAD. IN A SAFE PLACE OUT OF MY REACH.

PLLLLEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAASSSEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

Bye

- Thursday, September 15, 2005

Goodbyes are never easy.

Snow- su pings pet cat, past away yesterday. It followed the dog out of the house and probably went roaming around the area. the next thing you know, snow is found lying beside a dustbin, eyes wide open, fur on tail standing. Died of shock. Internal head injury and it spat blood.

Poor snow.

it just hits me so hard how short life is. how unpredictable life is. how unfair life is. Why did snow have to die? it was but barely one. Why was it chosen? and the worst part is, who took its life? who was that reckless idiot who killed the poor cat? Snow didnt deserve to die..not so young. not like that.

How painful and heartbreaking it is, to realise how you wont be able to see it again. For it to dawn upon you how you will never be able to play with her again. All you have now is memories- Those were the days.

for all you know, now you may be doing whatever you're doing, and the next second.....

...........................................................

history.

Poor snow. We shall all mourn for you. Hope you are in a better place. we pray for your happiness.

i wonder what cat heaven is like. Su Ping Loves you and she misses you.

- Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Me my beyi and my eldest sis

pics

from left is My eldest sis, Me, second sis and my beyi.

results

Most of my results are back already. and im very unhappy and unsatisfied PLUS dissapointed in myself. Perhaps i was being too proud. Perhaps i wasnt thinking straight when i decided to study last minute. Perhaps i am just plain stupid. But this is what happened. and i cant say i dont deserve it.

I dropped like hell and im uncertain that i can even maintain the position of top 3 OR even top 5. wait. i cant even get top 3 anymore. Forget it. Before that, when i first got my results back, yes, i never expected them to be that low, but nevertheless i excepted the marks and just couldnt care less. The idea, 'its over, i cant change the past and besides, who cares?' was stuck in my puny little brain. And then the huge pang came. My friends and rivals started getting better results than i did.

the unexpected happened all around me. People i never knew would be a threat rose before me and i started shrinking. Smaller and smaller and smaller still. Im loosing to a friend like 23 marks and im not happy. id be crazy to be happy anyway. INHUMAN. i never expected to lose out so much. as for the other people, thats history. Maybe i was overconfident with myself. Thinking how it would be alright even if i didnt study so hard, thinking i was smart enough to remember the facts, thinking all sort of junk.

Im a sucker. Bah. PMR is coming, some of my friends have started studying. and yet, i havent. I think im gonna start today. No more over confidence. and i DO care about my results. at least i do now. Wasnt a few days ago, that much i assure you. But today..reality just hit me that hard on the face its impossible not to give a damn.

oh and, brenda is getting almost the same marks as me. so maybe we'll end up in the same class. Yay! thats one friend. Im glaaaaad.

Note: im a man today. and so, i didnt hit BRYAN (the lady) when SHE hit me. I shall hit her tomorrow when i become a gurl again and SHE a boy. PREPARE YOURSELF!!!

YAY!

- Sunday, September 11, 2005

the outing was GRREAAAT!!

yes, at first i DID hesitate on going into the theme park at all..but after that. OMG!! i couldn't sto sitting the rides! after the first ride, i was so eager to get on the others. My fear just vanished!! maybe its because i thought it would be scary, but in the end, it wasnt scary at all. I even opened my eyes throughtout the 360 degrees turnings of the ride. we sat ALL the rides there..except the bumper cars cuz they had a LOOOOONGGG queue...we couldn't possibly wait that long...

another reason why i wasnt so scared was we were tlaking the whole way and screaming for fun. TAHT was something. ON the first ride, i kept squishing shu ying..ahhaa, and i kept trying to pull myself up but failed miserably, we kept lauhging at my attempts. The next one was *okay fine, i dont remember the names of the rides, but whatever, it aint important neeway* like the ride goes really really high and spins. That was a slow ride, on the top, we sang...

'i am cow, hear me moo, i weight twice as much as you, and i look good on the barbeque~~'

and also...

'NEGARAKU...TANAH TUMPAHNYA DARAHKU...TERSEGAM MEGAH DI SELANGOR, SELOKAH MENAGAH...'

It was FUN alright, and we kept SCreAMiNG like LUNATICS just for the fun of all of it. The third ride was the DNA MIXER. that one we have to turn 360 degrees. it was fun really...only...my shirt kept like flying upwards, cuz i was upside down..that wasnt really nice..HAHAHA yeaa. oh and, during the ride, we kept shouting names like ...' PN CHEAM!! PN LIM YOKE KENG!! PN HOON! MISS FONG!!!' hahaaa...everytime we turned. Next was the roller coaster. it was SOOOO FUN!!! that was so COOL MAAN!! And they had snap shots during the ride...my hair was flying, NICE maaaan...i can go for hair advcertistment with that photo. Too bad i dint buy it, it was expensive. DUH. after that, we sat the Space something. It also makes you ahng upside down. at first brenda ws pretty scared, cuz the last time she sat it, she felt like she was gonna fall, but after a lot of pursuading, she agreed..' DO IT FOR SARA!!' *cuz we're celebrating her birthday see?*

In the end, Brenda had a jolly good time. But su ping felt like puking. Poor girl. i love that ride hahaaa...anyway, we also sat this kiddy ride, which was WAY funny. I sat with brenda and we kept laughing the whole way. and also singing songs. It was FUN. I LOVE TIMES SQUARE THEME PARK.

points to remember when you sit a ride and you're scared...

- scream names of teachers you hate (lol)
- sing songs!!
- screaM!!
- shout out to your friends!!

Damn. today was fun. the next outing is gonna be after PMR...*groan*

Halt

The trials ended, and today im going for an outing with my friends to celebrate sara's birthday...which was last tuesday, c'mon, we HAD to make it up to her.

We're gouing to times square, and its gonna be my first time there. YES EVERYONE...MY FIRST TIME. I KNOW its been there for quite a while now, but my family just never goes there, its always MIDVALLEY and no other place. seriously. Truth is, im not really excited about the whole outing thing. I don't know why. Maybe cause im not such a THRILLER ride person. Times square= theme park. Theme park= scary fast rides. And im not into SCARY FAST RIDES.

Im gonna die out there. Lord save me. The fact that i sat all the fast rides at genting does not help a thing. I was REALLY motivated by my sister back then. I have no idea why, but when my second sis wants to sit a ride, i'll automatically feel like sitting it too. I would be darn scared, oh yes...but i'll make myself sit it anyway. When we're all seated and the ride starts moving...i'll go like...

'what am i doing?'

and then the ride begins...>__< hahaa, but its usually pretty fun. great experieces. But you see, when im with my sister, i dont know WHY or HOW but i feel more secure..im afraid i wont have that feeling with my friends. NO offence meant to them. I don't know..i just feel like im going to hold back and back away fromt he rides, either that or start whining. Bah. I guess maybe its cause my sister is FAMILY and theres this BOND over there. and she knows EXACTLY how i feel. We have this CONNECTION..brain connection or somehting, ahahaha...its like, we dont have to say a word, look at each other and KNOW whats going on in each others head. its pretty cool when you think about it.

Im so scared. So scared. at times like this, i start to ponder why i even agreed to go in the first place. *sigh* yet..i DO wanna go. My friends all arent like me, they DO like these kinda rides..and yet I DONT. They'd proabbly see those rides and say..

'OH COOL! LETS SIT THAT RIDE!'

and i'll groan...and probably just tag along behind. The agony. I wanna sit on the merry-go-round and be a baby agian. I DONT CARE!!! DONT CARE I TELL YOU!! i wish my sister was going with me. Oh yea, and i wouldn't feel so scared if someone there was more scared than me. Its like i take on this protective form and stop feeling scared myself, starting to comfort the other. I dont like people to comfort me and say 'Its okay wan la..its going to be okay, its fun!!' wait wait, its not that i dont like it, but i jjust STILL dont feel safe. I can just picture myself falling off the ride and dying tragically.

I wish my sister was going. oh well..

alive

- Friday, September 09, 2005

The trials just ended...and guess what, everyone!?!?

I SURVIVED!! I lived through those harsh days of exams- PASS questions i couldn't solve. Im so proud of myself. arent you proud of me too? yes, yes, im sure you ALL are. Thank you!! Aaaanywaaaayz, now that the trials are OVER...im back to my ONLINE schedule!! Thank the lords...MORE blogging!! Yay...

tuition later...MOOD RUINED. Thank you very much MATHS tuition. =______=" wish i didn't have to go. Oh maaan, tummy growling..im gonna go eaaaaat...blog laaterrr

Rants

- Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Bloody hell.

Geography was easier than expected, that was the ONLY good thing about today. other than that, the rest of the day was really freaking pissy. I admit, i AM proud of my maths...the fact that i always score pretty high for my maths kinda brought up my confidence i guess.

Maybe this is God's way of saying, 'you're too proud, lemme lower down your self-esteem.' Who knows right? there i was, doing the questions like i always do, with self confidence, nodding my head intelligently in my head. Well, it would've seemed weird if i really DID nod my head- bob head dolls??

Aaaanyway, it was question six, and i got stuck. SHIT. i was supposed to solve the question stimultaneously. I knew that. The question was, solving it using the method substitution or elimination? I decided to skip the bloody question and move on. My pride came back, 'hey, this is pretty easy!!' and then along came question 19 with a malicious grin on its face. 'see if you can do ME.'

was it trying to challenge me!?! the all-so-great NG LI MAY in MATHS!?!?! i chuckled stupidly in my head. Well buster, lets see what you have installed for me. I looked at it and time halted. there was nobody left in the room but me...or so it was to me...i scratched my ehad and thought long and hard. IT was a tough one. ONE hard to crack. i was sure i could figure out how to do it, either now or later...and so, i moved on to the last question.

I had one hour left. ONE hour left to do TWO questions. it was ME and question SIX and NINETEEN. 'you're going dooooooooooown.....' i said, and they stared defiantly back at me. BLOODY STUBBORN QUESTIONS. so i tried, every method that i thought of on the piece of paper in front of me. i wasn't gonna give up, not now. i swiped cold sweat off my forehead and question six laughed at me. it laughed and laughed so much that i couldn't concentrate.

'SHUT UP DAMMIT! SHUT UP!!!!!!'

but it wouldn't it was ITS stupid plan from the start. to laugh so much that it would get on my nerves and i would forget the method ELIMINATION could be used on it. there i was, trying to use SUBSTITUTION in everyway possible and failed miserably. i hung my head and walked away from the question. it had won. QUESTION SIX had won.

I cheered myself up by saying...well, NINETEEN aint gonna be that lucky. using my wits once more, i tried to crack the question and finally got an answer 65. which i later on discovered was wrong. the answer was 55.

I screamed bloody murder when i found out how to do question 6. IT WAS SO EASY and yet I couldn't do it. I..ME! NG LI MAY. COULDN'T SOLVE IT!!! i screamed and screamed and screamed. LITERALLY. yes, in school. must've seemed like a freak in front of everyone, but i was dissapointed and angry with myself. WHY oh WHY did i let its stupid laughter distract me!?!?! WHY!?!?!??!?!!! i swear i could've done it.

so there i was, screaming myself senseless over question 6 and 19...and then came the big hit. i did question 2 wrong. not only that, i did another 2 questions wrong too. thats 13 marks GONE mind you. so i thought solemnly to myself, if i mangaed to get that many mistakes that i know of, when i was ever so confident with the answers, how many REALLY did i get wrong. will i be able to score an A!?!? so yes, you guessed it, i screamed and jumped and screamed over and over again.

I was bloody pissed. SOOOO angry. SOOOOO dissapointed. MY MATHS. of all the terms to fail me. it fails me NOW- the term that will determine which class i go to next year. and bloody hell

- screaming the answers in my face DOES NOT HELP AND IN FACT MAKES ME FEEL WORSE.

- saying, 'hard meh? quite easy wert...' DOES NOT HELP EITHER THANK YOU.

HOWEVER....

- screaming yourself senseless with me DOES help.

- whining with me DOES help. well at least im not alone.

YES. i am self-centered. well, at least for today i am. I NEVER EXPECTED MY MATHS TO BE DONE SO BADLY AND CARELESSLY. who could blame me for ranting!?!?! IM MAD. IM SAD. IM DISSAPOINTED. i wanna go on screaming again. i dont care.

........................*sniff*..............................

I officially declare i hate maths for TODAY. THE day to hate maths= 6 september 2005. YES, sara's birthday is my day to hate maths. Sorry sara...and hopefully, by tomorrow, ill love maths again. and when i get my results back, im gonna scream bloody murder again, prepare yourselves. This is SOOOOO killing me. DIE DIE DIE. i dont care. im flunking the exams. I DONT CARE ANYMOOOOREEEEE!!! *no wait..i cant flunk it...it determines my class...sigh...and besides, i'd be crazy to...*

I HATE MATHS TODAY AND TODAY ONLY

And...happy birthday sara....

Fun and Joy

- Saturday, September 03, 2005

Family reunion? ahhahaa

Today, everyone, meaning all my cousins, mum's bros and sisters all gathered at my aunties (qi yi- seventh auntie's) house. Theres gonna be a BIG dinner tomorrow to celebrate my granpa's b'day. YAY!! only, my mum bought my sisters dresses, and i was left out because i had to go for bloody tuition. i wonder what im going to wear...hmm...oh well, i dont raelly care about these things anyway. As long as i look decent enough, it goes.

seeing my cousins formally from penang but moved to china a few years ago cuz their dad has a job there was great. a 5 year old and a 4 year old. Both spoilt, and keeps fighting over little things. That wasnt all that great, if you know what i mean. You change the channel of the tv and they start screaming and start snatching the controller from you, but mostly they're just fighting with each other. I cant really bear with them when they come on this mode. it gets so annoying and it really drives me scatty.

I, for one, dont remember ever being like that. then again, maybe i was but just dont remember. Whatever it is, i was never that spoilt. Aaaanyway, the best part of the whole night was when my auntie (beyi- youngest auntie) and Uncle kevin (her husband..i dont call him beyi uncle cuz i find it weird..he said we could alll just call him uncle kevin...so yea - canadian) arrived. We havent seen them for more than a year now.

Everyone went forward and gave them a warm welcome, with loads and loads of huggies!! YAY!! it was truely a great night. From begginning to end, from popiah to pizza with so much pepper on it my eyes started watering...yeaaa...

i didnt study at all today. Crap. im so dead. its 11.51 now...gonna be mindnight soon. i think ill study at midnight. Im going to do at least four chapters of sejarah. I dont care. and tomorrow ill have to do more sejarah. and finish the whole thing before monday. oh dang...i just realised monday is sejarah and chinese paper 2.

om so unprepared for chinese. Im gonna fail. Lord save me. they say this terms chinese is going to be really hard. you score a 70, you can get an a for PMR already. What the hell man...that means this term i can only probably score a 50. dang. everyterm i score like a 70...on the dot...and now...NOOOOOO..this is soo gonna pull down my purata. Hell it will.

Wish me luck people. I'll need it. Plus i havent been studying. HELL.

Peace

- Friday, September 02, 2005

Shit man.

My sis had to go for ballet and insisted that i go with my auntie. Cuz you see, my aunt lives in china, she just came abck and dont know the way back.

'I HAVE NO SENSE OF DIRECTION WAN LAA...dun ask me...'

but she pleaded and pleaded, i couldn't say no. it didnt matter if she pleaded anyway, i would've still have to go, but it just made everything a little bit better. My sis pointed out the way there...and i was supposed to show the way home...so there i was, with my 'terrific' sense of direction. POinting at buildings and saying..

'HEY! this looks familiar!'

OF COURSE it i recognised it. OF COURSE it looked familiar. i passed by those buildings when i go to DIFFERENT places like SUBANG but not HOME. i was beginning to suspect that i was going ont he wrong road. GOING HOME SHOULN'T have took SO LONG!!! but i was pretty sure everything would turn out fine. i lead my auntie here and there...TURN LEFT..TURN RIGHT...and in the end, we ended up in the middle of GOD KNOWS WHERE.

then i had to call my mum and we stopped by somewhere and waited for my mums car to come. in that time, kept laughing at my stupidity. no. it wasnt HER stupidity, it was MINE. my auntie isnt to blame for anything, i was. Me and my stupid sense of direction. Im an idiot with dirrections, its so obvious i dont have to point it out.

I even got lost in school once. how idiotic is that? oh maaaaaaan. I felt so bad. Had to call my mum out. Im so gonna kill my sister for this. SHE INSISTED I GO. i told her i couldn't do it. but NOOOOOOOO she just HAD to make me go. oh well. it was better that than my auntie stuck alone right? right. okay. just trying to give myself a little bit of comfort. Ssshhh...dont mock me.

Embarassing like hell. i should know. Hahaaa. these things only happen to me. *sob* who else has terrible sense of directions??

Weird

English

today i took my english exam. Paper one and paper two..DUH. Paper one was fairly easy, and i really didnt like it that way. Why? because english is one of the subs that can pull me up and if the questions are so easy, everyone will be able to score and the sub wont be able to pull me up much anymore. And even worse still, chinese is NEVER easy. NEVER. its so damn dificult. This way, chinese-y students get to score in both subs and i get beaten flat. seriously. its not fair. But im not going to dwell on it any longer than this because well, there are other things to talk about and if i do, it'll all be rants anyway. Whats the point?

Aaanyway, lets move on to paper two. First i did the literature section and then the summary section. All went as planned, i still had one more hour to do my essay. Good. One hour, a lot of time right? WRONG. there were three minutes left after i was done. ONLY three minutes left. you have no idea. i wanted to go on writing, but there was no time and no space. So yea, the ending was a bit...well...not moral-istic. not that material. let me tell you what i wrote...

My title was completely random. It was 'Abnormal Sunday'

It was sunday again. The day i dread the most in the week because mother will force me to go to the supermarket with her to do her weekly grocery shopping. I dont know why she even bothers to ask me to tag along anyway. All i do is follow behind her and sulk. Doesnt seem much help to me. Then again, maybe she just wants me to be miserable or liked my company, even if all i do is grumble. Adults are weird and its going to take me a lifetime to figure out what goes on and around their heads, so im not going to bother.

OMG. i can memorise my first paragraph. THIS IS AMAZING. yea..thats my first paragraph. okay..moving on to the second...

the supermarket was packed with teens and kids. Mother said the noise and commotion was driving her scatty. I made myself scarce as i realised she wasnt in a good mood anymore. I decided to escape from all this and so, asked my mother if i could stop by the toy shop. I didnt even wait for my mum to reply and quickly slipped away into the crowd. her answer would've been no anyway, not the one i was looking for.

I felt proud of my get-away. It wasnt everyday that i would have dared to do that. But today i felt exceptionally good. Mother isnt one to mess with. Her mouth doesnt look like smiling is its favourite activity. Shes stern and strict with me, probably why i come along with the sunday grocery shopping every week. I stepped into the toy shop gaily, remembering what it was like to be eight again. Memories started flooding my mind. Suddenly, my memories came to an abrupt halt. I saw a boy, who was around five or six stealing an expensive toy. It was like i was watching a movie in slow motion. The boy was looking from left to right again and again, beads of sweat trickling down his face, he cluctched the car close to his chest and finally, slowly and cautiously, he hid it under his shirt, oblivious that i was in fact, watching each and everyone of his moves.

(okay, im not sure aboutt he exact words, but i think its something like that.)

I was dumbfounded. I knew i was supposed to shout and rat the boy out. But i couldn't. I just couldn't rat him out. I dont know why, but i looked up to him. I looked up and evied him for he had the guts to steal the car. So, i just stood there rooted to the spot, silently praying that he would make it out safe.

The boy started to make his way to the exit, trying hard to look natural. He probably felt terrified and giulty for he had sinned, because he kept banging into people. The ammatuer. This must be his first time. It was obvious that luck wasnt on his side, for he knocked into a plump lady and the toy dropped out of his shirt. he made a desperate attempt to maintain his balance but instead managed to kick the toy which went skidding accross the floor and to the middle of the sensors which no longer later started beeping.

The guard started chasing the boy as he tried to runaway. Unfortunately, the boy wasnt fast enough for the guard and got caught. The guard took out his walkie-talkie and told the manager. The boy looked ashamed and embaressed, he was going to be brought up to the manager's office. I stood there petrified, not knowing of what to do. I dont know why, but i had this protective feeling, like i was supposed to protect the boy. it was a random feeling, and so, i charged towards the guard and hit in right in his stomach and i pulled the boy up and started to run. The boy however, didnt run. In fact, he just stood there. He wouldn't let me pull him with me. What was he doing? DIdn't he know that he was in big trouble and he needed to run away? i was pondering on those questions so long that i didnt realise the guard had got up and gripped the boy's hand and mine and brought us both to the managers office. POking my nose into other people's bussiness is stupid. I know that now. If only i knew thate earlier.

The manager gave us both a long lecture and even called my mother up. Mother was dissapointed in me, heck, i was dissapointed in me too. The boy learnt his lesson and i felt stupid for looking up to the boy when he was doing such a shameful act, stealing. At least this incident had brought one good thing, the boy will not steal again. as the saying goes, a burnt boy fears the fire. Today was an abnormal and exciting sunday.

See how weird and crappy the ending was?!!? i didnt end it properly because like i said. I DIDNT HAVE TIME NOR SPACE. oh well. Now i gotta study for the other subs like history, geography and KH and CHINESE. oh maaan, the exam REALLY starts next week. but first, a nap...only 15 minutes maaaa...

Child's Play

PMR