Child's Play: November 2009

Cupcakes. Unicorns. Rainbows.

- Monday, November 30, 2009

Feelings now

Other times

Miss

Sick of

Needs

Should

Wants

Thinking of

Night, loves.

Talk to me.

- Sunday, November 29, 2009

Momentary high

This is what you do to me.
All the time
Again and again.
There are times i wish you'd just leave me alone.
xxx

So, Im good.
Been good.
Am good.

Not great, but good.
Not missing home, but can't wait to be home.

Sometimes i feel sort of restrained. Like im not really being myself. I get these short little outburst of me-ness, but i feel soooo restrained most of the time really. I don't jump around and sing anymore. I don't go STARFISH or SUNSHINE anymore. I don't shout anymore, i don't squeal anymore. Sigh.

I miss mah girls and the guys
(haha MY GUYS looked weird)

I guess im still trying to adjust. GASP! i remember a similar post to this when i first started college too. HAHAHAHAHA okay imma just gonna shuttup and try to be happy. I'll find my place soon, and i'll be okay soon, and i will be happy. Everything will fall into place and i will be happy.

But till then. Bleah.

Everything feels very, pointless and empty and, fudge, i think im seeking refuge from all of this by watching series =____=" OMG MY SERIES ARE MY FRIENDS. I AM A SAD SAD PERSON. Im always spacing out, its like im there but im not really there. Always feel sort of mild and whatever-ish. And im so tired of meeting new people, honestly. Sometimes you just want OLD, sometimes you want to have people who KNOW you around, people you can easily talk to and know won't judge you.

GAH.

WHERE THE HELL ARE MY PEOPLE.
(stupid time differences)

It sucks how everyone has groups now and i feel i dont really belong to any? Sorta like an outsider trying to tunnel in, and it shouldn't be this hard. Why is it this hard?

OKAY. NO MORE EMO.

In other news, saw this girl wearing one of the wongfuproductions designed shirt today during brunch and i totally freaked. I went up to her and went all 'OMIGOD WONGFU PRODUCTIONS!!! YOU GOT THAT FROM THEM RIGHT! OMIGOD!!!!' =___="

Thought i found another fan TT

But nuuuuooohh, felt slightly stupid after that (her boyfriend got her the shirt). And yesterday when i was walking back from practice at around 11pm, was zoning out thinking about stuff, and there was this buncha ppl walking past me, one of them (as he was walking BY me at MY side) went 'LENGLUI' damn loud, and i screamed.

Then i turned around, cause i thought it might be a friend or something (you know, like what happened before) but it was some random indian guy with his buncha friends, who all turned around, pointed at me, and laughed.

YAY me.
=________="

I thought people like these were left behind in malaysia. I guess i was wrong, NOPE, we still get that shit here. OH THE JOY.

I know i said no more EMO and its still sorta EMO
Sorry.

Its late and its quiet.
And i feel so drained.

sigh.

ONLY TWO MORE WEEKS NOW.

You're never fully dressed without a smile

- Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Pokemon Cards and Dragonball Comic book

IN BRISTOL MUSEUM

HAHAHHAHAHAHAH
WTH
WTH
WTH
.

May is thoroughly amused.

In other news, went to Cardiff and Bristol last weekend. Saw my fatty cousin and weikhai and brian, so that was all good. Was super sad, cause i was running late to take the bus from cardiff to bristol, so cousin and i sped walked all the way, then there was this weird maze ass bar thingy that we had to walk through at the end of it there was this guard person that took me to the bus. I thought cousin was following behind me after i took my bag from him, but he wasn't. I looked back and he was GONE. So i didnt manage to say bye properly, and was damn damn damn emo on the bus. TT Sigh.

Didnt do much in both cardiff and bristol, mainly cause there wasnt much to do, but also cause the weather was pretty shitty. Rain one second, sunny the other. wth laaaah, stupid weather so bloody temperamental. I dont mind the rain really, its just that the wind is so STRONG (as mentioned in previous post) that the umbrella gets difficult to handle. bleaaaah, was nice seeing all the old familiar faces again, and talking lots lots lots. When it was time to leave, i got all emo on the bus and totally teared. =__=" thank god there was this short ride from the bus stop to the station and from the bus stop, there was only i think 9 of us. so i dont think anyone saw that i teared? Like at the station SO MANY ppl got on. Stupid person who sat behind me kept kicking my chair. GRRness.

Got back and told karen that i felt emo, like, i havent really been able to talk to anyone here? like really really anyway, and i didnt know how much i missed that until i met up with them and its like GAAAAH EMONESS. Karen was so sweeeeeet x) She immediately offered for me to stay over at her place whenever i want. HOHO I LOVE YOU LAH WOMAN!! x)

I swear though, its not THAT bad here.

Im just pms-ing. No, really.

And you know what happens when i pms, i get super emotional. I cry when i watch children movies. So anyway. Ahem-hem. XD And ironically, HOHO, today after class, suet and i got hot chocolate from the bar (wanted to see how the machine worked, damn jakun) and i went to her room to finish it, cause i split some while i was carrying it (ITS NOT MY FAULT, THE DRINK SWISHES AROUND IN THE CUP TOO MUCH). and we wounded up talking... for damn long.

LOL

like seriously just forgot the time. I thought we only talked for a short while, but at one point she went, 'eh whats the time now ar?' *glance at watch* 'WTH ITS SIX THIRTY!!' =___=" talk for 3 hours jor. she was supposed to do her accounts and read the script, i was supposed to MEMORISE the script (im performing for malaysian night). *slaps forehead* lol but we had a good talk XD SO IT'S ALL GOOD. then we had dinner and went for rehearsal....

and got back at 12.
TT

Thank Goodness i only have one lecture tomorrow.

Anyway, just a short update to show you guys that im well and alive here!! =)

And, short conversation between cousin and I when i went over,

'OH NO! have you lost all your fats? =('
'Don't worry! they're still here!'

LOL!!!

LOVE!!!

oh, I Just can't wait to be King

- Sunday, November 15, 2009

In all species in which the female makes greater parental investment than the male (such as humans and all other mammals), mating is a female choice; it happens when the female wants it to happen, and with whom she wants it to happen, not when the male wants it to happen.

The power of female choice becomes quite apparent in a simple thought experiment. Imagine for a moment a society where sex and mating were entirely a male choice; individuals have sex whenever and with whomever men want, not whenever and with whomever women want. What would happen in such a society? Absolutely nothing, because people would never stop having sex! There would be no civilization in such a society, because people would not do anything besides have sex. This, incidentally, is the reason why gay men never stop having sex: there are no women in their relationships to say no. Sexually active straight men on average have had 16.5 sex partners since age 18; gay men have had 42.8.

In reality, however, women do often say no to men. This is why men throughout history have had to conquer foreign lands, win battles and wars, compose symphonies, author books, write sonnets, paint portraits and cathedral ceilings, make scientific discoveries, play in rock bands, and write new computer software, in order to impress women so that they will agree to have sex with them. There would be no civilization, no art, no literature, no music, no Beatles, no Microsoft, if sex and mating were a male choice. Men have built (and destroyed) civilizations in order to impress women so that they might say yes. Women are the reason men do everything.

- Why Beautiful People Have More Daughters
Alan S. Miller and Satoshi Kanazawa
(pg 132-133)

Hoho, interesting, no?

Wanna have more sex?
You know what you have to do now!
Gay is the way to GOOOO!!

FYI, i'd probably love you even more!! XD In dire need of a gay friend. want to be mine?

Ps. We often forget just how blessed we are. Take a step back, breathe. Things aren't as bad as you think they are. And every other time you forget, just remember. Breathe! And hey, tomorrow is just a day away =)

I won't judge you, I just think its weird

- Saturday, November 14, 2009

Went out earlier with a friend to get French books from the European bookstore and omg, it was raining so heavily.

okay so the rain looks so good in the picture you just want to stand under it and go AH I LOVE THE RAIN (cleanse my soul yadi yada) but trust me, HERE, the rain is SO NOT -AH I LOVE THE RAIN- quality. its like OMG ITS RAINING I WANT TO GET OUT OF HERE! cause the wind is so bloody strong your umbrellas just cant withstand it and it goes all inside out (which totally reminds me of jitjiang btw =___=" remember the post [clicky]? hoho) and its so difficult to push forward cause the wind is pushing you back, its like you're constantly fighting against the wind, and half the time i was wondering if i'd get blown away and fly like mary poppins.

which would be totally cool if i flew to the land she came from and met her there and she started singing...SUPERCALIFRAGILISTICEXPIALIDOCIOUS even though the sound of it is something quite atrocious~~ blabbalblablbalbla but anyway, so i was wet and the stupid train line we needed to get onto wasnt working that day so basically, we decided to just come back. so we wasted like 3.20 just to do nothing and walk under the horrible weather. YAY US!

So i came back feeling a little like this,

but then i remembered i had mail to collect from the reception! checked the booky at the reception desk and it was a parcel! =D A PARCEL? FOR ME?!?!

*grins, sways from side to side*

Who could it be from?

I actually thought perhaps the school sent me something =___=" omg right, yeah i think the school loves me more than everyone else. SSHHH ITS A SECRET. hoho HAHAHHAHA kidding. =.= my sense of humour is sad, i know. shuttup.

So i opened it and it was,

A french book! =D

With pictures HAHAHA FRIGGIN AWESOME!

and it was frooommm,

MY SISTER x)

So then i was feeling like this,

Happy happy HAPPY YAY!

xxx

In other news, after dinner on Thursday night, went to play foozball for a bit, even though i suck like crap at it (=___=" and cant help but scream lots and make lotsa kungfu-ish sounds when i play... which reminds me of daytona/mario kart and how i keep screaming when i play that too. perhaps i should just NOT play. so embarassing), after awhile these two guys came and played against Kristy and Sheun. And the two guys were pretty good at it, in like 2 seconds, it was 2 - 0. ouch! Then one of the guys said,

'Do you know about the 10-nil rule?'

*blank faces*
'the what rule?'
'basically, if we score 10 goals and you score none, you will have to run around passfield garden in your boxers, for girls, in their underwear.'

O.O

Kristy immediately dropped out, and Sid took her place instead.

and...
....
....

Sheun and Sid lost, 10-nil.

*ahem*

The two guys got pretty confident, and was all, okay lets raise the stakes, they gave sheun and sid a headstart of 3 points and said,

'if you manage to beat us, we will do one round in our boxers, but if you lose, you have to do 2 rounds'

This time, Himesh came along and substituted Sid. And Himesh was not bad as well, and Sheun got his mojo back and was suddenly really really good... HAHHAA so they started leading like crazy, and the two guys started getting worried, and i swear you could feel the tension in the room. HAHAHAHA DRAMA!!! they were like,

'perhaps we were too generous with the 3 goal headstart we gave them'
HAHAHAHHAHA AAAWWW

so in the end they lost... so all 4 of them had to do the round. XD Sheun and Sid went up to change or something so the two guys did their round first. THEY WERE SO CUTE cause it was drizzling a bit, so they got their umbrella out and were both sharing the umbrella, jogging side by side in their boxers around the garden. super like AAWWWW SO ADORABLE CAN. HAHAHAHA when sheun and sid came down, more people came down to watch them run. LOL they should have ran earlier when no one was there. damn funny. so a lot of people were watching and cheering when they did their round. it was hilarious. XD

Edited: Oh and guess what, THE IDIOT GUY WHO DOESNT KNOW HOW TO FLUSH is back to his old habits again! twice yesterday i walked into the loo and saw urine and tissue still in it. I dont mind it so much, at least it doesnt stink. so i just flush before i use. But omg, last night at 1.30am, i went to the loo and i saw...

White transparent looking fluid in the toilet bowl.

You've GOT to be KIDDING ME.

=____________="

EEWWW MUCH?!?!??!?!

Ps. I think too much in the lines of cartoons/animation/children movies. I mean, when im walking down the street and i see the leaves falling from the trees my mind automatically plays the scene from 'A Bugs Life'

'You see Hopper, Nature has a certain order. The ants pick the food, the ants keep the food, and the grasshoppers leave!'

cause you remember how they were supposed to have collected all the food by the time the last leaf falls? looool. SEE THIS IS WHAT GOES ON IN MY MIND. Nothing intelligent, just lines from children movies. TT

So not good.

Also, talked to Brenda for 6 and a half hours yesterday... omg. and sara joined in during the last one hour or so. So that was good.

Dust in my eyes

- Monday, November 09, 2009

Nothing much loves, just a lovely lovely song by a girl with a lovely lovely voice

Spread the love! =)

so sweet!!

Some of you may recognize her from the video 'I heart you online' remember the one? Clicky. On a short short short note, SO MUCH CATCHING UP TO DO WHICH I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO THIS WEEK BUT DID NOT. SHOOT ME SHOOT ME SHOOT ME, no DONT. Put the gun down and breathe. SIGH!!! FEEL SO BEHIND AND STUPID AND BLUR AND RIDICULOUSLY BAD that i feel like i need to watch more movies [?] SHOOT ME SHOOT ME SHOOT ME, no DONT. Cause french starts tomorrow and student tutoring shall start soon and and and - i need more time. Or no movies.

More time.
Please? TT

sigh. GONNA BE NERDY AND STUDY LIKE CRAZY starting from.... thursday. =___=" cause monday tuesday and wednesday are paaaaaaaacked. Again, SHOOT ME SHOOT ME SHOOT ME, no DONT.

You know i love you people =)

Being left behind in the dust is SO NOT FUN, i'll catch up i'll catch up I'LL CATCH UP.

Crumbs

- Friday, November 06, 2009

The other day, Su Ean, Rufus and I went to the old building to cheggit the shaw library (cause su ean and I have yet been to the place), so we were in the elevator and there was this one other lady there too. Rufus was saying,

'i noticed people around here like to ask, how are you doing? but when they ask that they dont expect a long answer, so usually people just say, oh im good. it's kind of their way of saying hi.'

'why don't they just go, wassup yo!'

5th floor. lady got out.

and the 3 of us in the lift were like, hmmm, wonder if she was eavesdropping. (then again, you cant HELP but overhear. =.= so wth?) so we exited at the 6th floor (was it? i dont remember lah) and checked out the library (omg so quiet.) and then went down again, and guess who we bumped into at the lift again! (perfect timing whoop!)

none other than the lady from earlier!
(who was now carrying hot chocolate, if im not mistaken)

So we all like hmmm! same person! hmmm!! smile smile! HMMM! then rufus goes,

'How are you doing!'
and she goes,

'Im fine! but you're not supposed to ask that right? hahaa'

OMG OMG OMG
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

Epic.

She turned out to be a lecturer, which came as a surprise to all of us cause she looked pretty young! so cool! lalalallaa~~

LOVE!

ps. They cant ALL be long updates.

Plans plans plans IDEA?

- Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Am a bit sick, (getting much better now, barely coughing now too!), anyway,

=>Peepoo loves || Mäy || 媚 more than words can say
sigh
=>Peepoo loves || Mäy || 媚 more than words can say
blocked nose now
=>Peepoo loves || Mäy || 媚 more than words can say
I CANT BREATHE
=>Peepoo loves || Mäy || 媚 more than words can say
gonne die dy
=>Peepoo loves || Mäy || 媚 more than words can say
xp
=>Peepoo loves || Mäy || 媚 more than words can say
tell my mummy i love her
=>Peepoo loves || Mäy || 媚 more than words can say
x.X
(tu)dArtH Li|iuM(W)(U)
gggggggg
(tu)dArtH Li|iuM(W)(U)
u drama queen
(tu)dArtH Li|iuM(W)(U)
roar
(tu)dArtH Li|iuM(W)(U)
its okay my child
(tu)dArtH Li|iuM(W)(U)
can always poke a hole at ur throat

.....
TT

Anyway, PLANNING TO TAKE UP FRENCH! WHEEE!! And student tutoring starts next week! So looking forward to it, hope it meets up to my expectations. Will be working with lil adorable kiddies!! so i hope anyway. =D Black Eyed Peas at MOS today, and my friend had free tickets and asked me to go along but i said no, cause imma sick and its prolly not a good idea to stay out so late, and i dont really enjoy clubbing either so... =( ANYWAY.

Econs problem set is killing me. i dont even want to look at it. IT BURNS MY EYEEEESSSSSS!! Watched 500 days of summer because,

Babybat Monkey
AUMG AUMG AUMG
Babybat Monkey
if you havent already
Babybat Monkey
watch 500 days of summer

and so i downloaded the movie. all i can say is HMMMMMMMM!! Didnt enjoy it very much. Didnt think it was teh awesome, like monkey said it would be. so HHMMMMMM!!! and the ending was so like =___="

'autumn.'
(1)

oh hell no.

Any other good movie recommendations?
Gonna watch UP again this weekend.
ME is EXCITED.

UP UP AND AAWWAAAAAYYYY!!

LOVE!

Idiots are Annoying.

- Sunday, November 01, 2009

So if you've read my post titled 'Point in White' and you got what i meant by point in white, you would have read what i would have wanted you to have read. But if you didn't, i've made it bloody obvious now what you're supposed to have read and you can go ahead and clicky/scroll down to said post and read.

Continuation, (oh you know the drill):-

What i typed out before in point in white, was a very mild version of what actually happened. because in the real event, when i said knelt down beside her bed, he was actually leaning closer and closer to her trying to touch her and kiss her. EEWW much? well, since then, the sub-warden has like came up and talked to him about it, in which he denied he did anything of the sort and claims,

'I WAS ONLY WENT INTO THE ROOM FOR 5 MINUTES.'

YEAH RIGHT. the sub-warden looked him in the eye and told him 'i know you did much more than that.' Victim hallmate was damn nice to him. Sub-warden gave her three options, she could either give him a formal warning, in which could get him kicked outta passfield OR sub-warden could just talk to him OR she could just let it go. Just letting it go would have been stupid because he would have thought that his conduct was acceptable and might do it again, so she opted for the second one for she didnt want to cause too much of a commotion and didnt want to make such a big deal out of it. mana tau the asshole denied everything.

AND SINCE THEN,

Idiot asshole living on my floor has been causing trouble for everyone. The other morning, i found this piece of paper under my door which said,

'For Gods sake, do you NOT understand ENGLISH? Please close the door QUIETLY because you wake me up every morning. Thanks. or else i will complain.'

Actually mine just stopped at Thanks, the one under my next door hallmates one had the or else i will complain part. Its super like WTF? its not like we wake up very early, and its not like the door closes very loudly either. =____=" and what does he mean by DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND ENGLISH? did he tell us before or something? because I DONT RECALL nothing of that sort. so honestly. what the hell is his problem? So this morning, roomie and i woke up pretty late, around 11am? and she went to the loo. Later on we get this knock on our door, and GASP it was idiot who lives on my floor! and he said we were BOTHERING him cause we didnt close our door softly enough.

and i think, because it was already 11am and he couldnt say OMG ITS SO EFFING EARLY YOU DISTURB MY SLEEP I HATE YOU I COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN IM A BABY I NEED TO WHINE WHY YOU COMPLAIN ABOUT ME TO SUBWARDEN VENGEANCE IS MIIIIINNEEE!! instead he said, I was having an interview and the door closing disturbed me.

=____="

honestly, ITS NOT THAT LOUD. and hes never complained before point in white incident, and ALL OF A SUDDEN, his hearing ability has HEIGHTENED. Also, hes been leaving us "NICE" surprises in the loo. in the form of,

SHIT. URINE. TISSUE. and EEWWWW hair.
=_____="

FUUUUUDGE.

damn nasty. and because he leaves it there for so long, it stinks up the WHOLE toilet and when you flush it doesnt all go down and after flushing for like 4 times, theres still residue. BLEAAAAHHH. damn annoying!!!! behtahan!!! honestly, if he comes and knocks on my door again, imma gonna tell him off. cause my roomie (she opened the door i was still sleeping) is too nice to say anything about ... FLUSH THE TOILET AFTER USE and so on.

On a brighter note,
Went for this halloween thing on friday night. Organised by my hall at some bowling alley which was sorta like a club too. It was alright, save for the fact that i lost my voice =( mehness. Pictures on facebook (if you dont see them yet its because im too lazy to upload just yet, but it'll be up there soon enough.)

Just one picture, because its too damn funny XD

Hottest girl there that night,
All the boys went crazy over her.
SERIOUSLY.

Mah friend ~~Ruf~~ Nikki.

Didnt get any sleep that night as we had to gather at school at 3.30am for the bus leaving for Nottingham Games would leave by 4am. lalalala. Nottingham games was alright, damn nice uni btw, but omg COLD COLD COLD FRIGGIN COLD. TT was nice to see all the old familiar faces again =D shoulda taken a picture with everyone but i forgot. the only person i took a picture with was yingjie and thats because he went

'do you have a camera?'
'yeap!'
'lets take a picture!'
'omg you camwhore!!'
'i learn from you wan!'

YEAH RIGHT xp but GOOD ON YOU!

anyway, IM SICK NOW. i think cause i went all PSSSH FRESHERS FLU, im STROOONG and shit. =( NUUUOOOOHHHHH!!!!! sigh, gonna do work now, super lots of stuff to do TT go cheggit photos on facebook, will upload when....ever.