Child's Play

recently there's been marching due to the upcoming sports day. On certain days we'll have to stay back to practice marching and all. Oh, dont get me wrong, I LOVE IT!! its like the highlight of the day, yes dearies! IT IS THAT FUN!

The commanders, leaders, seniors (whatever you want to call them) okay fine if you want to call them FORM FIVES its up to you, they're just SO FUNNY and ZESTY and just so full of life. Lolz, seriously BOOSTS up your spirit!!!! they're EVER SO NIIIICEEE. think our RED house leaders are THE BEST. XD!!! WHEEE~~~~

feeling a little bit disconnected from the class. history repeating again, but dont really care. Too preoccupied to even care actually. theres just SO MUCH TO DO NOWADAYS. theres hardly any time for myself. im just not USED TO THIS. im used to having allt he time in the world.

SLACK and SLACK and SLACK... and then now its WORK WORK WORK. dont even ahve the choice. ITS SO SAAAADD!! WHERES ALL MY TIME IN THE WORLD!??! WHAT HAPPENED TO IT!??! dont tell me if went POOF on me!! *sniff* feeling abandoned. (nonsense)

PRS banner to be done, im not in charge though.. THANK THE HEAVENS!! but im gonna be playing a rather big part too cuz its sara and su ping in charge. so not much diff. Then theres the YE program. Its getting rather annoying now.. i dont know, i ahvent odne anything yet and already im feeling a headache.

ITS SO MESSY!! honestly. and since i dont ahve a maid and all at the moment, mum is kinda like reusing to bring me anywhere to buy anything. GAH!!!! the only thing im okay about so far is RED HOUSE matters. Perhaps cuz everyones so happy and cheerful it really brightens up my day. XD. lovable people.

by the time im home im so EXHAUSTED. totally pooped. wanna take a nap... sleep the rest of the day away. BUT AM I ALLOWED TO!??! NOOOOOOO.. tuitions T___T. ITS SAD!! REAAALLLYY!! CAN YOU FEEL MY PAIN!??! i dont know what pain but YES PAINNN!!!!!

- Peace out. I'll survive. -

IM FREAKING PISSED WITH MY MUM AND MY SISTER AND THEIR BLOODY DUMB ATITUDES. THEY DONT BOTHER TO EVEN TRY TO UNDERSTAAAND. NOOOO, everythin just AHS to got heir way. SHUT UP DAMMIT. BLOODY HELL.

OH AND DONT FORGET MY STUPID DOG WHO CANT TELL RIGHT FROM WRONG. TO HELL WITH HIM. GEEZ. AND IF IM NOT DONE WRITING THIS POST, ITS CUZ I GOT DISCONNECTED THANKS TO MUM.

today was the shittiest day of my life. Class was fine. Class was the HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY in fact. i came home and it was raining like it never rained before. The clothes were all over the bloody floor and they were all wet. i put down my books and rushed to pick them all up. my stupid dumb dog ran in the house, called him out to keep me company but he didnt want to. FINE. RUN LIKE A FRIGGIN COWARD. FINE.

After i brought in all the soaking wet not to mention dirty clothes, i saw my dog STUPID dog and wanted to keep him into his cage. he was under the stupid table so i went to get him. AND YOU KNOW WHAT!?!? HE BARKED AT ME AND TRIED TO BITE ME. DAMMIT. i was so shocked i SCREAMED. then after i recovered fromt he initial shock i started shouting at the stupid dog and didnt care about it anymore. Went to EAT. EAT EAT EAT.

then i felt pity for it and felt sorry, so i gave it so meat to eat. THEN THE stupid dog came out for a while and went under the table again. SO STUPID. i was like FINEEEE!!!! so i went back to the kitchen, walk halfway the stupid power tripped and i was so shocked, I SCREAMED AGAIN.

DO YOU KNOW HOW ITS LIKE TO BE SCREAMING TO YOURSELF IN A BIG EMPTY HOUSE!??!? there was NO POWER and my freaking dog was being friggin stupid. I WAS SO SCARED i just went upstairs to my room, hugged my pillow and picked up the phone.

There was no line.

I was so freaked. I went to my second sis room and there was no line there either. FREAKED FREAKED FREAKED. went to my eldest sisters room. THANK GOD there was line. i called brenda and talked to her. talked till 5 something then called karen and talked till 6 something until sisters came back.

THEN MOM STARTED SCOLDING ME. she asked me to help mop up the floor and she kept YELLING AT ME while i was doing it. WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM LA DAMMIT?!?!?! so i started to get really PISSED off and i started wiping really hard. THEN SHE WAS ALL LIKE 'IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA DO IT RIGHT THEN DONT DO IT.' so im like FINE. and i STOPPED wiping the friggin floor. and she was like SO CONVINIENT LAR? YOU COME BACK HERE NOW!!

WHAT THE HELL DOES SHE WANT FOM ME LAR. then she was like OR ELSE YOU WIPE YOURSELF. and im like FINE. YOU ALL LEAVE I DO IT MYESLF. and shes like WHAT KIND OF ATTITUDE iS THAT. and im like WHAT!?!? YOU ALL DONT DO I DO LAR WHATS SO BAD ABOUT THAT!?!?!

then shes like NO INTERNET FOR YOU FOR A WEEK!! and i just came upstairs.

I COULDNT CARE LESS.

if you're bored, go play this game. ITS KINDA COOL!!

http://www.eyezmaze.com/grow/cube/index.html

IM SO HAPPY~~ im done with my moral project!! going to take a passport size pic later for the youth exchange form. Kinda worried cuz i always look super retarded in passport size pics. SERIOUSLY. so now im figgeting with my hair and stuff. I WANT TO AT LEAST LOOK 'OKAY' FOR ONCE. cuz i mean the host families are gonna PICK from the pile. look nice? you're chosen. otherwise.. you dont and a hundred bucks of registration fee goes to waste. Fun, isnt it? *groans* IM PANICKING.

Now im stuffing myself with marshmallows and BOY are they sweet. I need water but im too lazy to get it. Its ALL THE WAY DOWNSTAIRS. i feel like taking a nap now but i cant cuz im waiting for brenda to call to fetch me to take the pic. PLUS theres someone coming to fix the fish pond later. OH IM FEELING SO DISCONTENT RIGHT NOW! SO SO SO DISCONTENT.

and ive not done any homework yet. have to finish chinese and EST today or im dead tomorrow.. oh yea, and theres LISAN to memorise. WHY OH WHY ME!?!?! and lately im feeling a little bit disconnected from some people. and im really close to 'some people'.. so it isnt feeling really good. if this goes on for long, im afriad we wont be as close as we used to be. thats all. Gah.

go do my homework now or something while waiting. hmm. yea, i'll do that.

For the past few months, mum has been making me drink milk. Yes, milk without the chocolate. yes, that makes it not chocolate milk but milk. Pure white soloution that gives you calcium to strenghten you bones and teeth, not that chocolate doesnt give you the same stuffies *calcium* but yea, thats not the point.

I was okay with milk when i was an infant till like around when i was 7. Then all of a sudden, i dont know what triggered it, but i just started to detest milk. it all just happened just like that *snaps fingers*. Since then, i never drank milk and only stuck to chocolate milk. Honestly, i blame it on not being allowed to drink from a baby bottle anymore. lolz. just a lame excuse, just ignore it.

So, thats my history with MILK. Frankly, since then, i've never been able to drink milk. When mum first made me drink it which was the starting of this year. I kept puking after i drank it. It was HORRIBLE. HORRI-GI-BLE more like. SO the only solution i had was to pinch my nose close and drink it. Then i couldnt taste it! but then i would still have to be holding my nose for 1 minute after drinking it or i would still be able to taste it and puke in the end. AWFUL. i know.

But after maybe one month of doing that, surprisingly, i got used to the taste of the milk *god knows how, since ive been pinching my nose and not tasting it, but i did* and now i dont have to pinch my nose close and crap anymore. Its really really great. Saves me all the trouble of having to suffocate after two gulps and having to breathe through my mouth like an idiot. seriously.

so thats all, just wanted to rant on about it. ^^"

I just finished reading this book

PS I love you
by Cecelia Ahern

I LOVE IT! I LOVE IT! I LOVE IT!

i cried on page 39. Thats the earliest i ever cried on any book. I mean, it was just the start and there i was crying!!! i dont know, to me, ME AT LEAST, the character kinda sorta reminded me of me. her personality i guess.. and i just couldnt help but feel how she felt.. and it was JUST SO SAD!!!!

AND THE STORY WAS SO SWEEET~~~ at the end of the novel.. after i read the last message her husband left for her before he died. I seriously CRIED like HELL. With snot and all, YES THE WHOLE PAKAGE!!! i even had to close the book.. and sob to myself.. collect myself and then continue reading. YOU HAVE NO IDEA...i just really.. really..

i dont know how to put it in words. her husband is so sweet and so thoughtful... just so EVERYTHING. i dont care if hez fictional, im in love.

I LOVE THIS BOOK!!! and wouldnt mind if someone bought it for me. *hint* *hint* you know, for any like special occasion. *hint* i REALLY wouldnt mind it as a gift *hint* in fact, I WOULD LOVE IT!! *hint*

im so in love with the book i feel like NEVER RETURNING IT TO MY SISTER'S FRIEND. i want to claim it mine!!! its just SO SWEET..

im a sucker for romance novels. im gonna reread it later and cry myself to sleep. *sigh*

i just feel so content right now. just so utterly content.

okay, you know what, the second after i posted up my previous post, my dad busted in the room and scolded me for being lazy and i was forced to move my lazy bumbum down the stairs to fold the clothes.

I KNEW I SHOULDA NEVER POSTED UP THAT POST! bad luck came!!!

so in the end, i DID fold the clothes! now now dont go all HAH! DAI SEI! =___=" i did like one basket and surprisingly it din take long. must be coz im sooooo SKILLED!!!! WHEE~~ *skilled, pfft. kononnya. but hey! gimme a break, say something nice.*

Aaaanyway, i watched this anime, FULL METAL PANIC and totally fell in love with SAGARA SOUSUKE!!! the main character. SO CUTE! hez like so innocent man!! *swoons* YES, i fell in love with a 2D character, you have a problem with that!??!?!! *kick* EVERYONE GO WATCH!!!

well.. as you all already know, im without a maid. and if you know me well enough.. you would know that im totally incapable of doing housework. yes, thats a fact, and i admit it.

and hey, im just someone whoz too used to being pampered.. and i dont wanna leave my shell.. my comfort zone and go all out in cleaning the house. IM LAZY!! IM REALLY REALLY LAZY! there, i said it. at least i DO clean the dishes! you've gotta give me some credit for that.

lately dad has been NAGGING me.. to fold the clothes. YES.. its DAD nagging me.. not MUM but DAD. as weird as that may sound, its true. and i dont like it.. WHO LIKES BEING NAGGED ANYWAY? but i admit.. nagging brings no fruits anyway, i STILL dont fold the clothes. =___='' yea i know im not being a good girl. Gah. i cant be bothered.

the only thing i can be bothered to do in making my own bed, bringing in the clothes when its raining and washing the dishes.. other than that.. yeaaa. I think mopping the floor would be kinda cool too! but they always dont let me do it. Hmm, so its not my fault right?

OKAY IM FEELING GUILTY! i shall go fold the clothes later.. or something... or...... sommeetthiiinnnggg... SOMETHING. hmm.

honestly speaking, i dont think im EVER gonna fold the clothes. But let that be just a secret between us. *sshh* I'll tell you if i EVER come around on doing it. hehee...

NAGGING.. NO PREVAIL.

Hmm.. im kinda bored.. (STILL waiting for naruto to load) so here i am, reveling secrets about me you guys probably didnt know. well, at least i TINK you guys dont know these about me.

1. (as stated in post below) i used to steal when i was young. and i was good at it too. SERIOUS. you dont wanna know where i stole from before =___=" NO ITS NOTHING SERIOUS LIKE JEWELRY.. but yea.. kids my age werent really interested in jewelry, if you know what i mean.

2. I used to lie a lot. Stealing and Lying comes hand in hand i guess. you cant STEAL and then NOT BE ABLE TO LIE. thats like CRAZY. so yea, i sued to lie so much when i was young, even when i was telling the truth, my family wouldnt believe me. like ir emeber this once i didnt take this pencil box of my sisters and they all accused me adn wouldnt believe me when i kept saying I DIDNT TAKE IT. it got annoying. oh well, my own fault, eh? too pro in lying. >___<""

3. I appeared on disney channel before!! when i was younger, the disney buzz crew, well only jien =___=" came over to PJ speech and drama and interviewed the kids. It was kinda funny cuz teacher told my couz and i what to say. He was supposed to say, i like to eat red apples and im to say i like to eat green apples. =___=" all i remmeber is that jien kept laughing at something i said after that.. hmm i was funny when i was young too! YAY! Lolz. he kinda like JUMPED and laughed or something. and i found him really cute then too. STILL find him cute now by the way.

4. i used to play golf when i was little. YES! I DID! AND I DIDNT DO HALF BAD EITHER!! so shut up about crap of being too thin and having no strength!! >__<>

5. I quited ballet cuz i hated my teacher. cuz she always picked on me and my friend for we go for another teachers class too. she was PREGNANT. so perhaps i cant blame her for mood swings. but i couldnt stand her picking on me so i stopped. (yes, i hate to admit it, but i cried like once in her class after being picked on.. I WAS YOUNG!) and that just triggered the whole IM STOPPING BALLET thing. and i still regret i stopped. but heck. you cant turn back time.

6. im really sensitive and i hold grudges. YES I DO. so you guys beware. lol. though i MAY NOT LOOK LIKE IT, i do. (brenda knows =___=") i subconciously do so, so it aint my fault. bleh. im only human after all.

7. I used to love dolls. hate barbie loved dolls.

8. i was a spoiled brat. (THIS IS VERY EMBARASSING. AND MY SIS WAS ON MY CASE FOR YEARS CUZ OF THIS) It was christmas on that year (forgot WHAT year but i think i was like 7 or 8) and mum bought this DOLL. and i asked her who it was for and she went like 'dont know, could be anyone' and since she told ME, i thought it was for ME. and so i was just REALLY looking forward to it. and then on christmas day, she gave it to my eldest sister. I was CRUSHED. utterly crushed. so i started crying and screaming to get my way. i was ordering mum to get me the SAME doll.. screaming and screaming for it. so mum was like okay, cuz she dindt know what to do and she said she'll buy me ANOTHER doll, but i didnt want ANOTHER DOLL i wanted the EXACT SAME ONE. so in the end, my eldest sis gave it to me so mum didnt have to go buy ANOTHER ONE FOR ME. (i dont think i really WANTED it, i was just being a nuinsance cuz i realised it wasnt for me or something) so in the end i got it and eldest sis was on my case FOR YEARS. everytime she brings it up.. and i think like *damn it wasnt worth it* lol. shes stopped now though. been YEARS, you think? (THATS THE WORST YOU'LL EVER SEE OF ME)

OMG!! NARUTO STOPPED LOADING. WHAT THE HELL!??!! =___=" see ya folks.. have to reload it AGAIN. GAH!!! more facts about me when i think of any.

i dont know why, but recently ive been getting really easily annoyed. like i get angered by every single LITTLE thing. AND I DONT KNOW WHY. ITS NOT PMS so shut up. =____="

I've been getting irritated almost everyday, and it feels SO BAD. I dont know why, perhaps cuz i havent been angry for a REALLY long time. BUT EverYDAY!?!?! Gah. That just friggin' sucks. But whatever, dont wanna think about that. Im human after all, and humans DO get angry.

SPM results out tomorrow! but in this case, TODAY!! in a few more hours. Prayin' for sis, not that its gonna help but yea.. besides, i already know shes gonna get great results. LoLz. knowing her.

Aaanyway, I'VE BEEN TAGGED by my sis!!! this was like AGES ago but i was lazy to do it.. and now since im waiting for my naruto epi's to load, heck, just do it now.
This is the way it works:

Knock the top name off the list below. Add yours to the bottom.

YummyBrainGravy
Ann Spam
Kalium Hidroksida
Kawaii Onna
PureViLmay

Tag five people:
1. Li Ying (kitty)
2. Brenda
3. Vanny
4. Shu Ying
5. Jie Han

You can do it too if your name's not there!!

What were you doing 10 years ago?

um.. lets see, i would be 6 then. what the heck was i doing when i was six?!?!? YOU EXPECT ME TO REMEMBER? *pfft* me and this lousy memory of mine (becoming lousier thanks to eating chocs everyday. IRRESISTABLE. SO SUE ME). Hmm, well whatever, lemme just say what i think i was doing then.

SIX that makes me a kindergarderner, doesnt it? well, i remmeber i used to steal when i was in kindergarden. NOW DONT GET ALL SHOCKED AND STUFF. YES, i did STEAL. from my eldest sister, lol, and gave stuff to my friends. and then get hell of a scolding from mum AND sis, but do the same thing anyway again and again. dont worry, stealing stopped around this age. After going through loads and loads of lectures, i guess i finally thought it wasnt worth to steal if i was gonna get lectured and made stand facing the wall (which i eventually turn to face the tv anyway, so it never works).

What were you doing a year ago?

enjoying life and studying for PMR. had my ups and downs throughout the year, gained experience and stuff. blaaaaaahhh.. form 3 was a great year. Spent my days in school with cas singing simple plan songs and yadi-yada. Went for genting trip at the end of the year and saw a FAMOUS AMOS GUy (the guy selling the cookies) WHICH WAS SO HOOOOOTT~~~ great memories... genting.. hmm, yea.

5 snacks you would enjoy:
1. FAMOUS AMOS COOKIES (reliving the moments in genting. DAMN he was HOT)
2. Jellybeans that sis buys all the time (they're like squishy and stuff, really nice)
3. Cottage fries (though they're like loosing their taste. dumb manufacturers)
4. CHOCOLATE (of any kind)
5. BIG GIGANTIC LOLLIPOPS (only cuz they look SOO GOOOOOD)

5 songs to which you know all the words:

oh c'mon!! FIVE? I KNOW SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT!!! but fine. i'll just list five.

1. Kiss me -six pence none the richer (ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS SONG)
2. I just wanna live -Good charlotte (ITS COOL!!)
3. Elephant Love Medley -moulin rouge (ITS SO CUTE!!!)
4. At the beginning - Anastacia the cartoon movie (sang at singning comp.)
5. MOST OF DA SIMPLE PLAN SONGS! (simple plan ALL THE WAY!)

5 things you would do if you were a millionaire:

1. BUY MYSELF A HANDPHONE (i've been waiting for mum to buy me one for AGES!! she keeps saying she'll get it for me, but IT DOESNT HAPPEN. getting my hopes up. hmph)
2. Get myself all the FAT CUTE plushies i can find ( i love fat toys, nice to hug lolz)
3. Buy famous amos cookies!!! (for im in love with them)
4. Pamper myself with padicures and manicures and get hair highlights! (it'd be nice to try!)
5. Go to japan with my second sis and spend my remaining money there.(cuz she rocks! and i love her to bits!! and i know she'd love going there too)if theres too much balance, i'd go to paris and london and canada to meet my new couz SIERRA!

5 Bad habits:

1. I slack a lot. hehe, procrastinator.
2. Dont like to finish my food (=___=" its true.)
3. dont think before i speak.
4. taking naps in the afternoon
5. coming online too much.

5 things you would enjoy doing:

1. Learning ballroom dancing with a partner
2. Hanging out with friends
3. Going to paris with a loved one
4. sleeping the day away
5. watching anime non-stop

5 things you would not wear again:

1. that primary school pinafore i once vomitted on (=___=")
2. a button dress i used to dislike
3. this long sleeve button shirt i used to hate (it was white. thats all i recall of it)
4. my second sister's shoes (cuz her feet are smaller than mine and it hurt real bad)
5. this long pants which was so friggin' tight. *ugh* (wasnt comfortable at ALL)

5 favourite toys:

1. My first doll. (still ever so pretty, but abandoned since i moved to the new house. STILL my favourite toy, but i just well, abandoned it. =__=")
2. Patches (my dog plushie. I was at toy-r-us and i spotted it. And after that i kept carrying it around and stuff in hopes mum would buy it for me, which im sure you can tell, she did. Whee~~)
3. The brown dog karen gave me on christmas which i have yet named (its SOFT!!!)
4. Bluey (cuz karen gave it to me on my birthday and i love karen)
5. hmm.. this is hard.. lemme see.. patrick? cuz its yellow? i dont know.

DONE!!! WHEE~~~

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2 more days to FREEDOM!! sweet sweet freedom!! oh, i can hardly wait!!

Lately, life has been like a dream to me. everything just seems so absolutely UNREAL. dont ask me why, but it does!! It feels like EVERYTHING isnt ACTUALLY HAPPENING and im living in this DREAM. Its like im looking down at MYSELF doing things or something. I dont know how to EXPLAIN how i feel but thats how i feel. and its WEIRD! absolutely and COMPLEtELY WEIRD!!!!

hmmm....

4 more papers to go before KEBEBESAN (from History paper, there was a typo, bebas to bebes) lolz.

Im a spoiled brat who needs to be pampered. Yes, I NEED PAMPERING. and the chart of being pampered has been getting lower and lower since my maid ran away last friday. I dont know what gave her the idea of running away, cuz i remmeber she was okay just that morning, and then at night. Pang! she was gone.

And i've been suffering terribly since then. Enough with your AAW's, its not even a real human emotion!!! (quoted from Russell Peters) You guys probably arent even feeling any pity for me, if you are, I DONT SEE YOU OFFERING TO HELP CLEAN MY HOUSE!! so whats the use? And honestly, I've been sick the whole week, from fever to food poisoning to the on going cough. ITS HORRIBLE. And EXAMS just puts the cherry on top of the pie. It just adds that final touch to everything.

I wake up in the morning with the realisation of, I DONT HAVE A UNIFORM TO WEAR. and mum has to wake up to iron my clothes for me and stuff. Then dad goes all 'You dont have to wash your uniform everyday.' HAS HE GONE BESERK!?!? I sweat everyday man, not washing it is like DISGUSTING. for him to even suggest such a thing, like HELLO??? ridiculous.

Oh and theres this friggin bug lying in the middle of the floor right outside the study room. Its like in the middle of the walkway, and its been there since this morning. The friggin bug lying on its back, lifeless.. Black... and dead. The disgusting thing. No one wants to pick it up and throw it away, and i dont wonder why. But seriously, there were times i ALMOST stepped on it. EEEWWW, thank god i didnt or the whole incident will haunt me for the rest of my life. Imagine SQUISH... *ugh*

Bad news is, new maid is gonna take like a few months to arrive. and hey, frankly i cant survive A FEW MONTHS without being PAMPERED. Thats like PSYCHO talk. I CANT LIVE LIKE THIS. YES, i repeat, IM A SPOILED BRAT. so sue me. I've been living like this all my life, taking everything for granted, the services of a maid, and all of a sudden, its stolen from me. and i just cant FACE THE MUSIC.

PLUS im doing ever so awfully in my exams. Everything seems so UNREAL like im living this dream and im gonna fail every single subject. ITS HORRIBLE. Thank GOd my cousins maid is here today to help clean up and all. But only for ONE DAY. ONE DAY of relief. PHEW. Thank the LORDS.

PHysics and Sejarah paper yet to come. WHOOPEE!! I CANT WAIT TO FAIL!!! *groans* hell. I cant wait till its over and the nightmare passes. Peace out. Till then, wish me luck people.

-Digging my grave in the unreal world-