weeds!

i'm not allowed to go to camp and now dad wants me to pull weeds in the garden..Blah~ how unfair is that?? not that i'm actually pulling weeds now..BWAHAHAA...*cough*

aaaaaaaaanyway, as i guranteed in the earlier posts, my study table is once again..messy. Bah~ only took me one and half day. Oh come on, with all the projects and everything, its impossible for me to keep it tidy.

SUCCESS! i managed to tidy my study table up AGAIN...

now..about my room table...*sigh*

got to clean it up cuz there are guests coming over this wednesday or something..mum has arranged this form 6 gathering..so yea...

scary room


doesn't the room look scary? like got some kind of pressence there or something Posted by Hello

Trapped

Its the holidays and i'm not going anywhere. yup. that's right.

I'M STUCK.

in my own house for the whole 2 weeks. someone save me!! *going out for tuition doesn't count!* man. this sucks. plus my dad keeps dragging me out of bed when i wanna sleeeeeeeep. hey he was the one who didn't allow me to go to prs camp in the first place. and now he's dragging me out of my bed? what's up with that?

i'm missing out so much not going to camp. this feels so bad. i really wanna go. they're gonna have so much fun and i'll be stuck here. unfairness of life. my dad wants me to stay home and study. like taht's gonna happen anyway. the exams just ended and he want's me to start studying for PMR right away. like puh-lease. at least let me have a week of rest which equals to 3 days of camp.


BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...*shakes head* parents. =.=

so now i'm trapped, stuck in here...with barely anyone to chat with since everyone's at camp and no one to call since sara is in camp too...maybe i'll call cassie. just hope she didn't go anywhere or i'd totally kill myself right here on the spot now. X_X

Friends i labelled *ahem*
Wei Khai - King Pig *bleh* which i also call Kingy
Jie Han - Banana Brickenstein which i also call Bbrick.(pronounced as Bee-Brick)
Vanessa (she labelled herself) - Coconut banana which she calls coconana *kawaii*

I'm labelled Evil Piggy Pau, piggy also sometimes written as piggie. but people usually call me pau-ey in short. ^^" WHY?!? cuz i have this cute evil pau emoticon and i really love it. thta's why. I'm the best pau that contains pork stuffings and if anyone eats me, they'll turn EVIL! beware people, BEWARE~~~

i've recently fallen in love with jesse mccartney's songs. they are so nice. espeacially, beautiful soul, because you live and she's no you. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! eternal love~~

*someone is ringing on the dorrbell* wonder who. annoying!! STOP PRESSING THE DOORBELL ALREADY! *sigh* FINALLY.

aaaaaaaaanyway...yea...nothing else to write adi...
life is just so boring..over and out.

~~~~~~~~~~Just Shoot Me~~~~~~~~~~~~

luck isn't on our side

we didn't win the chs idol.

no prize. no nothing. how sucky is THAT?!

there are four categories.
category A (form 1-3 solo singers) - 3 winners
category B (form 1-3 group singing) - 1 winner
category C (form 4-6 solo) - 3 winners
category D (form 4-6 group) - 3 winners

if you notice closely, you'll notice there is only one winner for category B while there are 3 for the other categories. can anyone explain to me why? the teacher in charge said they couldn't choose cuz we all sucked. okay, maybe she didn't put it like that, but she meant that la. ANNOYING. i mean, I AM OFFENDED. seriously. i don't think we're THAT bad. but kah kiat rated us 4 stars out of ten so maybe we are. i just didn't know better. oh well. Su ping is really ticked off. we all know that. she cried when she realised there wasn't gonna be runner ups for our category. and she said i wasn't serious cuz i said forget about it. well, what else can we do? its not like the teacher is going to change her mind anyway...stupid teacher.

i think us not winning had something to do with me cuz i didn't hold the mike properly. hell, i didn't know the correct way of holding the mike. no one taught me..well, maybe i was supposed to have common sense and know, but yea, i'm stupid, so sue me. so no one could hear me. at least thats what a lot of people said. some asid i was soft but could hear. some tried comforting me by saying, maybe your voice blended in and everything..but haih..i know i did badly. and i was scolded badly for that. trust me, i should know.

su ping actually hit me in the middle of the performance. indicating to me that i was holding the mike wrongly, but heck, i didn't know what she wanted to tell me then. what was on my mind was more like..'why you hit me for?' and then i ignored, cuz i couldn't make out head nor tail of why she hit me and continued singing. su ping also pushed sara's hand down cuz sara was pointing the mike at the speakers, producing this piercing sound. sis says she shouldn't have pushed sara's hand or hit mine though. cuz it looked like we sang wrongly or missed a line. then again, she only meant good. so nothing to say.

su ping cried after the performance..cuz brenda commented that she thought su pings voice sounded muffled. i think su ping really wants to win. haih...but seriously, i think she did well. i think it was more of me. oh well..lesson learnt, now i know how to hold the mike properly. Hey, this is a great learning experience for us all. and the school sound system sucks. brenda held the mike too far, so she was soft, but i know she was good..i could hear her..then again, this only my opinion. SARA WAS GRRRRREAAAAAAAT! that i know cuz everyone said so.she being her usual self was loud and strong and...*sigh* i love her!

anyway..sze ying's group won...not surprised. i mean, i kinda expected them to win already so...yea. her group consists of sze ying, nicole and shereen. they're really good. i like they're harmonization. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!

okay..i've done enough ranting..bye people

series of unfortunate events


series of unfortunate events..GRRREAAT SHOW. i love this pic Posted by Hello

kawaii pic


saizou on tatsuni's head! hahahahaaa -peacemaker kurogane- Posted by Hello

peacemaker kurogane


i love this pic. the girl is so cute! -peacemaker kurogane Posted by Hello

random things

i won't be able to beat stupid -he who must not be named but initialised- YCP this term.
and i'm not happy about it. MAN! i should've so studied harder.
this term was the slacking off term...everyone was well...slacking off...
i feel so stupid now..then again, i DID feel stupid then..and STILL DID NOT study.
tell me how thick i am..truth please...=.=
i really REALLY wish someone will beat his sorry ass.
preferrably casandra. CUZ I LOVE HER! -as a friend-

GO CASSIE! GO CASSIE! GO CASSIE!

yeap..i really hope i can still maintain top five but at this rate, it seems impossible.
pray hard for me...

and about YCP.
if killing someone wasn't a crime, and i wouldn't have to go to jail for it,
i would so have killed him a long LOOOOOOOOONG time ago..
throttle him in the school, shove him out of the window and throw daggers at him.
DIE YCP DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the disgusting dirty minded fool that i despise SO MUCH that one day he might actually trigger me and i'd actually REALLY kill him...
fat chance though...
shoving him out the window is impossible...i'm so skinny and he's well fat...
gotta find a sumo or a wrestler to get the job done.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyway,
going to brenda's house to practice later...
monday to bryans house to practice and tuesday brenda's house again..
wednesday is the finals...
cross your fingers people. wish us all the luck you have...^^

*sigh* i don't like singing in front of people, its this phobia...
that i'll sing like crap and everyone will be insulting me and everything..
haih...chs idol will be one HUGE step for me...

MUST HAVE SELF CONFIDENCE *chants*

i need moral support...><"
thank goodness we're singing in a group...
or i would really DIE.
have to overcome this fear. its seriously not healthy...

went shopping with sara, brenda and suping yesterday.
attire for chs idol finals...
we are planning on diff skirts but white shirts.

HEADLINES: SU PING IN SKIRT.

yes you heard me right. su ping WILL be wearing a short skirt that day. for the first time in her teenage life. all you people get your camera's ready. THIS WILL BE A SIGHT TO SEE. i wonder why su ping never wear skirts. i mean, boy does she look good. she looks good in everything she wears, i'm so envious. i bet a lot of other girls are too..hahaa...that girl should really take advantage of her figure. brenda, sara and i managed to get her to wear collar shirts! SUCCESS! she looks soooooooooooooooooooooooo GOOD! i'm not joking people. its a change as we only always see her in t-shirts and jeans. she looked so sweet with the skirt and the black sleeveless collar shirt on. SERIOUS PEOPLE. no joke. ^^" anyway, yeap. one other reason to watch the chs idol finals this coming wednesday. no one would want to miss out the chance of having to see su ping in a skirt right? 26th of may. hall of catholic high school. don't miss it.

brenda bought this REALLY nice shirt. she looks so hot! hahahaa...
sara bought a white sleeveless collar shirt. fits her really well.
and i bought a white skirt, which was so bloody expensive. well, not really, but to me..yeaaa ><

today going to shop for a top with my family, as well as watch star wars in midvalley.
can't wait! but my sister's friend say it isn't any good. star wars i mean.
hmm...guess we'll find out later, huh?

I CLEANED UP MY STUDY TABLE

this is something to be..well, celebrated. i mean, after months of not tiding up my table. FINALLY. mum was pestering and pestering so much i couldn't take it. and the sight of my table was horrible so yea...both pushed me to tidy it up. room table still messy though *groan* i can't bring myself to clean it up right now. maybe later. tidying up the study table was already a huge success. trust me, i should know. don't ask me, WHATS SO HARD ABOUT CLEANING YOUR STUDY TABLE?! well, it just is! i'm not a tidious person. so sue me. i can't keep anything tidy for two days. so yea..study table will be messy in no time. i garantee it. and mum is going to do her daily pestering again. i got a very bad headache after tidying up my study table. wonder why. had to lie down on the bed.. SEE HOW HARD IT IS TO TIDY UP A TABLE?! *kick table* owww...shouldn't have done that. i'm an idiot.


over and out.

the birdie is free to go!

YEAP! you heard that right!
the bird which was previously cooped up in THE cage is free to go wherever it wants!
for the time being.


THE EXAMS ARE OVER!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!


FINALLY!
a huge weight lifted off my shoulders,
MAN! this feels GRRRRRRRREAT!
well...until the results get back..then i suffer..
but before then...i'm gonna celebrate!

LET GET THE PARTY STARTED! *plays music* *dances*

~somebody hit the lights,
so we can rock it day and night,
people getting downs thats right, from am to pm,
everybody looking like stars, all the chicks and the fellas in the bars,
all y'all bumping this in your cars, from am to pm.~
*christina millian- am to pm*

chs idol finals is on wednesday.
till then we're going to practice practice practice.
you know they say practice makes perfect..

P.s- for those of you outside who still have your exams going on..
aaww...thats just too bad...BWHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAAA! THE EXAM IS GONE FOR US! ITS GONE! BON VOYAGE! yes sir'ee!!
BOOOOOOOOOOO to exams! BOOOOOOOOO!!!!

Shaney


My cute cousin SHANE! Posted by Hello

mist effect


i like this effect...BWAHAHHAAA... Posted by Hello

the eye


My eye! not scary though..i know... Posted by Hello


my finger painting Posted by Hello

Depression

well...guess i thought wrong...
guess SOMEONE just doesn't like me for who i am..
though i didn't know till recently...

*depressed*

its like i've been wrong my whole life..
all these while...
forget it.

i just want to scream:
I am so dissapointed in you.

the people i thought i could always turn to...whenever...

i thought wrong.


geez...why am i always wrong?
i'm so sick of being...well....WRONG

i've made up mind not to care.
but its hard since...we're like....*forget it*
Its hard to type when the person MIGHT just view my blog and read this.
if the person even bothers that is..*shudders*

Exam >.<

i'm so dead this exam..
can only get a stinking 55 for my KH paper...
whaddup with that?!?!
Bah~ I'm just so BAD at KH!
when did they ever decide to make jahitan a girl thing?
jahitan is SO not my thing.
seriously.
even worse...PAPER work for jahitan?
like NO WAY right? senseless goverment...
i understand SEWING the real thing...i mean sewing sewing...*forget it*
but PAPER WORK?!
crazy people...my brain is only THAT big.
i don't even know what the hell is kelim!!
i wonder how i'm gonna score an a in PMR for KH.
its a miracle i got an A last year on the last term exam...
hmm..wonder how i did it...

55 55 55 55 55 55 55 55 55 55 55 55 55 55 55 55 55 55 55 55 55

next up...English paper 2

i was so confident!
my essay was 730 words long and i still had 30 minutes to spare.

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?!
i didn't read the question properly and so...
wrote the essay in narrating form when we're suppose write it as...
you are THE PERSON...*first person*
so geram..>.<
totally messed up...at least 5 marks is gone..
what a waste...haih

5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5

now comes MATHS!!!! (well, only paper 1)

it was difficult man!! like...*pong*
but i only made 5 mistakes...
so its not so bad...*but i made only one mistake last term*

other people made a lot of mistakes...some didn't even have time to finish..
wonder why, i had 20 minutes to spare.
i think they dwelled on the hard questions for too long when i skipped them and came back to them later on...

but seriously, it was difficult.
really had to work the brains...

5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 55 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5 5

chinese was BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD
i wrote like a standard one kid.
I KNOW THIS FOR A FACT.
I READ MY ESSAY OVER AGAIN AND I WANTED TO SCREAM
haih...
i'm a banana...hahahaa...not literally idiot!
NO-you cannot peel off my skin and eat me.
NO-i am not yellow in colour

SHUT UP ALREADY!! *swt* *case of talking to self, don't mind me*

anyway, you get the point. it was BAD.

banana banana banana banana banana banana banana banana

sejarah wasn't half bad

probably can still get 75...no complaints.

75 75 75 75 75 75 75 75 75 75 75 75 75 75 75 75 75 75 75 75 75 75

ONE MORE WEEK OF EXAMS TILL FREEDOM!!

wish me luck

Chs Idol-2

WE'RE IN THE FINALS!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!

*scream* *scream* *scream*

WE DID IT!

now to focus on exams...but how??

i'm too excited...Bah~ I"M EVEN ONLINE.

I MEAN...WEEKDAY..ONLINE...WRONG

Crap. okay going offline..to study..hehee...

WE PASSED THE AUDITIONS!! *scream*

I LOVE THE WORLD!

fulle and pacifica


fulle and pacifica...so adorable Posted by Hello

fulle


fulle from scrapped princess! *sob* if only he didn't die..I LOVE HIM! Posted by Hello

christmas gathering pic


red shirt= jaq. brenda is the one beside her (tie half) wei jian is the blue shirt one. I have my hands on wei jian and karens shoulders. Yeap, i'm the one in the middle of the two. ai ming is standing up, (on the phone.) xue ni is tip=toeing. Suping is wearing yellow, nge seong white gyu in front and bryan is beside him. YAY! (last year christmas gathering at bryans house) Posted by Hello

christmas gathering pic


this was taken last year december. Christmas gathering! Top most left (pink shirt) is Xue Ni, beside her Karen (black shirt), I'm the one beisde karen and jeffrey is beside me. jeffrey has one of his arms on Kwan seng (black shirt) while kwan seng has both his hands on sara's shoulder. Sara= pink and white stripe shirt. Brenda is beside her (i have my hands on her head). Su ping is wearing yellow and jaq is beside her. Joanne is the girl in black, in front of jaqueline. Bryan is sitting beside nge seong. nge seong= white shirt guy in front. and the girl wearing white is ai ming. I LOVEYOU PEOPLE! Posted by Hello

Fade

fading away i am,
amongst the mist,
goodbye i bid,
and then i am there no more.

For fun

this is plainly for fun. hahaa
i just combined the lyrics of some songs...

so sue me. LoL

Broken this fragile thing now,
but i can't, i can't pick up the pieces,
now its just too late,
and we can't go back...
i tried so hard,
but in the end,
it doesn't even matter,
can't deny it, can't pretend,
just thought you were the one,
broken up, deep inside,
but you won't get to see the tears i cry,
behind these hazel eyes,
theres no where to go,
to dry her eyes, broken inside.
open your eyes,
and look outside, find the reasons why?
i'd throw my words all around,
but i can't find you a reason.
I curl up in my room sitting all alone,
sensitive and insecure so i put up a front,
but i'm at my limit and i can't take it anymore,
cuz you don't know what its like to be like me..
to be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark,
to be on the edge of breaking down,
and no ones there to save you...
welcome to my life.

Weird...i know...
but not a crime. so THERE!