Child's Play

Of way back when

- Saturday, October 25, 2008

I have this need to be blind
(not literally blind, you doofus)

Because I don’t want to see, I don’t want to acknowledge the fact that everything can be so ugly. Everything can change, everything has already changed. I want to be forever lost in that happiness from that once upon a time, forever embraced by laughter, smiles… big wide smiles that don’t seem to fade, just like being injected with botox - only not.

Because we do not need friggin botox.

If I just close my eyes and picture it, I cannot help myself but smile. All the great memories. Just a blink away. I feel as if it’s within my grasp. That if I just reached out my hand, if I just stretched far enough, if I could just push my body that little bit forward…

If I could.

Then I would be there once more, then I would be…

I would be,
I would be what?

Happy?
Happy?

Would I be happy?

Was I happy then?

It all now fades to grey. I was miserable, wasn’t I? But amidst being miserable, I was happy too. I was struggling, and yet, I was happy, I was too happy. Hanging onto that thread, was all it took to make me content.

So why did I let go?
Why did I plunge into darkness?
How could I?

Did I realize what I had put at stake?

I did.
Of course, I did.

IM NOT STUPID, DAMNIT.

And I recall now, why I did. Its been awhile since then, hasn’t it? A looong while. I always hide away all the bad, and remember all the great things, I forget why I do the things I did, I forget what all I did had meant.

You’ve forgotten too, haven’t you?

Maybe I subconsciously don’t want to remember, perhaps I want my life to seem all perfect. Roses. Colours. Friggin Rainbows and squishy pastel marshmallows.

Maybe its for the best.
Perhaps we’re meant to forget.
Both you.
And me.

Things were never really patched up, and yet, it was. And now I am…

Happy?

Am I happy?

.
Most definitely.

I live in the past. I live for the future. I never really notice the present. And when I do think about the present, I become blinded by my past and I forget just how great the present really is. And it is. It really truly is.

We need to talk.

But we’re never going to.

That’s okay.

A reminder

- Monday, October 20, 2008

You changed.

I changed.

We all changed.

But really, we didnt change at all.

We are still who we were, and part of who we will be, but yet, who we will be is still part of us and it is impossible to stray far from who we really are.

Who we were. Who we are. Who we will be.

Its all very much similar.

No one really changes.
Time does not change you.

You cannot change you.
You're still you.

Regardless of what anyone might say, regardless of what you think, regardless of lemon drops and chimney tops. And that somewhere over the rainbow.

Im still me.
I've never changed.

You dont know me, You've never known me, and yet, you have. You do know me, you know me very well indeed. Why? Because you're great. I don't put anything past you. You can do anything. So yes, you do, you do know me, you have known me, you will continue knowing me.

Even at the times you feel like you dont,

-You do.

I believe in you.
Like no one else ever will, I believe in you.

So maybe you have changed.

Maybe i have changed.

Maybe we've all changed.

but dont you see?
Its okay.

Because i will still be me. And you will remain as you. And its still the same, even if it is not the same anymore. Because that is how it is.

All you need to do now is remember.

Do you remember?
*****

Side note: JAMES MCAVOY IS SO HOT!

-end-

Delayed

- Friday, October 17, 2008

1st cake!

Preeetty, i love the way the words are written!
So different from normal cake shops!

PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY!

I like this picture lots,
But the candles are placed... at an odd spot. =__="

Between my name and the words happy birthday

Girlfriends from college =)

The ones who gave me...

=)!!!

Only one person on earth calls me LIMEY XD

Me loves the card from hsienming! x)

***
Card i was talking about in my previous bdae post

Made by,

Bryan. Kwanseng.

FINISHED MAYDOKU! *grins*

GAH IM TOO LAZY TO COMMENT.
LOOKIT PICTURES.

Spot the bryan.

obviously this was taken using timer.
no one could possibly take such a bad picture.

Mah faaavourite!
SPOT DAVEY JONES

I'll never be able to look at the pitch fork the same way again.
Lol

2nd!

SUPAH WHITE!

My piece of cake! WITH THE STRAWBERRY!
Not just a strawberry on a cake! *grins*

May *hearts* Gang.

BRENDA BRENDA BRENDA ISH HERE!

Bryans punching me and jeff is...

PUNCHING HIMSELF?!

***

3rd. ME LOVES FRUIT CAKE!

I dont know why, but i feel like mickey mouse in this picture.
For some odd reason.

***

Adores EeLing

It was so funny, on the 7th of Oct, i was like talking to her during chem lab and suddenly she asked 'Hey LiMay, when's your birthday?' So i started laughing and went 'TOMORROW!' and she looked at me like i was crazy 'you're lying to me! No, really?! When is it?'

'Tomorrow lah! would i lie to you?'

*eeling looks all confused XD*

'if its really tmr, i'll get you caaandy!'

'Reaaaaaaally?'

In the end she asked shereena, and shereena thought eeling was acting like she didnt know so she played along and went,

'NOOOOO, OF COURSE HER BIRTHDAY IS NOT TMR!'

*eeling looks at me accusingly*
'YOU LIED TO ME!!'

lol. XD

You've gotta love Eeling.
I know i do! x)

Oh and, THE PANDA ON THE CAKE IS SO NOT A PIECE OF CHOCOLATE! XD eeling kept saying 'yeah it is!' and i went 'are you suuure? it looks like.. plastic!' and she went 'NO REALLY! IT IS!' *i still dont know if she was merely lying or really thought it was*

Anyway, i went home, and i kinda poked it and stuff and asked my cousin what he thought.

'you want me to try?'
'okay!'

*cousin bites really really hard.'

'its plastic.. oww...'

'EE LING LIED TO ME!'

XD

***

Flown all the way from UK!

ME ADORES ME SISTA!!! *HUGS*

hehe, fattiebum and THE TALL ONE *grins*

ALSO ALL THE WAY FROM THE UK!

who could it BE?! but my darling KAREN!?!
*HUUUGSSS*

This bit made me laugh out loud x)

It says,

'Us when older, with no hair,
yet still smiling like no tomorrow cause we have each other.'

AAAAAH!!! SUPER CUTE, NO!?!?!

Me loves the card, super unexpected =)
I SUPER DUPER MISS YOU TOOOOO!!!

BFF for liiiife!!
I know no matter whaaaat, i'll always have you to turn to
AND YOU'LL HAVE ME! *grins*

AGAIN!

CAUSE ITS JUST TOO PRETTY
AND WONDERFUL
AND SWEET!

-end-

I SHOULD BE STUDYING

- Wednesday, October 15, 2008

RULE #1
People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
RULE #2
Tag 6 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. What time is it?
1.27pm

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
To be successful in all aspects of life *YAY!*

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
Everyone's! XD HAHAHHAHAA

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Go HOLIDAY with mah fwen-sy

5. Will you u fall in love with your best friend?
Mebbe. Mebbe not.

All my best friends are girls. What do YOU think?

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by someone. I think its truly amazing how one being can love another despite the many many MANY flaws a person may have. =) Dont you? Its so much easier to hate someone than to love someone.

Me thinks its AMAAAZINNNG!

Me loves the people who love me. =)

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Well, i dont. (but unconciously do. HORROR) - but then i stop, EVENTUALLY.

What? im not stupid enough to wait forever. XD

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Depends. *OHOHOHOHOHOHO*

9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
ACTOR. perferrably, JAMES MCAVOY!

SO HOT SO HOT SO HAAAWWWT!

10. Will you invite for Ex bf/gf to your wedding dinner?
Yeap! =) We'd prolly still be good friends.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time.?
Successful. Happy. And married. LOL

12. What's your fear?
Being alone, the supernatural, bugs.

13. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
Wash up.

14. Would you give all in a relationship?
Im kinda similar to LiYing in this aspect. hahahaa

15. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
I'd weigh out the pro and the cons, think about it for a LOONG TIME, write a diary entry about it, and then decide. Undecide. decide. Undecide. And then just leave it hanging and see what happens.

16. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
I would forgive, but i never forget. NEVER.

17.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
For now, being single.

18. If your girlfriend/boyfriend told u that she/he is actually a prince/princess, what will u do?
Squeal in delight and go 'I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT ALL ALONG!',

im pretty psychic, okay?

I want to tag

Gling
Caitlin
Carmen
Michelle
YenHsian
Brenda

-whoops. when i said i wouldnt blog, i meant er... AFTER THIS POST. *ahem*-

seven eleven

- Friday, October 10, 2008

Went to KFC the yesterday.

Took pictures.

Relived childhood moments

But. Thats not the point.

Suat Wei and i left KFC early in search for a birthday card for PuiYee as her birthday is well, TODAY. On the journey back from our successful mission, I took pictures,

And tried to take picture of our reflection on cars

As such.

I didnt think this picture was good enough as we didnt look

short and cute.

We just look like we have enormous hips

Slash

Big Asses.

So i tried to look for another car which was SHINY, dark coloured and would give a very clear and nice reflection. I spotted this small car, black, with tinted windows and just sorta squatted, stood, squatted, stood again, to see my reflection and see if it was a good enough car for picture taking. That's when suat wei said,

'LiMay. THERES SOMEONE IN THE CAR.'

And i registered the sound of the engine.

OH SHIT.

.... i literally ran away.

EMBARASSING, MUCH? The person in the car must've been like 'WHATS THIS GIRL DOING?!' I just somehow heard the engine the whole time but did not register it cause all that went through my head at the time was,

'OOOH! SHINY! BLACK! PERFECT!'

And the fact that the windows were tinted so i couldnt see anyone inside didnt help. OBVIOUSLY.

18 years old.

Nah, nothing has changed.

Officially an Adult

- Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Special thanks to those who wished me at 12! ME LOVES YOU!

Oh and this years number 1! KAREN! *hearts*

Special thanks to those who PURPOSELY did not wish me at 12

I KNOW IT MUST'VE BEEN HARD. lol! XD

and to those who did not wish me,

REPENT! REPENT! REPENT!

WISH ME NOW BEFORE ITS TOO LATE!!!

OHOHOHOHOHO! xp

So, you must be expecting a picture post. BUT OH WELL, that aint what you're gonna get cause i dont have any of the pictures. =__=" But i shall tell you what happened on this very special day of mine.

I honestly didnt expect anything to happen today.

Cause like, sunway (ausmat) is having Mock exams so i knew brenda, sara, yaw would be BUSY studying and everything. So i didnt hope for anything. BUT SOMETHING WAS AMISS. What?, you inquire.

There i was, walking along the corridoor when a certain white TOFU block was spotted.

'BRYYYAAAAAAANN!!!'

Tofu block turns, sees me, Rushes into his classroom without saying HI. Mr Tofu block had failed to wish me the night before and in the morning.

SOMETHING WAS UP.

Then, i received an sms from a Crayfish,

'Happy Belated birthday. Didnt know it was yesterday sorry. T-T'

May is completely caught off-guard. WHA?!?!

'Its today la you dufus! Lol!!!'

Crayfish responds,

'Oh! Still sempat wish XD. No people plan stuff one? You all exam is it?'

OMIGOD. I felt that LITTLE bit down. I mean, SURE BRYAN WAS ACTING ALL WEIRD but the whole KWANSENG INNOCENT ACT totally made it seem like, okay nothings gonna happen. and i felt like i got my hopes up for nothing (hopes up thanks to bryan xp).

I replied,

'Sunway exams. Dunno.'

Obviously, by the way i replied, you can tell im a bit *sniff*. HAHAHHAHAA

Crayfish : Oh well. Happy birthday ba. Have a nice day. :)

Me : Thanks! :)

*ouch*

____________________________________

During break, college friends, Suat Wei, Shereena, PuiYee, Sue Wei and Shu Ling celebrated my birthday with me. They bought me a Chocolate cake and a PLASMA BALL!

WHAT IS A PLASMA BALL?

LOOK AT THE LIGHTS!

ITS COOOOOOL!!

*zapzap*

It responds to sound too!

SUPAH COOL!

Me ULTRA loves it! x)

One of the things i've always wanted in life

but never realised that i did.

__________________________________

Anyway, after break, somewhere between classes, as i was telling a racist joke *ahem* to SuatWei, Shereena said BRYAN IS THERE! But when i turned to look, HE WASNT THERE ANYMORE! Then SuatWei said she saw him too and that he was HIDING from meh! So we rushed to the junction of the corridoor in which he turned and.. HE WASNT THERE.

DUMDUMDUM!

hopes raised again.

Then shereena said,

'maybe they'll surprise you at your house after college! THAT'D BE SO COOL!'

Me,

'I dont think so la... Whats the point of bryan hiding now, then?'

So there i was, sorta expecting everyone to show up in college or something. But college ended. and nothing. But i was determined not to let my mood be dampened. After all, it IS my birthday. So, i went home happy and camwhored all the way.

____________________________________

*AHEM*

Cousin driving.

LOOKIT RED HAIRBAND!

Its from shereeeeeena! Love it lots! I've only got ONE hairband (the one you always see in photos) so im really really delighted! AND AND red is my favourite colour toooo! AWESOOOME! XD Shereena was adorable.

In class:

Shereena - Hey, you're wearing red! HOW IRONIC.

*DUMDUMDUM!!!*

Shereena- Do you like red?

*DUMDUMDUM!!!*

Me - Yeah its my favourite colour!

Shereena - DON'T LIE TO ME!

LOL

May Loves!!
____________________________________

Anyway, I got home. By now i totally doubted if anything was going to happen. Mom told me we were gonna be going out for dinner so i bathed and got ready. After that, i told mom about BRYAN IGNORING ME and BEING WEIRD and about kwanseng's sms-es. Mom said the following :-

'YOU SHOULD KNOW YOUR FRIENDS BEST LA'

*GASP*

Then mom received a MYSTERIOUS PHONE CALL in which all her replies were

'YES YES YES'

SERIOUSLY.

Save for the last two lines which were

'I open the gate for you.'

I knew perfectly well that my mom DOESNT TALK LIKE THAT TO MY DAD. But i asked anyway 'open gate for who? pops?' and she went 'yeahyeah'. I was determined to follow her downstairs as I SMELLED SOMETHING FISHY! but she tried to DELAY me by going

'HELP ME TAKE MY SPECS. ITS IN MY BATHROOM!'

Little did she know, i went into her changing area and looked outside, saw the gate opening wiiiiiide and no POPS walking in.

*DUMDUMDUMMM*

I ran downstairs, heard mom saying 'SHES COMING SHES COMING'. Walked barefooted out into the carporch and FOUND

BRYAN SUPING KWANSENG JEFF TERYI

standing there.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

aaww! ~ x)

Went in, talked. Camwhored. Brenda arrived later as her exams ended at 5pm. Im supah happy that brenda came x) I mean, she slept late the night before studying till 3am. She totally looked all sick and tired but she came anyway! and she still has to study for her test tomorrow *fufu LOTSA LOVE FOR MY DARLING BRENDA*

Got a Pitchfork (picture will be uploaded once i get it from sp) from Bryan and Kwanseng. A mini ring watch from SuPing and Yonghui (which came in a cute box with pretty, tiny roses).

ME LOVES THE CARD KS AND BRYAN MADE

Imma gonna finish the sudoku thing and upload it okay?

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

LOVE YOU GUYS!

SO SWEET LAR WEY!

Totally unexpected!

*sniff sniff hugs hugs LOTSA LOVE*

Had another cake.

So sad that some of you couldnt make it. Dumbass SORTA grounded by parents. Sara study for exams. Yaw no transport. *sniff* Anyway, me loves you people too! Thanks for er.. trying to come? heh! x)

After everyone left (at around 8pm), family and I went to eat jap food, came home and celebrated, AGAIN. Had yet ANOTHER cake.

__________________________________

Random : Anyone want some cookies?

I had another surprise today too x). As everyone was in my house, the doorbell rang. We were all like 'eh? is anyone else coming?' Mana tau, THIS CAME IN THE DOOR!

OH. MY.GOD.

For a moment there i honestly thought that it wasnt for me. That maybe it was for MOM. Or maybe it was meant for my sister but my sister already left for the UK. LOL. BUT IT WAS FOR ME, FROM MY LOVELY SISTERS!

ME FEELS SO LOVED!!

*SNIFF! SUPER LOVE YOU ALL!*

LOTSA THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO MADE TODAY SPECIAL FOR ME

I LOVE YOU PEOPLE SO MUCH!

PS: READ THIS POST!