things forgotten

broken promises
let everyone down

i guess thats just the way its supposed to be

either way
I have good humour. hence,

HAHAHAHAHA
=)

Life goes on..

(and to those who can relate, together now! 'NOT ANYMORE AYE!')
something lost, something gained

This is RARE, for me to DOUBLE post in a day [i usually try not to as its nicer to see a date on top of each post, doncha think? or is it just I?] but i really forgot to post something! and thats just WRONG of me, right?

# note : i notice lotsa people have stopped blogging and hence urge them to KEEP THE SPIRIT UP! THINK OF THE BLOG GOD AND er... meditate and er... GET INSPIRATION FOR BLOGGING! (thinking of nabi muhammad and him getting wahyu now)

i've really taken a liking to POINTING at people. ODD, i knoooww!! people who know me and bump into me in school will know this well enough. I always point at you, no? (i dont? maybe i dont like you. lol. kidding) xp i dont know why, but its FUN okay! Omigawd, bordering lameness. *checks time* 11.25pm, nowonder, why am i not surprised? but yeah, im thankful for all those who actually HUMOUR ME [i love all y'all really, cuz most people DO humour me] and point back with the shock look and all.

I think if there was a POINT AND LOOK SHOCK competition, xiao von would win

..didnt i warn you i was going to be lame?

anyway, if you're bored or you just want a HELLUVA GOOD LAUGH, read this post by this dude [not me]. He's my sisters friend, really interesting fellow indeed! Its hard to come by funny blogs like this! i assure you! =) Always makes me laugh, seems like kennysia material. You'll see! READ READ READ!

just as a reminder [though THIS WAS what i wanted to blog about in the first place, but its pretty boring - but not to me. Hence its here]

'Hey xiao von have you heard everything by michael buble?!?!'
*nge seong pronounces it as BUBBLE, funny!*
'GASP! I LOVE IT! YOU'RE A FALLING STAR~~~'
[with hand action and all during the part she sang]

XD you werent there, you didnt see it, you wouldnt understand why im laughing. It was a uber cute scene though! and after that i drew this heart on my palm and went to the back of the class to talk to xv, kat they all la... and xv was hitting my palms.. and all of a sudden, chun yan aka ponteng king reached out to my hand and went 'picit!' and pinched the heart.

ZOMG?!?!?!

and i was like 'WHAT THE HELLL WASS THAAT?!?! OMGG!! SO WEEIIRRDD!!' XD weird fellas in my class! Them who adds flavour to the class i guess. Who else has a dumbass in the class? *yonghui OHOHOHO see? i mentioned how unique you are and how you stand out in the class, happy hor?* xp

BREAKING NEWS!
yonghui has a pencilbox now. I am astounded.

Much love,
Goodnight all.

- now remembered -

escape cons!

Today brenda and i were late for school but GASP... guess what?!?!

THE BACK GATE WAS STILL OPEN!!!!

it was like the pearly gates of heaven, there was even the song playing in my head 'HALLELUJAH! HALLELUJAH!' it was meant to be, we werent MEANT to be caught! SEE THE SIGNS?!?! so we were happily skipping down the road when we heard that the announceents had already started and so brenda said that we should wait beside the building at the road so that we would be blocked and hidden from the eyes of the public [?]

how very clever we felt indeed!

So the plan was like this, once the assembly ends and the students are walking up the staircase, we would waltz into the crowd, you know? SEEP IN and then bleeend in.Just like that.
They'd never know the difference. and if someone asks,

'HEY WHERE'D YOU COME FROM?'

we'd casually reply,

'but i was HERE ALL ALONG! didnt you SEE ME?'

and maybe we'd even include in idiom in there just for the sake of it and say something like
'You're as blind as a bat!'

foolproof! COMPLETELY! right?! RIIIGHT!?!?
see thats what i thought too!

and whaddya knoooww... it is known that when you have that kind of mindset (meaning the whole ITS FOOLPROOF mindset) something WILL and MUST go wrong. Life is JUST like that. For example if someone says 'it cant get any worse than this' or 'it can only get better' IT ALWAYS GETS WORSE. ALWAYS. well ALMOST always. Hence, yessss... something bad DID happen.

Just as we were standing there snickering to ourselves at our ingenious plan, a buncha prefects just HAPPENED to be cruising along the corridor in front of the classrooms and SPOTTED US. Brenda was back facing them as she was facing me and i went

'Brenda, we've been SPOTTED.'
'by who?'
'...prefects'

at this point the prefects were nearing
'are they.... behind me?' says brenda
'....yesss... turn around'
'oh shit.'

and they had their little press conference on WHAT TO DO WITH THEM!??! i felt like an escaped convict apprehended. I THOUGHT THERE WERE SIGNS! I THOUGHT WE WERENT SUPPOSED TO BE CAUGHT! I THOUGHT WE COULD BLLEEENNDDD INNNNN!!!

IT WASNT SUPPOSED TO END THIS WAY!

yeah well we got our names copied in the end.
CLEAN SLATE GONE!
ah well.

i know

i stay true to my word.
Funny how easy it is this time compared to the last time.

I surprise myself once again at my capability. I dont even know how i managed to do this, once i never even deemed it possible. The idea was so far fetched to me, and though i wanted to, i really just well- couldnt.

But look at me now.

Look at what progress i've made. Progress? thats rather ironic since this is rather backwards. But yes, PROGRESS. I never thought i was the one who would be able to turn my back on all of THAT. what WAS there. and i've proved myself wrong, havent i?

I'd like to blame it all on somebody else, for pushing me to my limit, for making me decide what i have decided, for making me do what i have done. But really, it was all me. and i can see it rather clearly in black and white now. All laid in front of me. It was ME.

and no one deserves to be blamed. =) But im happy now, more than i've been in months. Not because i am decided, because decided - i was before. Im happy because i've done it, at long last and i feel more at ease and more set free than EVER.

it was nice of you to have been nice to me in the past, to have said all those things you said even though you didnt have to. You probably meant it when you said it, but they are meaningless to me now because i see- though you meant it then, you never stood by your words. so i wont say you lied.

And dont say sorry when you dont mean it. Because then it would have no meaning to it. So whats the point? All those 'sorry's accumulated to amount to nothing and so now your 'sorry's dont mean anything to me anymore. Thats just sad. How i've lost my faith in you, when there used to be so much there.

So much of it. Really.

One of my closest. Never again, i assure you that much.
..It was hurtful to say the least

but now its okay. A NEW DAY HAS COME! *celine dion song plays. ZOMG!* who cries anymore? [not since a few months back when i was decided x) and i am PROUD] i wouldnt say this is not worth crying over, because it is. And i HAVE cried over it. So yeah! who'd want to cry over it AGAIN!?!? *BOOORIINNNG~~ bleh*

not anymore. period.

its easier to say goodbye now

dont be confused though, i still love you. :)
i always will.

packed

His smile leaves a BIIIIG impression on me and i dont even know why!

Its like for that moment, all your problems are gone, you dont even remember what was wrong, everything just feels so lifted and happy! x) And i love feeling that way. And its odd because i dont even really know him, but really his smile, his BRILLIANT BRILLIANT SMILE!! =) Smiles that make you smile too, inside and out. He shines, at least to me he does. and i hope he never stops being that way *rock on hard, dude!*

An example of a person with a brilliant smile (which i think i've told EVERYONE before but is worth rementioning so shuttup)

I know his teeth are a little off but really! LOOK AT HOW EARNEST AND BRILLIANT (vocab increasingly low these days, hope you dont mind the repetition of the word brilliant. If you do, just change the word in your head to something else. xp) HIS SMILE IS!!! XD DONT YOU JUST LOVE HIM!?!

that was him THEN.. and this is him NOW... [with a buncha kelefe's but still him nonetheless]

Brilliant smile still in tact! what a good looking boy indeed!
and no im not just saying this because he is my cousin! xp

oh anyway i've been wanting to blog about this for a long time now but always forget since well THERE ARE SO MUCH TO BLOG ABOUT AND SO LITTLE TIME! (not that anyone cares but me but STILL!) so as i was saying you know after you wash your hands, we all have this habit of shaking our hands dry. and its ANNOYING when people dont watch where they shake their hands. LIKE HELLO!?!?!?

just like how dogs shake themselves dry.
imagine if you were standing right next to them while they were doing THIS. *invisible finger which you shall now pretend to see is pointing downwards to the following picture*the other day i was standing in a mall and this girl sprinkled my legs with water. STUPID GIRL. i begrudge her for life- not that i remember who she is BUT I DO!. and today i was in the loo waiting for my turn to- well you know- and this girl shook her stupid wet hands and ended up wetting me [pinafore].

What worse is, they do it so UNCONSCIOUSLY because they're so USED TO IT and they dont even NOTICE what they have done. and all thats left is your eyes burning holes into their backs until they eventually leave. [and you hope you got your message across. which was none other than 'TURN AROUND AND APOLOGISE DAMMIT!' but unfortunately not] you're lucky if they even turn around to look at you by chance. maybe even then they'd be thinking 'wth is HER problem? playing with water? HAHA IDIOT'. YOU NEVER KNOW.

hence the lesson today KIDS (felt like it) is to :-

SHAKE YOUR HANDS DRY IN THE BASIN
AND NOT JUST FLING IT AROUND THINKING ITS OKAY.

The world is a better place that way. Think of the pms-ing girls and how much annoyance you're saving them (well girls take turns pms-ing every month and are easily provoked so yeah! lets not cause unnecessary irritation).

Oh and i finished harry potter and the deathly hallows yesterdayGood one Good one. I am satisfied.

DID YOU KNOW SNAPE IS HARRY POTTERS FATHER!?!?

OMFG RIGHT?!?!?!

did i manage to trick you? xp lotsa ppl got tricked today, bryan came up with that as a joke and DAAAMMNNN~~ we didnt expect so many to fall for it. You wont believe the number of people who went 'OMG WHY YOU TELL ME?!?!'. but thankfully none said

'yeah I SAW THAT COMING'

..that woulda been ridiculously funny and stupid. Dont'cha think?

AND LOOKIT MY NEW HAIR! x)

mum brought me to the hair salon and i thought i'd try something funky! WHO THE HELL CARES ABOUT SCHOOL AND SCHOOL RULES ANYWAY!!??!?! tangkap then tangkap laaa!!
okay fine so i admit it looks too much like a wig to fool anybody.
but its UBER COOL, no?

sis had to wear this wig for her ballet concert.
AMAZING STUFF!

Ballonnies! she had me be her model for the wig so she could comb it properly. haha I FEEL SO USSSEEEDD!!!! *sniff sniff* xp [ps. deliberately blocked avril with balloons]

LOOKIE! my sis choreographed a dance! it was CHUN-TED

and she got this huge huge heart from her lovely ballet friends =)

not to forget, flowers too! =) so proudamahsista!

l..l, Like never before

wonder

Today was another happy day =)

Some people really do make me smile this wide =D

If you know me well enough, you would have heard me complaining to you about losing originality, losing creativity and most of all, losing my funny. Sounds familiar? Oh yes, so i HAVE told you before. Thats what I thought. I dont blog like i used to anymore, really i dont! check back to 2005 (ending of the year) and compare them to the posts now. Vast difference, i assure you. I used to be hilarious even to me, then. and now? NOW?!?! NOOOOOWWW?!??!!

- silence-

Im losing it. Slowly, slowly... its slipping away from me. And i see it going! the humour! MY humour! WHY ARE YOU LEAVING ME!??! I DONT UNDERSTAND THIS INSANITY! Its been awhile, my friends, but for the first time in a very long time since god-knows-when, i had a really quirky conversation with non-other than the wicked genius (or so he claims) and just for that short lived moment i think i managed to regain some of that funny i lost. Its been awhile since i laughed so hard at an online conversation. Too long. WAAAAY too long.

...And we were talking about pink socks and flying unicorns
Hey these are actually pretty cool

okay so there wasnt any flying unicorns involved, but it sounded nice to include it in anyway. Added effect, dont you think? Of course you think. Brains are meant just for that. I feel sarcastic now. am i allowed to be sarcastic? can you even object? of course not. So i shall be sarcastic and you'd just have to live with it.

... or not read.
(and if im not sarcastic later on, its your gain, my loss. but i dont feel the loss. so its okay)

But you'd read anyway, because you're nice and you love me. Then again you'd STILL read even if you're not nice and you dont love me. Either way, its a plus for me.

at least, someone's reading.

Despite what anyone might say about you, despite what the signs may be showing you now, I love you.

That came out of nowhere. now shoot me.

Never take me too seriously, never take me too lightly. You never know when im kidding and when im not. Sometimes i, myself am not too sure. Dreamers are often like that. I apologize for being overly complex. But on the contrary, im NOT complex. im the simplest person you'll ever meet. One look and you'd know how im feeling. As you're reading this post, you can TELL how im feeling.

How DO you think im feeling right now?

dont take too long a time to ponder on this. Because life threatening matters need more pondering on than how im feeling. Besides, no ones going to care IF you know how im feeling right now. Not even me. because at the same time you figure out how IM feeling at stated 'RIGHT NOW' that 'RIGHT NOW' wouldnt even be RIGHT NOW RIGHT NOW anymore. and so...

what does it matter?
What does it matter?
WHAT does it matter i say?

Precisely. Nothing.

Bravo. even you knew the answer to that one!
give yourself a pat on the back and applaud.

And so, dont ponder. Rest your mind. Your mind needs that. All those stuff compiling up in your head is already ready to explode any second now, you dont need to add more STUFF to those STUFF thats already there. That would be senseless of you. stupid. Dumb even. and im pretty sure you wouldnt like to be dumb. hence. stop. just stop.

i'll save you the agony the pain.. STUFF. More stuff another day. Till then. I take back what i said. I dont love you. Not at all. But deep down, somewhere DEEEP DOOOWWWN and i do mean DEEEP DOWN inside, i might just do.

Are you comprehending what im telling you? ARE YOU!?!? ... really? what makes you think you do? I might be saying this but this may not be the meaning to this post at all! Has that thought ever crossed your mind? No?

see? thats what i thought.

peace

Today was a good day =)
and i am happy today =)

so anyway, after school, yenhsian, liying and i went to check out the YE stall and i saw the CUTEST PIGGY CLIP THINGY!! x) okay i know its pretty much COMPLETELY USELESS but its so darn cute okay!?!? x) too bad they were expensive.

...BUT I DID CONSIDER.

i asked the girl if she could remove the non-pig clips and replace them with pig clips from the other packets and she said NO. =__=" and i mean 1 piggy clip and 3 other-who-the-hell-cares clips isnt worth 5 bucks. seriously. I dont think even the 4 piggy clips is worth 5 bucks but I WOULD HAVE BEEN NICE if they would have just done that little switcher-oo stunt for me.

BUT WOULD THEY!?!?
WOOOUUULLLDD THEEEYY!?!?!

THATS WAVING ONE PAYING CUSTOMER GOODBYE.

oh well. =( the piggy clip WAS cute. they also sold stuff socks which were made into chicken designs. it wasnt too bad. Perhaps i was expecting it to be worse after that joyee said about them. I thought it was pretty okay, boleh-tahan-lah kind of thing. but i wouldnt buy it. Its soft though.. like squishy squishy soft (do you even GET that?) This pouch thing [barely] which had a dolls head on it was also sold. Yen hsian saw a pretty adorable one but it was also EXPENSIVE! it was 8 bucks... bet the real thing is only like 3 or 4 bucks. Indirectly Robbing us of our money. really.

i know i should be supportive and all since i participated in YE last year, but this is seriously too much to pay! its CRAZY TALK! (well not really, but i'll just say it is because i want to) I mean, we're KIDS! we dont MAKE our own money, we're not LOADED. do you see hundred dollar bills sticking out of my pocket??!?!? i can assure you, if you DO, GO GET YOUR EYES/BRAIN CHECKED. (are you on drugs?)

Sleep awaits me, may annoyance not bug me today.
Till tomorrow my fair maidens and kind sires

:) Peace and Quiet and a whole lot of smiles

all i need

Im just so tired lately, all i can do is resort to ignoring.

Dont ask.

that way, the world seems so perfect again.
Perfection does not exist
But hell if i dont at least try to look at it that way.

lets just all do me a favour and pretend im okay

-Trivial, these things mean little to me-

Bon Odori


bon odori '07
(actually i was just taking the bear, and then i realised i could see me in the mirror and so looked into the cam. xp )

We took SUCH A LONG TIME putting on the yukata. Brenda was SOOOO annoooyyyeedd and STRESS STRESS STRESS because hers was so hard to make perfect and she had to help me still. hehe. THANKS BRENDA! x)
there were lotsa people who thought we were japanese and took pictures with us. above is example of one group of ppl. LOL. it was SOOO STUPID because we were talking before the picture was taken (as in among ourselves) and we were speaking in ENGLISH. even after the picture was taken i went,

'OMG THE FLASH WAS BLLLIIINNNDDIIINNNGGG'

and yet after that they still went *smiley smiley* 'ARIGATO! ARIGATO!' and wavey wavey on us. and we were like 'SHYT! THEY THINK WE'RE JAPS!' lol. that was funny. we dont even look like japanese!! (do we?)
Li Ying's idea. XD one pic in which we actually posed.
LIYING LOOKING SOOOO ADORABLE!!!
TADUMDUM! x) The Li's.
sara and i all sweaty already because we went to dance. Which reminds me. IT WAS SOOOO SCARY OKAY, at first when we first joined the dance, we didnt know the steps, but BECAUSE we were in yukata (we being sara me and brenda) this guy was VIDEO TAPING US, adn lotsa ppl around were TAKING PICTURES of us and stuff. we kept pretending we DIDNT SEE THE FELLA (AS IF) and just went on dancing. but it was AWKWARD I TELL YOU.

A-W-K-W-A-R-D

but we felt like superstars! HAHAHHAHAHAHA CELEBRITIES! seriously, THE WHOLE TIME DANCING we were being TAKEN *faints* i wonder how goofy we looked. XD
Brenda and Nge Seong Makan-ing
Yukata's~~
With my sister! x) no idea what Nge Seong is doing though.
With Sze Keat, sister's friend, driver to bon odori and sorts
with more GANG-JAPANESE fans

all in all, it was SUPER FUN. the dance was fun and tiring despite being constantly taken. haha was so super tired and sweaty when it was all over. SIIIIGHHH~~ BON ODORI '07! =)

l..l,

Another

Seven things you plan to do before you die
1. Go to paris with my loved one(super romantic, okay)
2. LI MAY SHOW *need i say more?* [hopefully]
3. graduate (copy xv punya)
4. get married. period. xp
5. bungee jumping (after LOTSA persuasion, hopefully i'll dare)
6. Do stuff for charity =) get involved
7. (I got this from xiao Von who got this from Su Ling and i'll have to agree with it. i think most people will want to before they die) have sex *but that goes without saying if im going to get married, right?*

Seven things you can do
1. not drink water for a full day (i think im capable)
2. take friggin long afternoon naps
3. read storybooks and finish them in a short period of time
4. relate to people
5. cheer people up
6. talk lotsa crap
7. dream [haha]

Seven celebrity crushes
1. Tom Felton
2. Frankie Muniz
3. Michael Vartan! (YES XV! ME TOO!)
4. Will Smith! (so what if hez OLD and married?!?!)
5. CHINA GUY (who isnt a celebrity but SHOULD BE ANYWAY)
6. some hot hong kong actor. dont know his name, dont bother to know. end of story.
7. Johnny Depp

(and many more)

Seven most repeated words (more like phrases)
1. Sup Dawg
2. LAMO
3. reaaaallly?
4. I KNOOOOW!!
5. and i was like
6. you think?
7. imapiranha *well not really*

Seven physical traits you look for in the opposite sex
1. SMILE! [most important!]
2. eyes
3. hair [fluffy fluffy! dont really like guys that wont let me mess up their hair, lol]
4. height [as long as he's taller than me]
5. teeth [? well im not sure really]
6. i'll have to ponder somemore
7. and more...

Seven tags to go to
1. Ee bumz
2. Casandra BONG
3. Joaaannneeee
4. Nicole
5. Sarah
6. Michelle
7. Sze Rong

Three names you go by
1. Li May
2. May
3. darling (HAHAHHAHAHA... to yuan lu at least xp)

Three Screen name you've ever had
1. May
2. PureViLmay
3. Chuck the Chicken (no, im kidding. HAHAHHAHA)

Three physical things you like about yourself
1. Legs
2. eyelashes? (they're okay i guess)
3. er... hmmm... hair (when its WORKING)

Three physical things you don't like about yourself
1. nose (mom doesnt like HERS either. what a thing to have in common)
2.
3.

Three parts of my heritage (copies xv directly)
1. chinese
2. asian
3. malaysian

Three things that scare you
1. bugs
2. Being Alone/ left behind/ ignored/ you get it
3. The dark

Three drinks (alcoholic or non)
1. Water
2. Tea (chinese, english, japanese, you name it)
3. Fruit juices!

Three of your everyday essentials
1. food
2. Computer
3. television

Three things you're wearing right now
1. Old ubk camp shirt
2. shorts
3. clips?

Three of your favourite movies
1. Lord of the rings
2. Pirates of the Caribbean
3. Pixars animation

Two truths and a lie
1. I have braces
2. Im in a bad mood now
3. Objects speak to me

(go figure)

Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeal to you
1. SMILE
2. hair
3. eyes

Three careers you are considering, or have considered
1. Child/family Psychologist
2. THE LI MAY SHOW ['nuff said]
3. DJ? [=__="]

havent really thought it through yet

Three ways that you are stereotypically a girl
1. Im vain
2. Camwhoring [not THE REAL THING, you know what i mean]
3. i understand people [guys NEVER DO. HAHHAHAHA *kidding*]

Three people you would like to see take this quiz now
1. YOU
2. what you already taken the test?
3. very funny, dont lie.

INVASION OF BANDS

The flag says all.
what? you dont know what its telling you?
STARE LONG ENOUGH AND YOU MIGHT JUST SEE THE LETTERS CHS
still dont?

go get your eyes checked, buddy.
this isnt our school band, but i thought the star formation was WAY cool
nice... pattern. =)
nice... pattern... again
I just had this FLAG moment where everything just was at a standstill and i heard it calling to me. TAKE A PHOTO OF ME! TAKE ME!!! and yeah well, i got a little tired of looking at NICE PATTERNS... that wasnt made by our school band. hence this picture. OH MY WHAT NICE LEGS.. I WONDER WHOSE LEGS ARE THOSE! *ohohoho*
i wanted to take this GO GABRIEL sign but couldnt... its the orange words there. see it?
THERE THEY ARE! THERE THEY ARE!
*screams* (and the crowd goes wiiiild)
GABRIEL!
PATTERN! *riiight* its nice
Super excited supporter in front of me as you can CLEARLY see... was quite annoyed because she was obstructing my camera from taking that NICE FIVE PATTERN OVER THERE.
Thank God im so SUPER SKILLED.
pattern. 'nuff said
another
and another
i printed screen this for bryan. IT SAYS CHS! SEE!??!
UBER COOOOL!
[fabulastic indeed!]

im sure you all can tell by now, patterns fascinate me, but not enough to bring words to my mind. All that comes to mind is... nice. nice. nice. Oh well. like stated in earlier post, vocab is SOOO down the drain. I wonder who's flushing. (bad pun. bryan is your fault. im holding you responsible for my lameness)

rushed to physics class after that, and so didnt get to watch the competition until the end. teacher went out to take this call and so i took out my camera and....they all refused to humour me. Except my cousin of course, we was talking so animatedly about his trip to sunway lagoon and how when he and his friends were sitting this ride this guy puked and the puke got onto his friend. but you didnt need to know that.

Later we went for dinner
the orange family
ate crayfish for the first time! (sorry kwan seng xp ate your kin!)
bloody delicious! x)
and ate soft crab for the first time too! thats mah victim
LOOK! shells off if you havent noticed
I CONQUER YOOOOUUU.
PWN PWN PWN PWN [?]
oohh...aaaah... crab so interesting?
LOOKS ALIVE, NO!?!?
YOU SEEKING FOR REVENGE NOW?!?!


the following are pictures of shane and the crab leg


yes shane. ASTOUNDING.
shauny pouring tea!
(whats so interesting about this?...beats me)
WHAT WHAT?!??!?!!
this was cute
Spot my shoes!! [that wasnt a hint]
you know you love us. and even if you dont, you get to pretend that you do.

l..l, Much love